Post by Beth82 on Aug 22, 2016 1:28:21 GMT
Hello,
I've had a few frank conversations with friends and family recently (following an argument with my dad) and it's left me feeling really vulnerable and sad. I used to be so happy to be the person I am: creative, excitable, a thrill-seeker, always happy to see friends. and family. But I realise that when others describe me I don't recognise myself. I suppose I assumed everyone was like me, or just amore restrained version! I always thought I just did everything faster than others! I'm starting to realise perhaps that my behaviour looks anti social or crass. I am quite an anxious person and worry a lot about how I appear to others, not offending others and really torment myself after meeting people regarding whether I have embarrassed myself or talked too much. I really care and do try. Things I've been told:
I always fidget and look around when others are talking which means people think I'm not listening/don't care (as I said, not true. I fidget and can remember very well everything that has been said)
I can't sit still even in important situations like church when everyone else is doing
I'm ditsy / a 'character''!
I'm late a lot (again, not purposefully but it looks disrespectful)
I talk over people, including finishing their sentences
I exhaust people (I feel like they have to build themselves up to meet with me)
I feel like I spend so much energy trying to listen, be quiet and focus for more than 30 seconds in work and out of work and it's exhausting. To find out that this is not working and I annoy people really upsets me and makes me very self conscious. I'm starting to spend less time with people and more time doing creative things alone.
Ultimately, does this sound like adhd? Can anyone empahise? If necessary, how do I get tested - privately or through my doctor? Any advice at all I'd really appreciate.
Thanks.
I've had a few frank conversations with friends and family recently (following an argument with my dad) and it's left me feeling really vulnerable and sad. I used to be so happy to be the person I am: creative, excitable, a thrill-seeker, always happy to see friends. and family. But I realise that when others describe me I don't recognise myself. I suppose I assumed everyone was like me, or just amore restrained version! I always thought I just did everything faster than others! I'm starting to realise perhaps that my behaviour looks anti social or crass. I am quite an anxious person and worry a lot about how I appear to others, not offending others and really torment myself after meeting people regarding whether I have embarrassed myself or talked too much. I really care and do try. Things I've been told:
I always fidget and look around when others are talking which means people think I'm not listening/don't care (as I said, not true. I fidget and can remember very well everything that has been said)
I can't sit still even in important situations like church when everyone else is doing
I'm ditsy / a 'character''!
I'm late a lot (again, not purposefully but it looks disrespectful)
I talk over people, including finishing their sentences
I exhaust people (I feel like they have to build themselves up to meet with me)
I feel like I spend so much energy trying to listen, be quiet and focus for more than 30 seconds in work and out of work and it's exhausting. To find out that this is not working and I annoy people really upsets me and makes me very self conscious. I'm starting to spend less time with people and more time doing creative things alone.
Ultimately, does this sound like adhd? Can anyone empahise? If necessary, how do I get tested - privately or through my doctor? Any advice at all I'd really appreciate.
Thanks.