Well, the consultant didn't actually say I have ADD
(more like, "You scored highly on the distracted questions, not so high on the hyperactive/impulsive.")
but I have a prescription for Ritalin waiting to be filled at a local pharmacy.
I just hope and pray that it works!!
I am just a tad nervous that it's not ADD, partly because I have had some diagnoses that I wasn't at all convinced about before,
but mainly because the medications I took for them, didn't help.
So I've got a kind of "If I'm wrong, then none of the meds are going to help, and if none of the meds help then I'm scr. . . *ahem* up the creek without a paddle."
Also because of previous meds not working, I am worried that they won't work because that would imply that it's not ADD, and again I will be up the creek, because I'll still be 'broken', but with no excuse/explanation.
And while that may make me sound like one of the three sillies, over the last 20 years in particular, I have found that I just don't fit into pigeon holes.
I won't be at all surprised if I don't fit this one either!
For a while I thought it was still not having any effect, not even the tinnitus or dizziness, but then I got talking to mum, and thought of a few things I should really write up on here.
I have other stuff I ought to be doing, but the other day I got my lace set up by the computer, in order to distract myself into doing something more productive than stupid puzzles.
That's working, so now I have two things competing against the things I should be doing; lace and posting on here.
So, I was doing lace and thinking about what I was going to write on here (lace is not particularly taxing, thoughtwise, same with gardening, but that's another story), and then I turned to the computer to start posting.
Browser opened up displaying the puzzle that I'd started earlier, so I got distracted by it.
But then I realised, I was still thinking about what to post!!! That does NOT usually happen.
Usually that puzzle needs so much concentration that it blocks out everything else.
I sat up straight with surprise, and realised I was dizzy . . . and my tinnitus is louder.
The Ritalin must have only just started working when I came indoors and started talking to Mum.
I guess taking the tablets with breakfast slowed down the absorbtion.
I'll try posting the other stuff now.
(Heh! It's not helping me get down to doing the stuff I really ought to be doing, but then again, it's not life threatening if I don't do it today!)
Well, this stuff seems about as reliable as chocolate.
Took 20mg with breakfast yesterday, and with the possible effect of making me possibly slightly less stressed out in a slightly stressful situation, it had no noticeable effect.
I had planned to take 10 midday and 10 in the afternoon, to try and avoid the minor crash of the day before, so that's what I did anyway.
Still no effect except possibly heartburn, but that might have been because I had three lumps of chocolate and a glass of water with the tablet. Probably not a good combination, even without the tablet!
Possibly it was the stress that negated the boost from the 20mg though, and the 10's individually wouldn't have been noticeable anyway.
Today is not likely to have any stress, so I'll try 2x20, and just hope I don't get the slow metabolism/hypoglycemic chill again.
I know just what you mean about being afraid that the meds won't work, and that you therefore don't have ADHD and therefore are broken without a reason QED.
It is unfortunate that, from what you say, you didn't see an ADHD specialist? I did, and got the strong impression that there are a whole range of drugs – to stimulants and to non-stimulant and, from what I have read elsewhere, a whole range of other stuff . It is an obvious point, but if Ritalin doesn't work, then there is another stimulant you should try and then there are the non-stimulant class of drugs.
A general consultant psychiatrist should, I would have thought, be able to logically work through these for you – but a specialist will obviously have much greater expertise in the area. It is possible to get out of county referrals to specialists if they are not available in your area – but the NHS does not like doing this and is likely to only want to do this for diagnosis, I suspect.
If you don't get anywhere and are not happy with your treatment, remember that you can go to PALS. Even if you do not want to complain as such, they may be able to help you navigate the system to get what you need – and I would have thought that people here could help you work out the next step if necessary.
Well, I finally managed to phone the specialist about trying Strattera, as mph wasn't doing much, and prescription should be ready to pick up today or tomorrow. Thankfully no problem with shared care.
As I had a few days between knowing I would get it, and actually getting it, I figured it might be a good idea to stop taking the Ritalin, so that I could be sure that whatever effects I notice, will be due to the Strattera, not due to coming off Ritalin.
Just as well I did, because I actually feel/am a bit brighter/more capable today than before I started taking the mph!! Go figure!!
Every other time I've missed too many doses, I've gone back to my old morose and ditzy stressy self. (edit:I'm always ditzy, I meant to write stressy)
I had started taking ginkgo as well*, and actually the only effect I noticed was that I didn't go back to my usual self if I didn't take 40 to 60 mg a day. - 30mg and I was still ok 24 hours later.
Now it seems 0mg and I'm still fine!! (No gingko either :S )
* I was only taking 1 tablet a day, but have since found out I should have been taking 3!
All I got from Ritalin (not counting the buzz when increasing the dose) was a reduction of fatigue and a more relaxed attitude to mildly stressful things. (No use for improving memory, but definitely worth taking if I can't find anything better.)
All the gingko did (at 1/3 of the suggested dose) was extend that effect/reduce the dosage of Ritalin needed to maintain that effect.
Still pretty impressive for a herbal remedy imho.
If the Strattera doesn't help, or if it doesn't help as much as I need, I will definitely try gingko again. (And try full dose too! ;))
Now, see, that's logical. It made you worse going on it, so now you're off it, you feel better again.
Also logical was that I reverted to normal when I missed taking enough of it.
I can also see that you could improve from taking something for a while, and that improvement stay with you even after you stop taking it. like a course of antibiotics for example.
That wasn't happening with the Ritalin though, so it must be something to do with the gingko, but how the heck can I be even better for stopping taking something that also made me better in the first place. :S
And now there's another weird thing just happened. About 4.30 this morning, after an hour of tossing and turning and completely failing to get back to sleep, I realised that I hadn't had any chocolate or almonds yesterday, so that explains my reversion to my (for several years) normal lousy sleep pattern . . .
Except that after about an hour of sitting up and doing stuff, or getting up, I'm usually knackered again, but it's been over 2 hours now, and I'm still not tired.
Well, just starting to get tired, and a bit of a headache. . .
Well, I've been taking Strattera for about a week now.
Went back to being irritable from day one, and last few days I've been really achy, but I put it down to rushing around so much and carrying heavy stuff.
It feels very like I used to get when I'd done a lot of walking or dancing, or carrying heavy stuff around, but I haven't had any problems for a long time now, years, and it used to clear pretty well with ibuprofen, and it didn't make any noticeable difference this time.
Then I came across a thread on here talking about achiness, and realised that it coincides with taking the full dose of Strattera.
In short, I'm not liking it, I'm every bit as bad as I was before I started Ritalin.
The only reason I'm still taking it is because I've read that it takes a few weeks to take effect , and because I found an article that says it affects affects acetylcholine pathways beneficially, and is (therefore) good for memory. Article
I haven't read it all by any means but ctrl+F on 'acetylcholine', 'ADHD' and 'memory' (separately) brings up interesting bits, including that it takes weeks to give significant improvement.
2 1/2 weeks at 80mg and while I'm not quite so tired or so cranky, I'm every bit as achy, sleep is almost non existant if I don't eat a lot of dark chocolate, and I can't face doing anything, even going to a dance class.
I can kind of gee myself up to make a move towards doing whatever, but as soon as I get up and close to w/e I crawl away from it.
I must phone today, to make an appointment to see the psych. at the end of the week.
In the meantime I'm going to take mph as well as the Strattera, as I really need to get stuff done.
I don't think the Strattera is doing my impulsivity any good either, but that's a long story.
I'm sure there was something else, oh yeah, I don't think it's helping my memory either, I'll finish the packet, if the psych says to, as it's supposed to take a while, but even if it does work on CA, I can't be doing with this aching and inability to do anything useful.
What's the point of having a decent memory if I want to stay in bed all day?
I think I really need to discuss taking something stronger.