Post by dave55 on Oct 9, 2021 23:41:51 GMT
Hi folks
I really hope I'm not wasting anyone's time by posting this as I am undiagnosed.
I've struggled more and more year by year and have always had an obsessive nature of sorts. My partner believes I have ADD (the inattentive kind) for a while.
I have suffered from varying degrees of depression which I have talked to specialist about but fealt that it just doesn't do anything for me. These 'techniques' I feel I can see straight through and just cant simply 'name 5 things I can see' or 'take a deep breath' for me when I hit a 'moment' nothing else in my life matters apart from whatever it is.
I am really forgetful, to a point where I get annoyed at my partner every time she tells me, how did you forget that, that's all I asked etc... I really cant keep anything in my head and never have done. Sometimes leaving the house is a struggle and I can get out the car multiple times to make the trip back into the house to retrieve something really stupid. When retrieving said item I can actually leave an additional item (like a phone) where I found the item I was missing and have to go back again to retrieve that!
I really find every day life tedious, and can get quite angry at the drop of a hat when something doesn't go right / doesn't work and sometimes just feel like someone is hanging over me making sure things go wrong.
I can be quite obsessive about things once I get something in my head (usual a purchase of some kind but not always) Sometimes I can think of something late at night and spend hours into the early morning researching it!
I am also a real procrastinator! If I have to be somewhere I will always leave it to the last minute to get ready, usually just sitting on my phone to the very last minute. Sometimes it may not be something I need to leave the house for, if I've been told to do something important or as a favour (unless its absolutely detrimental i.e paying a bill) I will leave it to the last possible time to do it even though I usually have nothing else that is taking up my time that day.
I have problems finishing anything from start to finish, easiest example is decorating, I'll start a project and as soon as I get a chunk of it done I just cant follow through and do the finishing touches.
I'm sorry for the mountain of text but I need to get it off my chest. I've hit my thirties now and feel I really need to know what has been challenging me all these years. I have always thought it was OCD but after watching a video about ADD on youtube something really clicked with me, I even sent the link to my parents and they fealt the same way (little embarrassing tbh like if its THAT obvious)
anyways, today after obsessing with something else I've just googled ADD forums to fire out my frustrations and let someone that maybe knows more about the illness to help me on my way.
Edit* can't believe I didn't add this, I suffer from massive waves of anxiety too, sometimes I worry about nothing, but, if something occurs that triggers me I just meltdown and can't cope, again like nothing else matters apart from that. Usually stupid things too, I often get jealous of other people who have such a relaxed laid back approach to life and just wish i could feel the same way.
Thanks so much for reading if you have got this far
Dave
I really hope I'm not wasting anyone's time by posting this as I am undiagnosed.
I've struggled more and more year by year and have always had an obsessive nature of sorts. My partner believes I have ADD (the inattentive kind) for a while.
I have suffered from varying degrees of depression which I have talked to specialist about but fealt that it just doesn't do anything for me. These 'techniques' I feel I can see straight through and just cant simply 'name 5 things I can see' or 'take a deep breath' for me when I hit a 'moment' nothing else in my life matters apart from whatever it is.
I am really forgetful, to a point where I get annoyed at my partner every time she tells me, how did you forget that, that's all I asked etc... I really cant keep anything in my head and never have done. Sometimes leaving the house is a struggle and I can get out the car multiple times to make the trip back into the house to retrieve something really stupid. When retrieving said item I can actually leave an additional item (like a phone) where I found the item I was missing and have to go back again to retrieve that!
I really find every day life tedious, and can get quite angry at the drop of a hat when something doesn't go right / doesn't work and sometimes just feel like someone is hanging over me making sure things go wrong.
I can be quite obsessive about things once I get something in my head (usual a purchase of some kind but not always) Sometimes I can think of something late at night and spend hours into the early morning researching it!
I am also a real procrastinator! If I have to be somewhere I will always leave it to the last minute to get ready, usually just sitting on my phone to the very last minute. Sometimes it may not be something I need to leave the house for, if I've been told to do something important or as a favour (unless its absolutely detrimental i.e paying a bill) I will leave it to the last possible time to do it even though I usually have nothing else that is taking up my time that day.
I have problems finishing anything from start to finish, easiest example is decorating, I'll start a project and as soon as I get a chunk of it done I just cant follow through and do the finishing touches.
I'm sorry for the mountain of text but I need to get it off my chest. I've hit my thirties now and feel I really need to know what has been challenging me all these years. I have always thought it was OCD but after watching a video about ADD on youtube something really clicked with me, I even sent the link to my parents and they fealt the same way (little embarrassing tbh like if its THAT obvious)
anyways, today after obsessing with something else I've just googled ADD forums to fire out my frustrations and let someone that maybe knows more about the illness to help me on my way.
Edit* can't believe I didn't add this, I suffer from massive waves of anxiety too, sometimes I worry about nothing, but, if something occurs that triggers me I just meltdown and can't cope, again like nothing else matters apart from that. Usually stupid things too, I often get jealous of other people who have such a relaxed laid back approach to life and just wish i could feel the same way.
Thanks so much for reading if you have got this far
Dave