I bought a book on mindfulness which, not surprisingly, I didn't read except for my usual 5 minute dip-in.
I assumed that the process was about using one mental activity to calm down another out of control mental activity, and so bring oneself into the sensory world rather than endlessly whizzing round in the head.
I couldn't concentrate on a moment in my life if I was paid a million dollars. I use the tempo of an imagined drumbeat to control my neurons when they are behaving badly.
Whatever works for you and gives you peace, do it. So glad you had a great break.
there's a thread or two on mindfulness and adhd here somewhere, including one from when some of us tried a book on the subject about a year ago. not very successfully at all. i hated the book, the voice, the ideas. it was impossible and everyone gave up
then someone posted a link to wildmind.org's free meditation back in january of this year, and i haven't looked back. there's a simple guided meditation on different theme each month. it has revolutionised my life, given me greater awareness, patience etc than anything whatsoever ever has before in my whole life.
now, sometimes, i'm able to stop and simply Be in the moment, to find myself where i am rather than letting my brain run amok with stories about what's happening/happened/going to happen. it's enabled me to begin to notice the difference between thoughts and feelings, between reality and fears and imaginations.
i'm not on medication, but i recognise from my experience of meditation something of the epiphany which others find with medication. a slowing down of reactivity, a chance to change my mind and develop new, more helpful habits
i have issues with medication largely (tho not entirely) because of side effects and brain damage caused by previously-taken prescription meds. i think that meditation can be an amazingly helpful tool, more so when combined with exercise, yoga, diet, structure, sleep etc
Post by vagueandrandom on Oct 29, 2015 23:13:28 GMT
That last post was bravado.
I had to make 4 phone calls (anyone who's been reading my posts knows how much I hate the phone) and now I'm going to have to find nearly £8,000 by next week and I've got no job and no money until the sale of my flat goes through.
And I'm on my own in the middle of nowhere and would really like some actual human contact.
So I'm making do with posting this to you, my imaginary friends.
Don't worry, tomorrow's another day and I'll get over it.
vagueandrandom you are not pathetic at all. You are simply alive and kicking. Don't feel ashamed of who you are.
I love when I am left by myself, because I get the chance to dance through the night, sleep when i'm tired, eat when i'm hungry, hyperfocus to exhaustion, turn the world upside down and shake out all that pent up energy that is stored up while trying to conform.