Post by Louis W on Apr 17, 2019 17:55:20 GMT
Hello!
I'm Louis. I'm currently undiagnosed but in the process of scheduling a meeting regarding one!
i'm 24 years old currently, i've lived my entire life undiagnosed however ADHD is a common theme that has continually popped up throughout my life, my amazing girlfriend has encouraged me to pursue it more as she can see the stress my mental state is putting me under. I was never good at school, i found it hard to focus, my mind was never there and almost never did homework until i was prompted the night before by my parents. This was a common thread from primary school to secondary school, onwards to university. It was brought to my attention by multiple teachers and professors that i may be dealing with ADHD. I remember asking my parents multiple times to take me to speak to someone about it but they were always in denial and in a sense, seemed as if they didn't want to believe that their 'perfect boy' could be dealing with something like that.
I've never been great at the jobs i've had, i've bounced between a couple but was always told i couldn't focus on tasks and was constantly given a talking to about forgetting to follow through with tasks. The only subject i passed at school was music, i've been told that a lot of people with ADHD have their crutches. Mine has always been music, and i'm lucky enough that i've managed to keep at it and it's beginning to turn into a job. I cannot focus on anything else and that has always been the case. That said, i struggle day to day to work, i'm so easily distracted and feel incredibly fatigued if i try too hard to make myself work. My mind is constantly rushing with new ideas and i continually start new projects without much consideration of finishing the last. It stresses me out and causes me so much anxiety however i really don't feel like it's in my control. I don't know if anyone else does this but at night before i go to sleep i think to myself 'Tomorrow is the day i really sit down and work hard, nothing will get in the way'. and that never really happens.
I've spent far too many years listening to my parents and teachers voices in my head telling me i'm lazy, that i just dont work hard and have no drive. I think the reason it upsets me is because i want to be able to work hard and focus more than anything in the world. I've always felt jealous of those who can sit down and be focused for long periods of time. I have let these comments about myself get to me to the point where i've neglected asking for help.
The reason i'm posting on here is because i wanted to ask advice on not letting these comments get to me. I'm very nervous as if the results from this evaluation come back that i've not got ADHD, and that maybe i'll just continue to believe what people have told me. Is there any advice anyone can give me, did anyone else feel this way when they were seeking out their diagnosis?
Thank you so much, I'm awfully sorry if this is all over the place!
I'm Louis. I'm currently undiagnosed but in the process of scheduling a meeting regarding one!
i'm 24 years old currently, i've lived my entire life undiagnosed however ADHD is a common theme that has continually popped up throughout my life, my amazing girlfriend has encouraged me to pursue it more as she can see the stress my mental state is putting me under. I was never good at school, i found it hard to focus, my mind was never there and almost never did homework until i was prompted the night before by my parents. This was a common thread from primary school to secondary school, onwards to university. It was brought to my attention by multiple teachers and professors that i may be dealing with ADHD. I remember asking my parents multiple times to take me to speak to someone about it but they were always in denial and in a sense, seemed as if they didn't want to believe that their 'perfect boy' could be dealing with something like that.
I've never been great at the jobs i've had, i've bounced between a couple but was always told i couldn't focus on tasks and was constantly given a talking to about forgetting to follow through with tasks. The only subject i passed at school was music, i've been told that a lot of people with ADHD have their crutches. Mine has always been music, and i'm lucky enough that i've managed to keep at it and it's beginning to turn into a job. I cannot focus on anything else and that has always been the case. That said, i struggle day to day to work, i'm so easily distracted and feel incredibly fatigued if i try too hard to make myself work. My mind is constantly rushing with new ideas and i continually start new projects without much consideration of finishing the last. It stresses me out and causes me so much anxiety however i really don't feel like it's in my control. I don't know if anyone else does this but at night before i go to sleep i think to myself 'Tomorrow is the day i really sit down and work hard, nothing will get in the way'. and that never really happens.
I've spent far too many years listening to my parents and teachers voices in my head telling me i'm lazy, that i just dont work hard and have no drive. I think the reason it upsets me is because i want to be able to work hard and focus more than anything in the world. I've always felt jealous of those who can sit down and be focused for long periods of time. I have let these comments about myself get to me to the point where i've neglected asking for help.
The reason i'm posting on here is because i wanted to ask advice on not letting these comments get to me. I'm very nervous as if the results from this evaluation come back that i've not got ADHD, and that maybe i'll just continue to believe what people have told me. Is there any advice anyone can give me, did anyone else feel this way when they were seeking out their diagnosis?
Thank you so much, I'm awfully sorry if this is all over the place!