Post by reg on Jun 5, 2020 21:22:05 GMT
Jun 5, 2020 15:20:20 GMT lozo said:
I had a phone call with a GP about possibly having ADHD after doing some significant research and believing that I had finally understood why I have felt like I have struggled much more with everything. However, on the phone call, he made it clear that he did not think I had ADHD. It has certainly made me question it but I just can't get over all the revelations I have had during this research and finally feeling like I understood why I felt so different.There are so many things that I have seen and felt make so much sense. I am always late (no matter how important or what time I have to be there), I can never get assignments in on time/finished (even though I have had meltdown after meltdown), and I am constantly daydreaming. To the point that I have been told off at work and at school. I have always struggled to make friends and to keep them. In my seminars at university for example I would always find that if people are having conversations about our work I would always end up not being part of the conversation. I'd wonder why as even when I'd done the work I wouldn't be able to recall anything that I had read.
One event (among many) that sticks out is when in a full lecture theatre our tutor told us we needed to prepare a quick two minute presentation to read out. He told us what we needed to do and I thought I understood. I got up in front of the room with a row of other people. As they were going down the row I realised that I had prepared something completely different to everyone else and instead of reading out what I had done I dashed out of the theatre. This is just one of many instances that I have felt like why does this stuff always happen to me? I've often put it down to being stupid/lazy but there was always part of me that felt like I had some kind of barrier that was preventing me.
I've looked through my homework diary from primary school year 3 and my mums notes say things like "shorter concentration span these days" and "rushed through it to play out with friends so a lot of silly mistakes" which seems to correlate with the childhood traits that I've read. There are so many more things that I have realised but it's difficult to get it all down. My mum last year also said that she thought she had it, but I didn't think anything of it because I associated it more with the hyperactive traits and thats not really me.
The main reason the GP gave for him being pretty certain that I didn't have it was that I have done well at my A levels and at university. He said that the people he had dealt with had always dropped out early on in education. He also seemed to be certain once I said I don't interrupt conversations much because I'm quite quiet and shy. I've read about the differences between girls and boys having ADHD and it seemed to me like this was a common trait among girls with ADHD.
The main reason I want to get a diagnosis is because I have just finished university and I am concerned that in going in to full time work, the problems I have had in my part time jobs with daydreaming will become more prominent. Also my issues with lateness, and not sticking to deadlines, I just feel like I struggle a lot to keep myself together as it is but with more responsibility and pressure I'm not sure I'm going to cope (particularly with anxiety and depression).
Of course, I'm going to try and continue to manage it on my own but I guess my main question is, does this sound like something worth pursuing? I don't want to waste anyones time and I don't want to waste my own.
Please disregard everything your GP said to you, especially any offhand comments based on their own personal experiences.