Post by Ella on Oct 17, 2021 17:50:07 GMT
Hello,
So I technically haven't been diagnosed for ADHD yet (we are having to go private because the wait time is like years and I can't really wait that long) and I currently feel like giving up with it. Ive recently moved into my uni accom which meant I needed to move doctors. This has meant that I still haven't managed to get a referral and the private place that I'm going to needs a referral from my doctor so they can test me. I know it's a long process but I'm really struggling to find the motivation to keep fighting for it.
I also sometimes worry that I'm just faking it? Like what if I'm faking it so much that I don't even realise that's what I'm doing. But then I have days like today where I was supposed to wash my hair, write up notes from last week and start the notes for the Monday lecture and instead of doing all that I sat and watched a movie and then accidentally watched tiktoks until it was 6pm. I managed to heat up some leftovers that my family had bought me for lunch but for dinner all I had was a pot of yogurt and some mango (and that was only because my little food app reminded me I had to eat).
I'm not saying I have it because I haven't been diagnosed with it so maybe this is just part of my personality or whatever but I keep doing that test that you have to do and I want to cry each time it comes back and says I need to talk with my gp cause it's like "boo I'm trying"
Sorry this turned into a rant but I'm just so stressed out and frustrated and there's kinda no one I can talk to about it and people don't seem to fully understand when I tell them so they kinda look at me weird.
So I technically haven't been diagnosed for ADHD yet (we are having to go private because the wait time is like years and I can't really wait that long) and I currently feel like giving up with it. Ive recently moved into my uni accom which meant I needed to move doctors. This has meant that I still haven't managed to get a referral and the private place that I'm going to needs a referral from my doctor so they can test me. I know it's a long process but I'm really struggling to find the motivation to keep fighting for it.
I also sometimes worry that I'm just faking it? Like what if I'm faking it so much that I don't even realise that's what I'm doing. But then I have days like today where I was supposed to wash my hair, write up notes from last week and start the notes for the Monday lecture and instead of doing all that I sat and watched a movie and then accidentally watched tiktoks until it was 6pm. I managed to heat up some leftovers that my family had bought me for lunch but for dinner all I had was a pot of yogurt and some mango (and that was only because my little food app reminded me I had to eat).
I'm not saying I have it because I haven't been diagnosed with it so maybe this is just part of my personality or whatever but I keep doing that test that you have to do and I want to cry each time it comes back and says I need to talk with my gp cause it's like "boo I'm trying"
Sorry this turned into a rant but I'm just so stressed out and frustrated and there's kinda no one I can talk to about it and people don't seem to fully understand when I tell them so they kinda look at me weird.