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Post by Matt570000 on Dec 13, 2019 11:19:01 GMT
Hi everyone
Im 19 years old and im newly diagnosed with ADHD after years of not knowing i had it. Ims till trying to absorb everything at the moment, im currently seeing a private practioner and im on the road to getting better.
Anyways....
Where do i start? Id say my impulsive side is my worst enemy and has been for a while. To put it into perspective its like a demon has entered my body and started to control things that i no longer have grasp of. I always find myself trying to damage objects like my phone or other electronical devices which really puts me down. Id self harm everytime i break or damage something and in all seriousness I don't deserve this, nobody does.
Without a phone it hinders and haunts, i feel completely cut off from friends and others. Ijust feel like im in a viscious cycle, when i feel like im getting better ill damage something expensive and then i feel extremely low and i self harm. Im on Elvanse 50mg and the lady said itd take away the impulses but im not seeing the difference, i still have really bad urges to smash a screen or break something without thinking of the consquences and i know deep down this isnt me. It sometimes stops me from doing the stuff i want to do inmy life aswell, im a fond person of travelling, but i feel like i cant go anywhere without busting my phone out of impulse
It doesnt help that i partially have physical tourettes aswell...
I feel like this demon has put the real me in a prison, thrown away the key and taken over me.
Im wondering if anyone else is experiencing symptons like this? I would be extremely grateful if someone replied.
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Post by mamadedos on Jan 30, 2020 22:07:49 GMT
@matt570000, for some reason, your post does not appear. Could you repost it?
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