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Post by Late 30s on Mar 29, 2022 22:22:50 GMT
All my life I have taken on so much and dealt with so many expectations, it’s constantly left me burnt out and exhausted, like life is too hard to contend with. I’m adopted and spent all my young life going the extra mile to be what people expected of me - I would study through the night, fight all my tics and shame around being mechanically slow/forgetful/late/untidy/misplace everything etc. After years of therapy I thought the answer was that I had never liked myself, let alone loved myself and my symptoms became more manageable. I considered being a mum for the first time and froze a selection of my eggs. However the hormone imbalance has created a wild flare up of symptoms I thought were long left behind and my life again feels chaotic and out of control, with me unable to address basics of organisation, finances, housework. I’ve just been told I have gone undiagnosed all my life - I feel so desperate, like I’ve been told I was trying to fix the wrong things and in fact, I will never get better. The more I read the more sad and depressed I get that I have so much hard work ahead of me, that life will forever be exhausting. Has anyone else been in a similar position? How do you begin to integrate it? Is there hope?
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Post by Deleted on Mar 30, 2022 13:15:30 GMT
Easier. Easy. Too easy. Boring.
*ADHD turbo kicks in at this point and does something to spice your life back up*
Too difficult. Difficult. Mildly irritating. Easier. Easy. Too easy. Boring...
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