Hi
So my whole life I’ve felt like there is something wrong with me. This weekend I came across something that made me wonder if I might have ADHD so read up and took multiple online assessments and I’ve been sobbing over my phone because it’s like someone just explained everything I’ve ever done to me. Dramatic I know.
I went to see my GP this morning and tbh I think she felt I was abit silly but she did agree to make a referral for an assessment.
I just wondered if any of you thought I might be on the right track:
As a child I was quite precocious and a daydreamer but good at school, if anything the structure helped me but as soon as that structure started to break down i.e. from college onwards when I was given freedom and choice I just wasn’t able to focus on anything. I switched A level subjects multiple times. I’ve started 8 different degrees in my life and never completed one. I start hobbies and become obsessive and impulse buy everything I need for them then get bored and move onto something else. I hoard craft materials. I spend money without thinking of consequences and so I have always struggled with debt. This lack of regard for consequences means in the past I have done many stupid things impulsively.
I suffer massively with anxiety and depression and am a binge eater (when I’m not obsessed with dieting).
I’ve been in my job for 8 years but have been in trouble various roles for not focusing or getting caught not doing my work. Prior to this I never kept a job for longer than 9 months and walked out on various jobs when I couldn’t hack it.
I keep secrets from my husband because I can’t explain why I’ve done things or bought things and I’m scared of letting him down.
I’m extremely irritable and get so antsy over the smallest things. Just my two children being too loud is too much for me to handle.
I’m messy and I procrastinate. I’ll keave a pile of laundry from the dryer on the living room floor for days because I don’t want to fold it and it NEVER gets put away.
My mind wanders when people talk to me, when I speak to people on the phone at work I’m always doing something else at the same time and then I forget what they’ve said. It’s always been a joke that I have so many hobbies but it’s because I can’t sit and do nothing.
Anyway this is jus the what I can think of now and there’s definitely more. If you’ve got this far thank you!
The GP said the referral process was long and I found this so disheartening because if I do have ADHD then I feel so sad about how much time has gone by and how many times people have laughed at the way I am and there could have been a reason for it all along. How long did it take from GP referral to diagnosis for you?
Thanks