Post by jr97 on Aug 9, 2020 21:21:21 GMT
hi there im 22^ so recently i was diagnosed with adhd. Yes i grew up with it but wasn't aware until my parents discovered i have symptoms for it, so theres me not knowing what it was really i did the test and was shocked to see how similar i was to the questions..... anyway why im writing on here today is to reach out for help.
No job / Friends or not?
im unemployed for a start i havent had a secure job for over a year now. its soul destroying i feel like a nobody and a failure everyday. while my friends are succeeding and being able to afford things these me who is a burden to everyone. im from the uk so people like to joke with you about stuff especially your pals, 'we call it taking the piss' i find a-lot of my own mates take the piss out of me... and im normally one to not care as i joke with them to but recently its been getting to me...they have been bringing my situation up alot.they all probs talk about me when im not there. sometimes i go and meet them down the pub and i wont have any money so someone will end up buying me a beer which i appreciate but i know everyone hates it. im struggling so much man...my self esteem is going completely. i told my mates i have adhd as-well there reactions were 'oh bro dw doesn't mean anything' NOOOOO like you have no idea man i feel like it makes sense now why my friends take the piss its because im not all there in the head and cant get my life together but i feel so clouded.
weed
i also have a big love for Weed id say an addiction tbh. im disgusting when it comes to weed i prioritise it over food, family and friends. i have been smoking only for 2 years now yet in the last 2 years it has taken over my life completely!! not knowing i had adhd i have heard before people with adhd like to use weed as a medicine. maybe thats why i have abused it for the last few years? but its not helping me though is it...... lets be honest. im unmotivated, lazy and i have no job. i cant be like this forever yet i still repeat my actions. my weed addiction started getting really really bad last year. short story it got so bad that i owed alot of money for it. debts started getting on top of me and my life felt like it was crashing.
general behaviour
the past year or so i have become more negative and hopeless about my life, i seem to have many bad luck periods or 'your an idiot' moments. for EG.. not even two days ago i went to get some money out of the cash machine. got to my mates house and realised i must of dropped it. i felt very angry with myself for being such an idiot. my two mates helping me find the money as i retrace my steps down the road...there it was the two 10 pound notes on the floor. i often loose keys, wallet, phone miss-place alot of things. i seem to struggle with tasks or remembering im supposed to be doing something.
im just not sure what to do, i will be getting medication soon as i had a blood test the other day for it. i feel like such a bum 24/7. i know its down to myself to change it but i really am caring less each day. im wasting my life away. if anyone has an advice or been in a similar siutation please i would like to hear.
thank you
No job / Friends or not?
im unemployed for a start i havent had a secure job for over a year now. its soul destroying i feel like a nobody and a failure everyday. while my friends are succeeding and being able to afford things these me who is a burden to everyone. im from the uk so people like to joke with you about stuff especially your pals, 'we call it taking the piss' i find a-lot of my own mates take the piss out of me... and im normally one to not care as i joke with them to but recently its been getting to me...they have been bringing my situation up alot.they all probs talk about me when im not there. sometimes i go and meet them down the pub and i wont have any money so someone will end up buying me a beer which i appreciate but i know everyone hates it. im struggling so much man...my self esteem is going completely. i told my mates i have adhd as-well there reactions were 'oh bro dw doesn't mean anything' NOOOOO like you have no idea man i feel like it makes sense now why my friends take the piss its because im not all there in the head and cant get my life together but i feel so clouded.
weed
i also have a big love for Weed id say an addiction tbh. im disgusting when it comes to weed i prioritise it over food, family and friends. i have been smoking only for 2 years now yet in the last 2 years it has taken over my life completely!! not knowing i had adhd i have heard before people with adhd like to use weed as a medicine. maybe thats why i have abused it for the last few years? but its not helping me though is it...... lets be honest. im unmotivated, lazy and i have no job. i cant be like this forever yet i still repeat my actions. my weed addiction started getting really really bad last year. short story it got so bad that i owed alot of money for it. debts started getting on top of me and my life felt like it was crashing.
general behaviour
the past year or so i have become more negative and hopeless about my life, i seem to have many bad luck periods or 'your an idiot' moments. for EG.. not even two days ago i went to get some money out of the cash machine. got to my mates house and realised i must of dropped it. i felt very angry with myself for being such an idiot. my two mates helping me find the money as i retrace my steps down the road...there it was the two 10 pound notes on the floor. i often loose keys, wallet, phone miss-place alot of things. i seem to struggle with tasks or remembering im supposed to be doing something.
im just not sure what to do, i will be getting medication soon as i had a blood test the other day for it. i feel like such a bum 24/7. i know its down to myself to change it but i really am caring less each day. im wasting my life away. if anyone has an advice or been in a similar siutation please i would like to hear.
thank you