Post by Phil40 on May 2, 2020 17:01:36 GMT
Hi
I am a 40 year old male and I am currently at University for the second time...it's not going well again and I have begun to do some research about why. I've landed at ADHD.
Let me tell you a little about myself...
I've had 13 jobs since finishing school at 16. Some of these jobs are what people would consider 'jobs for life'. My problem is that even though these are the roles society considers exciting and dream jobs, I got bored. Not only did I get bored but I got myself in trouble for telling people what I think...even when I knew I shouldn't, it just came out.
I'm at Uni trying to study for a degree for the second time. I find it impossible to focus in lectures - if there's a smell, a sound, a movement, then my mind wanders uncontrollably. I find it near impossible to sit still for 2 hours and I have also got myself in trouble with lecturers for saying things that I shouldn't have said. Again, I knew I shouldn't say it, but it just comes out. I've got exams coming on Monday and have done no study. I've found it impossible to structure study, impossible to find the motivation and find the entire idea of it boring. There was a coursework element and I have procrastinated to the point that the deadline has passed and I haven't done it. Again, it's a degree that people would consider a dream degree course but I just can't get my head in the right place.
Relationships. I find them exciting for a while, get bored and then i'm off.
On a daily basis:
The list of things goes on and I don't really know why i'm here. I guess i'm almost looking for some explanation as to why I am the way I am. I know i'm intelligent, I know I could achieve more than I manage to but I just seem to get in my own way.
I am a 40 year old male and I am currently at University for the second time...it's not going well again and I have begun to do some research about why. I've landed at ADHD.
Let me tell you a little about myself...
I've had 13 jobs since finishing school at 16. Some of these jobs are what people would consider 'jobs for life'. My problem is that even though these are the roles society considers exciting and dream jobs, I got bored. Not only did I get bored but I got myself in trouble for telling people what I think...even when I knew I shouldn't, it just came out.
I'm at Uni trying to study for a degree for the second time. I find it impossible to focus in lectures - if there's a smell, a sound, a movement, then my mind wanders uncontrollably. I find it near impossible to sit still for 2 hours and I have also got myself in trouble with lecturers for saying things that I shouldn't have said. Again, I knew I shouldn't say it, but it just comes out. I've got exams coming on Monday and have done no study. I've found it impossible to structure study, impossible to find the motivation and find the entire idea of it boring. There was a coursework element and I have procrastinated to the point that the deadline has passed and I haven't done it. Again, it's a degree that people would consider a dream degree course but I just can't get my head in the right place.
Relationships. I find them exciting for a while, get bored and then i'm off.
On a daily basis:
- I can find myself being completely absorbed in something, even if that something is distracting me from something else I really should be doing.
- I'm always seeking out something new and exciting and once that becomes routine I duck out. I can't remember finishing anything i've started.
- I am irritable and impatient
- People speak to me, directly, and even though I know they're talking to me I just zone out and miss what people say.
The list of things goes on and I don't really know why i'm here. I guess i'm almost looking for some explanation as to why I am the way I am. I know i'm intelligent, I know I could achieve more than I manage to but I just seem to get in my own way.