Post by daisypink on Jul 21, 2012 19:53:27 GMT
Hi guys
Just wanted to share a few thoughts. Since joining this forum I've had good days, which is great, because before that I had about 3 months of feeling very low.
I've experienced a whole range of emotions, often in the space of a few hours, including -
There have been tears - again something of a relief, because when I was on antidepressants I felt completely numb. There's also been laughter ;D - at just how bonkers I can be sometimes.
And today I spent all afternoon and early evening doing gardening - which was great, because I haven't had the energy or motivation to do that in a long time. Typically I went a bit crazy - mwah ha ha - with the secateurs, and the grass is now covered in piles of branches which I will have to get into the car tonight cos rain is forecast tomorrow. The brown bin is completely full so it will a trip to the recycling centre in the morning.
My son looked out of the window and shook his head - commenting later that I do nothing for weeks 'then pure power it for a few hours'!
I apologized for having been so low and down for a number of weeks, but he told me that there was no need to say sorry 'You're my mum, and I love you'.....
Words can't really convey how good it is to feel like me again today - and to feel that life is worth living.
So thanks everyone - I think I may have found my mojo! - Yeah, baby!
Just wanted to share a few thoughts. Since joining this forum I've had good days, which is great, because before that I had about 3 months of feeling very low.
I've experienced a whole range of emotions, often in the space of a few hours, including -
- relief at knowing I'm not alone, which is pretty amazing after over half a century of not being able to share with anyone that I wasn't quite 'in tune',
- hope for the future, after feeling pretty much total despair
- anger at being like this and frustration with not seeming to have any control over my executive functions
- grief for what might have been if I didn't have this kind of heid (Scots word for head )
- angst that nothing will change because I'll not get the right support
There have been tears - again something of a relief, because when I was on antidepressants I felt completely numb. There's also been laughter ;D - at just how bonkers I can be sometimes.
And today I spent all afternoon and early evening doing gardening - which was great, because I haven't had the energy or motivation to do that in a long time. Typically I went a bit crazy - mwah ha ha - with the secateurs, and the grass is now covered in piles of branches which I will have to get into the car tonight cos rain is forecast tomorrow. The brown bin is completely full so it will a trip to the recycling centre in the morning.
My son looked out of the window and shook his head - commenting later that I do nothing for weeks 'then pure power it for a few hours'!
I apologized for having been so low and down for a number of weeks, but he told me that there was no need to say sorry 'You're my mum, and I love you'.....
Words can't really convey how good it is to feel like me again today - and to feel that life is worth living.
So thanks everyone - I think I may have found my mojo! - Yeah, baby!