Post by hanzo on Jul 20, 2019 12:21:25 GMT
Hi,
im a current university student in Scotland and i’ve recently sought help from my GP re:ADHD as I had begun to get sick of my constant ‘idiocy’. I’m a medical student, and so on paper haven’t had much of a problem, although I have had to resit 6 exams to get here.
i went to my GP and was referred to a psychiatrist who after our first consultation expressed his suspicion that I may well have adhd and given how my symptoms affect my life, would benefit from another consultation following sending some of my old school reports.
However, my psychiatrist left his post and I’ve now got another psychiatrist. We had a very short consultation this week (to which I was 10 minutes EARLY!!) but ended up waiting for an hour in the waiting room as I hadn’t been called in, only for a nurse to help me out and try and find the psychiatrist after reception couldn’t help me and the psychiatrist said that he’d called out my name on time and that I must have not been there but I was! So this upset me as I had for once done what I should have by arriving early and had travelled from England for this appointment which I had thought would help me and that I would receive advice for my upcoming resits. However, this psychiatrist told me he would rearrange the appointment as it was too late (I was there on time and trying to beat my sudoku record!!) . I burst into tears and he pitied me and took me into his office and said ‘we are looking to rule out adhd, and I don’t think you fit the criteria for adhd’ and gave me the diva 2.0 to take away and complete in my own time and to bring back to our next appointment.
im anxious that this psychiatrist doesn’t seem to have read my notes or spoken to my original psychiatrist as he had told me he was leaning towards adhd rather than away, which has confused and worried me as I was hoping to get some help with my inability to cope as a real human.
ive struggled with tardiness (I was even late to a final exam which meant that I was turned away and so failed the module); lack of results for the time and effort I put into my studies, and I don’t think I’m taking the piss as in I have tried really hard for the whole semester and still come out with a fail or scrape a pass which isn’t ideal if I want to actually be a doctor; chronic disorganisation as I lose everything I need and spend ages looking for stuff that I’ve just had and have such a messy living area because I can’t put things away because I’ll never find them otherwise and I try and tidy my things but it quickly becomes an absolute tip again; I struggle to keep jobs as I’m always late even though I need a job in order to get through university which is becoming very tiresome and annoying.
i’m starting To feel useless as I know what I need to do and still I just don’t DO it, and when I do, apparently it isn’t enough anyway. I’m an intelligent person and I’ve had many arguments with my family wrt not fulfilling my potential and no matter how many times I make the same mistake, I learn in my head that I shouldn’t do that but I still make them again and again!
i don’t know if this is a blessing or a curse but as I’m studying medicine, I appreciate that diagnoses are not necessarily made on exclusions and the attitude of my new psychiatrist makes me anxious that he doesn’t believe in adhd in ‘high achieving’ adults because we didn’t have an actual consultation at all, I was upset that even though I’d tried to do everything right i’d Still f*d up and he wanted to see his next patient so we didn’t form any sort of rapport and he didn’t get to hear anything from me and I’m scared that he doesn’t believe or can’t see that I’m struggling to stay afloat.
im fed up of being useless and yet being intelligent at the same time, and Its hilarious how the current screening questionnaires are literally written about me, my mum is also of the opinion that me having adhd would explain a lot of things like not listening when she’s talking to me and forgetting simple things and nearly burning the house down because I forget that I put a pan of oil on the cooker etc.
i don’t know how to go into our next appointment as I don’t know why my new psychiatrist would tell me the opposite of what the other had said when he hasn’t spoken to me or heard how much of a mess I am and how despite my attempts to change my actions I still can’t seem to reach a functional status.
I’ve tried keeping schedules and making to do lists but I make them and then never look at them again. I’ve tried setting my watch 10mminutes fast but I still show up everywhere half an hour late. I’ve tried sorting out my things for the next day to save time at night time but I forget what I’ve put in my bag and have to take it all out and check because I can’t trust that I’ve done it properly.
its becoming unmanageable and I just want some support and I’m scared that my new psychiatrist has written me off without having spoken to me at all and is biased against me as on paper it doesn’t seem like I’m doing too bad, but if he knew how chaotic I am and how tiresome it’s becoming for my friends and how I struggle with my relationships because of how reliably unreliable I am and how my academics have really suffered. I’m on my last chance at medical school and I’m scared that if I don’t get help soon I will fall completely off the wagon and be kicked out and then have wasted my future
im a current university student in Scotland and i’ve recently sought help from my GP re:ADHD as I had begun to get sick of my constant ‘idiocy’. I’m a medical student, and so on paper haven’t had much of a problem, although I have had to resit 6 exams to get here.
i went to my GP and was referred to a psychiatrist who after our first consultation expressed his suspicion that I may well have adhd and given how my symptoms affect my life, would benefit from another consultation following sending some of my old school reports.
However, my psychiatrist left his post and I’ve now got another psychiatrist. We had a very short consultation this week (to which I was 10 minutes EARLY!!) but ended up waiting for an hour in the waiting room as I hadn’t been called in, only for a nurse to help me out and try and find the psychiatrist after reception couldn’t help me and the psychiatrist said that he’d called out my name on time and that I must have not been there but I was! So this upset me as I had for once done what I should have by arriving early and had travelled from England for this appointment which I had thought would help me and that I would receive advice for my upcoming resits. However, this psychiatrist told me he would rearrange the appointment as it was too late (I was there on time and trying to beat my sudoku record!!) . I burst into tears and he pitied me and took me into his office and said ‘we are looking to rule out adhd, and I don’t think you fit the criteria for adhd’ and gave me the diva 2.0 to take away and complete in my own time and to bring back to our next appointment.
im anxious that this psychiatrist doesn’t seem to have read my notes or spoken to my original psychiatrist as he had told me he was leaning towards adhd rather than away, which has confused and worried me as I was hoping to get some help with my inability to cope as a real human.
ive struggled with tardiness (I was even late to a final exam which meant that I was turned away and so failed the module); lack of results for the time and effort I put into my studies, and I don’t think I’m taking the piss as in I have tried really hard for the whole semester and still come out with a fail or scrape a pass which isn’t ideal if I want to actually be a doctor; chronic disorganisation as I lose everything I need and spend ages looking for stuff that I’ve just had and have such a messy living area because I can’t put things away because I’ll never find them otherwise and I try and tidy my things but it quickly becomes an absolute tip again; I struggle to keep jobs as I’m always late even though I need a job in order to get through university which is becoming very tiresome and annoying.
i’m starting To feel useless as I know what I need to do and still I just don’t DO it, and when I do, apparently it isn’t enough anyway. I’m an intelligent person and I’ve had many arguments with my family wrt not fulfilling my potential and no matter how many times I make the same mistake, I learn in my head that I shouldn’t do that but I still make them again and again!
i don’t know if this is a blessing or a curse but as I’m studying medicine, I appreciate that diagnoses are not necessarily made on exclusions and the attitude of my new psychiatrist makes me anxious that he doesn’t believe in adhd in ‘high achieving’ adults because we didn’t have an actual consultation at all, I was upset that even though I’d tried to do everything right i’d Still f*d up and he wanted to see his next patient so we didn’t form any sort of rapport and he didn’t get to hear anything from me and I’m scared that he doesn’t believe or can’t see that I’m struggling to stay afloat.
im fed up of being useless and yet being intelligent at the same time, and Its hilarious how the current screening questionnaires are literally written about me, my mum is also of the opinion that me having adhd would explain a lot of things like not listening when she’s talking to me and forgetting simple things and nearly burning the house down because I forget that I put a pan of oil on the cooker etc.
i don’t know how to go into our next appointment as I don’t know why my new psychiatrist would tell me the opposite of what the other had said when he hasn’t spoken to me or heard how much of a mess I am and how despite my attempts to change my actions I still can’t seem to reach a functional status.
I’ve tried keeping schedules and making to do lists but I make them and then never look at them again. I’ve tried setting my watch 10mminutes fast but I still show up everywhere half an hour late. I’ve tried sorting out my things for the next day to save time at night time but I forget what I’ve put in my bag and have to take it all out and check because I can’t trust that I’ve done it properly.
its becoming unmanageable and I just want some support and I’m scared that my new psychiatrist has written me off without having spoken to me at all and is biased against me as on paper it doesn’t seem like I’m doing too bad, but if he knew how chaotic I am and how tiresome it’s becoming for my friends and how I struggle with my relationships because of how reliably unreliable I am and how my academics have really suffered. I’m on my last chance at medical school and I’m scared that if I don’t get help soon I will fall completely off the wagon and be kicked out and then have wasted my future