Post by lemond on Feb 26, 2017 18:48:23 GMT
Hello
I have only found and joined the forum today. I have been led here through informal tests taken during training in work, documents and articles read through work and the resultant online tests I have taken. I initially noticed how many of the pointers applied to me during the work bits mentioned above and which seemed to round up a lot of the things that have made me struggle throughout my life from school through personal life and continued in my working life.
However, I appear to meet a distinct set and do not match some.
I procrastinate over everything unless I have developed a routine (which I have had to do in order to 'face' things that need doing
I am currently 'reading' 5 books and have been doing so for months (and still look to buy new ones)
I constantly zone out and think about other things and have done so all of my life. I hear parts of what people are saying and then gradually or suddenly without any control or realization think about something else (the stitching on trousers/skirt of the person next to me, the pattern on the ceiling tiles, the light pattern on the floor caused by gap in the curtain - a strong memory from school is staring at the dust floating in the sun rays in assembly and I still do it now.
Work that takes others minutes to do takes me hours and sometimes days because I can't just sit down and get on with it.
I also often put work off because I have missed an important piece of information or instruction due to zoning out.
I pick up on the finest of details on things I see and I am constantly fascinated by these new things and randomly point them out to my wife.
If I do have to complete work or a task, I have to have something else accompanying it like a certain radio program on or it has to be started at a certain time of days or I think I have wasted the time.
I have to have things around me or I forget that that I have them.
I have certain things that I buy impulsively (albums, 500 pairs of shoes, coats, books, DVDs)
Even the slightest thing like making a phonecall to a utility company or going to the post office to pay a bill is a massive tasnyet going to Wales to climb a mountain or going out to run for miles or train for hours is less so.
The only time I am relaxed is during or after exercise. When taking part in physical activity (running/cycling/boxing/cross training/circuits/football) , I hammer myself and give every bit of effort and energy I have which makes actually me smile and relax the more I do (obvious endorphin rushes)
I have trouble watching a film right through despite the fact that I constantly look for films to watch - I have started watching 4 films in the last week that I have got through no more than 30 minutes before turning them off (not bad films)
I am convinced that despite being constantly tired from my hard work ( I do work very hard and sometimes when I actually get really on task, will spend a over the top amount of time on a task), that I am not good enough at it and that I am just about getting away with it and will be found out soon
I will put off work that involves me thinking for as long as I can as it stresses me on so many levels. The thinking stresses me and the fact that I am getting the work done so slowly stresses me on top. I in turn get stresses that I believe because I can't concentrate on the work that it must be down to me not being good enough.
I was always classed as a 'daydreamer' in school and was always quiet but while I was quiet, a million things were going on in my head
I am a very creative person and constantly have ideas for new things ( I need to write, draw, paint, make physical objects create things in computer drawing programs) - so much so that my mind feels like it will explode if I do not get all of the things in my head out and onto paper/into a physical object and due to this, I more often than not avoid starting anything and do something to distract myself instead (usually exercise or mind numbing action TV).
This is because I also do noy have the patience to carry them through to the full requirements and need them to be completed quickly so that I can move on to something else.
I am currently sitting here with the television on, a pile of 5 books I am reading, a large sketchbook and my work documents, all whilst typing this out (oh and I am thinking about what I will be having to eat later)
I feel that I am either sitting staring off into space or bored and hyper alert unless I am eating or exercising.
I can't sleep unless I have stimuli around me like traffic noise, the radio etc
I have to write constant lists at work to remember to do things, sometimes having 2 or 3 going at the same time.
I misplace things if they are not kept around me.
I do not however:
interrupt people
finish other peoples sentences
have difficulty waiting my turn to but do get bored
I don't make careless mistakes because it takes me ages to o most things
I am not sure what I am trying to achieve from posting other than maybe see if others share my difficulties and see if I am 'OK'. (And to distract me from completing the work I have been trying to do since 10am this morning)
I thank people in advance for any replies I may receive and apologize if my post is difficult to follow.
thanks
I have only found and joined the forum today. I have been led here through informal tests taken during training in work, documents and articles read through work and the resultant online tests I have taken. I initially noticed how many of the pointers applied to me during the work bits mentioned above and which seemed to round up a lot of the things that have made me struggle throughout my life from school through personal life and continued in my working life.
However, I appear to meet a distinct set and do not match some.
I procrastinate over everything unless I have developed a routine (which I have had to do in order to 'face' things that need doing
I am currently 'reading' 5 books and have been doing so for months (and still look to buy new ones)
I constantly zone out and think about other things and have done so all of my life. I hear parts of what people are saying and then gradually or suddenly without any control or realization think about something else (the stitching on trousers/skirt of the person next to me, the pattern on the ceiling tiles, the light pattern on the floor caused by gap in the curtain - a strong memory from school is staring at the dust floating in the sun rays in assembly and I still do it now.
Work that takes others minutes to do takes me hours and sometimes days because I can't just sit down and get on with it.
I also often put work off because I have missed an important piece of information or instruction due to zoning out.
I pick up on the finest of details on things I see and I am constantly fascinated by these new things and randomly point them out to my wife.
If I do have to complete work or a task, I have to have something else accompanying it like a certain radio program on or it has to be started at a certain time of days or I think I have wasted the time.
I have to have things around me or I forget that that I have them.
I have certain things that I buy impulsively (albums, 500 pairs of shoes, coats, books, DVDs)
Even the slightest thing like making a phonecall to a utility company or going to the post office to pay a bill is a massive tasnyet going to Wales to climb a mountain or going out to run for miles or train for hours is less so.
The only time I am relaxed is during or after exercise. When taking part in physical activity (running/cycling/boxing/cross training/circuits/football) , I hammer myself and give every bit of effort and energy I have which makes actually me smile and relax the more I do (obvious endorphin rushes)
I have trouble watching a film right through despite the fact that I constantly look for films to watch - I have started watching 4 films in the last week that I have got through no more than 30 minutes before turning them off (not bad films)
I am convinced that despite being constantly tired from my hard work ( I do work very hard and sometimes when I actually get really on task, will spend a over the top amount of time on a task), that I am not good enough at it and that I am just about getting away with it and will be found out soon
I will put off work that involves me thinking for as long as I can as it stresses me on so many levels. The thinking stresses me and the fact that I am getting the work done so slowly stresses me on top. I in turn get stresses that I believe because I can't concentrate on the work that it must be down to me not being good enough.
I was always classed as a 'daydreamer' in school and was always quiet but while I was quiet, a million things were going on in my head
I am a very creative person and constantly have ideas for new things ( I need to write, draw, paint, make physical objects create things in computer drawing programs) - so much so that my mind feels like it will explode if I do not get all of the things in my head out and onto paper/into a physical object and due to this, I more often than not avoid starting anything and do something to distract myself instead (usually exercise or mind numbing action TV).
This is because I also do noy have the patience to carry them through to the full requirements and need them to be completed quickly so that I can move on to something else.
I am currently sitting here with the television on, a pile of 5 books I am reading, a large sketchbook and my work documents, all whilst typing this out (oh and I am thinking about what I will be having to eat later)
I feel that I am either sitting staring off into space or bored and hyper alert unless I am eating or exercising.
I can't sleep unless I have stimuli around me like traffic noise, the radio etc
I have to write constant lists at work to remember to do things, sometimes having 2 or 3 going at the same time.
I misplace things if they are not kept around me.
I do not however:
interrupt people
finish other peoples sentences
have difficulty waiting my turn to but do get bored
I don't make careless mistakes because it takes me ages to o most things
I am not sure what I am trying to achieve from posting other than maybe see if others share my difficulties and see if I am 'OK'. (And to distract me from completing the work I have been trying to do since 10am this morning)
I thank people in advance for any replies I may receive and apologize if my post is difficult to follow.
thanks