Post by Deleted on Nov 4, 2009 4:40:30 GMT
I have had a seriously bad day. I have tried to write about it so I can share it with everyone here but find it impossible to express myself in a manner that is short and to the point. My ADHD gets in the way of my mental clarity…as I rambled onto the 5th page, I realized that once again, I had failed to express myself in a manner that would make it easy for others to relate to me. I love to write but I wish that I could express myself more concisely. It’s as if everything comes pouring out of my brain at once and I can’t contain it….I have to get it all out…there is just so much of it…I end up rambling.
My life has become so full of stress lately that I feel as if I am going to go through another meltdown. I cannot afford for this to happen. I have finally gotten to a place where I have some of my independence back. I don’t want to regress. I need for some things to change but I’m scared half to death. My anxiety is off the charts again. I am having a lot of headaches and my fidgeting is worse than ever. My ability to focus has diminished greatly and I am an emotional wreck. I would so love to check myself into the hospital for a holiday á la a morphine drip. Thank God I don’t drink or use illicit drugs or I would really be in trouble right about now.
It is a good thing I have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow. I really need it. I know I have to step out of my comfort zone in order to make the changes I need to make in order to reduce the stress in my life, but I am really scared.
I am going to go for now. I really need to try and get some sleep. I have to get up an extra hour early tomorrow. I hope everyone is having a better day than I had.
PAZ
My life has become so full of stress lately that I feel as if I am going to go through another meltdown. I cannot afford for this to happen. I have finally gotten to a place where I have some of my independence back. I don’t want to regress. I need for some things to change but I’m scared half to death. My anxiety is off the charts again. I am having a lot of headaches and my fidgeting is worse than ever. My ability to focus has diminished greatly and I am an emotional wreck. I would so love to check myself into the hospital for a holiday á la a morphine drip. Thank God I don’t drink or use illicit drugs or I would really be in trouble right about now.
It is a good thing I have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow. I really need it. I know I have to step out of my comfort zone in order to make the changes I need to make in order to reduce the stress in my life, but I am really scared.
I am going to go for now. I really need to try and get some sleep. I have to get up an extra hour early tomorrow. I hope everyone is having a better day than I had.
PAZ