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Post by Mouse on May 25, 2016 6:26:42 GMT
Went to work with low expectations and the day went. I just stuck to phone calls and tried not to say things out loud. On Monday I spoke to someone as fed up with things as me. So I'm not alone, in that respect.
I'm a right muddler about my hours. Forgot I am on late shift today and tomorrow. Yaaay! But typically, having a skewed sense of time and crap mental diary-keeping, I still didn't twig it was today and tomorrow when the person I swapped with was reminding me me yesterday afternoon. That's what comes of having multiple thoughts intruding all the ruddy time.
Technically, there's no reason I couldn't do my job from home. If only...
I have Friday off + BH Monday and Tuesday. So another 'Yaaay'!! Friday I will be the dogsbody as we are putting up a new fence.
I have never been bothered about going away for my holidays. I just like being at home. Colleagues come back with a tan and holiday tales...and I feel slightly abnormal.
My fat is holding me back but I fail to take charge of it. It feels like such a long and hard job. But I know that's because I'm not boxing clever.
I might go mad and post my weight on here and then post it weekly.
My complaint all the time is that I have nothing to wear. At the end of July I have a posh dress event to go to. As soon as it was announced my sister texted me saying she'd take me clothes shopping - she wrote 'because you're always saying you have nothing to wear' and to avoid the distress. She's lovely. Wish I hadn't bought thst Tiramisu pudding. Wish even more I hadn't eaten some of it. I hate myself.
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Post by vagueandrandom on May 25, 2016 8:30:57 GMT
Don't feel bad Mouse . . you can do it. . . it doesn't help that you have a sitting-down job. . . try to walk a bit more. . don't have things like tiramisu in the house. . if you then have a sugar craving, you have to go out of the house to the shop. . .either the thought of going out will put you off, or you could walk to the nearest shop and feel good that you've cancelled out a few of the calories! Oh! just remembered that you've got a new house and garden. . .get out doing stuff in the garden. . do some decorating, or unpacking/moving boxes around. . . anything active. I hope you're able to enjoy the rest of your day
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Post by Mouse on May 26, 2016 6:55:32 GMT
Thank you V&R. Last day of work today but busy day tomz! I worry about money all the time, so I'm tighter than a fish's backside but I have to admit my garden is starting to look lovely, really lovely! I'll be mostly propagating my plants to mitigate the costs Speaking of pounds. Weight. 227. EEK. 16st 3lb in the all together. Well, its out there now. Time to shift it.
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Post by Mouse on Jun 2, 2016 5:41:43 GMT
I'm so fed up. I cant find my drivers licence which I need to sign on at new gp surgery. I don't have a passport. I feel hacked off and thwarted at every chuffing turn by myself.
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Post by contrarymary on Jun 2, 2016 19:13:45 GMT
bums Mouseis there something else they'd accept other than a driving licence or passport? there are people (like me!) who don't have either, so there may be other possibilities... well done on putting your weight out there, so to speak is there one thing you are going to change - take up or leave out - to begin getting in shape? NB gardening & housework count as exercise!
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Post by Mouse on Jun 5, 2016 10:41:07 GMT
Thank you will ask them...tjo I have to find d licence anyway. 225 this morning. Going the right way... Exercise - will be gardening, decorating, walking and if get bike out - cycling. Have pepped up hair with wash in colour...had grey highlights.
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Post by vagueandrandom on Jun 5, 2016 13:15:02 GMT
Maybe they'll accept a Council Tax or utility bill? Well done with the weight. . keep going. . a bit of hair brightening always works wonders for self-esteem too
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Post by Mouse on Jun 5, 2016 19:43:42 GMT
I just realised that I haven't eaten today. Not a single calorie. Except for some weak ribena drinks. Been relatively active as well.I don't like hot weather. I like it warm-ish but not hot. And in keeping with my reddish brown hair I have a nose to match. Oops.
Small result re hair: My mum said it looked like I'd had blonde highlights.
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Post by Mouse on Jun 6, 2016 5:09:31 GMT
Going to weight watchers tonight - not been to a slimming club for years. Hopefully it will provide a further external nudge. Brian is v v fuzzy today - absolutely not looking forward to work. I so need a change but am rudderless, career-wise and afraid of making the wrong move. Also thwarted on the application filling front as discovered I cannot open Word on my laptop... so that biggered up my plans for making a start on breaking free I could have cried when I realised but hey ho. Time for a new laptop maybe.
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Post by contrarymary on Jun 7, 2016 10:02:56 GMT
how was weightwatchers Mouse ? well done for going the Word thing is a bummer
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Post by Mouse on Aug 16, 2016 11:51:05 GMT
Haven't been on here as very down at the moment. I believe that I will probably be made redundant or is it start the consultation process in October ... confuzled as we have had meetings which tell us precisely eff all. Currently on annual leave supposed to be laying patio but work stopped as appears there may be an issue with the paving slabs... and they weren't cheap ones either... so fed up by that. My garden looks like a building site and I can't bear to open the envelopes with the divorce paperwork in them. My plans for last week and this shot to pieces. I'm on two werks annual leave. I'd like to hibernate but can't! And can't think either. So am a real bundle of happiness..QDL (quiet desperate laugh) such first world problems. I know I am a very lucky person for these being my only issues. Glad I put this in writing. Sense of perspective returning.
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Post by contrarymary on Aug 16, 2016 17:16:14 GMT
(((((((( Mouse)))))))) empathetic hugs xx
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Post by Mouse on Dec 7, 2016 7:10:39 GMT
Okay.. so slimming world was a failure ... not my cup of tea at all. I'm no further on with my divorce. Spent lots of money this year. Walked 5.3 miles a couple of weekends ago in knackered trainers and got blisters (had estimated distance as about half mile there, same again back. On the positive side I have appt with psychiatrist for meds on Friday. Only taken me months to get new GP sorted. Well I think this is sorted...
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Post by Mouse on Dec 7, 2016 7:12:25 GMT
I did sort out a solicitor for my divorce and started the process. He read the paperwork that I couldn't bear reading.
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Post by vagueandrandom on Dec 7, 2016 10:59:51 GMT
Hi Mouse Well done on starting the divorce . .it's not an easy thing to do. and good luck with the new GP and psych. .
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Post by Mouse on May 10, 2017 11:00:27 GMT
Yesterday I was prescribed Elvanse. Took first one rather late in the day at 2.50 pm. Oops. knackered first thing this morning as didn't sleep until gone 3.00am I felt calmer overall, I think. And that is the problem ... I just don't know whether I'm imagining it or not. My partner says to not think about it but just go with it. I didn't get wound up or snotty in the way I usually do yesterday, in the evening, so will assume it is working. Of course it could be because I had the day off and didn't have the frustrations of work. I will have to be back at work to know for sure. Trying to remain positive though.
I had severe emotional overwhelm at the end of my working day on Monday and had to get away from my desk. And with the office move/reorganisation which took place on Monday working conditions are even more adhd unfriendly/unkind than you could make them if you tried. I had been sitting there feeling it was all futile and my head just blew a fuse. Contemplating becoming a rat and fleeing the sinking ship!
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