Post by constructivemadness on Jan 14, 2022 9:42:31 GMT
Hi all. Could you please reply below if this resonates with you?
I was diagnosed with ADHD a year and a bit ago (after a GP blunder pushed my diagnosis back by about 5 months), but since then there’s been very little progress and no mental support whatsoever. I’ve not yet got a handle on controlling symptoms, and I literally just had a chat with my doctor to agree a dosage to finish titration, with the conclusion being that Elvanse isn’t doing great things for me but let’s stick with that because it’s not giving me side effects like Xenidate did. In the meantime, it’s been really easy to use the diagnosis to beat myself up with: “you ARE different from everyone else; you can never cross the gulf to be “normal” and have an easier life, so you’ll always be a struggling outsider; the reason you’re like this is because you’re BROKEN (not technically true I know, but easy to say/think) and you’ve shown you obviously can’t fix yourself, or you would have done by now!! They say you have to take SPEED to feel normal, I mean, what’s that about, hard drugs daily for functionality?! Talk about substance abuse! You can’t function adequately and end up damaging your family relationships when you’re unmedicated and feeling “normal for you”, and you only stand a chance of stopping this when you dose up and feel tense and driven and try to abide by other people’s rules…EVERY DAY FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE if you want to feel accepted by the mainstream ie most people every day…and even that doesn’t work consistently.”
My level of functionality has been going downhill quite fast, and I now find it incredibly difficult to achieve ANYTHING work, self-care, housework or admin-related that I aim to do in the 5-6 hours when my kids are at school. I’ve been feeling like I need mental health support increasingly desperately over the past weeks/months, but my doctor keeps putting off giving me a recommendation of a name and says we have to wait till I’m settled on medication and symptoms improve. I hassled him enough that he called this morning and said he’d refer me to a psychologist for general mental health, but he was vague on whether that psychologist has a specialism dealing with ADHD patients. I feel very unsupported and like my diagnosis is making things worse rather than better at the moment, because it’s confirmation of a “problem” but no positive results so far towards improving anything, and my headspace is not good. I’m sure many of you have or have had similar problems, and I’d really like to feel some solidarity. Is there anyone out there that can empathise..? Thank you for reading this far!
I was diagnosed with ADHD a year and a bit ago (after a GP blunder pushed my diagnosis back by about 5 months), but since then there’s been very little progress and no mental support whatsoever. I’ve not yet got a handle on controlling symptoms, and I literally just had a chat with my doctor to agree a dosage to finish titration, with the conclusion being that Elvanse isn’t doing great things for me but let’s stick with that because it’s not giving me side effects like Xenidate did. In the meantime, it’s been really easy to use the diagnosis to beat myself up with: “you ARE different from everyone else; you can never cross the gulf to be “normal” and have an easier life, so you’ll always be a struggling outsider; the reason you’re like this is because you’re BROKEN (not technically true I know, but easy to say/think) and you’ve shown you obviously can’t fix yourself, or you would have done by now!! They say you have to take SPEED to feel normal, I mean, what’s that about, hard drugs daily for functionality?! Talk about substance abuse! You can’t function adequately and end up damaging your family relationships when you’re unmedicated and feeling “normal for you”, and you only stand a chance of stopping this when you dose up and feel tense and driven and try to abide by other people’s rules…EVERY DAY FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE if you want to feel accepted by the mainstream ie most people every day…and even that doesn’t work consistently.”
My level of functionality has been going downhill quite fast, and I now find it incredibly difficult to achieve ANYTHING work, self-care, housework or admin-related that I aim to do in the 5-6 hours when my kids are at school. I’ve been feeling like I need mental health support increasingly desperately over the past weeks/months, but my doctor keeps putting off giving me a recommendation of a name and says we have to wait till I’m settled on medication and symptoms improve. I hassled him enough that he called this morning and said he’d refer me to a psychologist for general mental health, but he was vague on whether that psychologist has a specialism dealing with ADHD patients. I feel very unsupported and like my diagnosis is making things worse rather than better at the moment, because it’s confirmation of a “problem” but no positive results so far towards improving anything, and my headspace is not good. I’m sure many of you have or have had similar problems, and I’d really like to feel some solidarity. Is there anyone out there that can empathise..? Thank you for reading this far!