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Post by magicnick1990 on Nov 7, 2009 23:00:57 GMT
This girl was supposed to be coming up mine tonight to stay.
She said she may have to babysit and surprise surprise she does now.
I know she likes me and know she has friends with kids so I very much doubt she's lying.
But I'm a complete extemist, already drunk a bit of vodka but now I feel like she's let me down.
And I just feel... Beyond depressed I mean... I dunno. I always overreact in my head no doubt but I just feel like shit now, my face is beyond down, it's sub-zero.
Do any of you experience this to this extremity, of course you do, how do you handle it though. I'm so pissed off and depressed and down, I guess I'm addicted to self-pitty. Really fucking annoying.
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Post by andy12345 on Nov 7, 2009 23:19:49 GMT
Nick, I don't need any substances to drive me crazy about some things. The alcohol, "in the right dose" may just help to slow your crazy fast brain down a bit. I suspect however that you have gone over that slightly.... o.O Try to control your thoughts. Rationalise the situation, it could be far far worse. Once again, it's easy to write these things, but it is true. Use your clever self to assess the situation logically.. No one can help you right now, but yourself. There's no need to accuse yourself of self-pitying behaviour. You are a member of this website for a reason, don't forget that. If you are self pitying with only 73 posts, where does that put me? Super duper super god of self pity or poor me behaviour? No, I just aim to learn and share where possible. You mention that you were expecting her to stay. Was there some er "involving event" planned or is it just a distance/convenience issue? :/ well. blah blah could be worse. just remember you are a member of the emotional roller coaster ride group, your psychological outlook changes like the wind, but if has to be ruffled by something first. Anyway, none of this helps much but I tried. I tend to avoid events that can shift my moods too much for the obvious reasons.......
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Post by Deleted on Nov 7, 2009 23:29:32 GMT
Duno boyo
dont beat yourself up about being depressed jesus that really is drilling the cork screw down and down, all good things come to thoes who wait! just ride it out thats all you can do. Like that film survivor all he has is a rugby ball called wilson so it could be worse, and that was true story. And when he did get home his mrs had done one with some one else imagine that what a head fcuk.
Hows it going with your web stuff have you looked on "no agencies please" loads of work on there.
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Post by magicnick1990 on Nov 7, 2009 23:32:15 GMT
I totally overreact internally though.
Well, she said she may have to babysit earlier and now she's gutted.
Now, 90% of everyone I know would just be like: "Aw okay bbe, see you next week".
I can't function like that, it's like a huge event in my head, she's broken it, she's let me down lmao.
A guy gave me a lot of help when in a shared house, a lot of codeine to calm my thoughts down. Not that I'm condoning it but he was a massive help, not just because of that but he is incredibly sharp, helpful, friendly, I even think he may have it.
I've moved out of there though.
I just can't handle these things lmao. I'm just not built for life, I'm not part of this lol. Where's my get out of jail card.
Man, I don't know. Only just completed well... Half-completed some guy's site on time, a preview.
Everything interpersonal affects my mood so much that, I don't know, I'm just not part of this lmao. I'll just turn into a fucking recluse again.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 7, 2009 23:58:51 GMT
Its tuff at the top, if you want any help on any design type stuf let us know love doing layouts just dont ask me to code as am rusty on that side of things. I went out and got domain and name and havent touched it wast of money any way hope it works out with your princess cant you go and baby sit with her?
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Post by magicnick1990 on Nov 8, 2009 0:06:55 GMT
Okay man.
Nah, well she didn't ask me too, I ain't inviting myself.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 8, 2009 0:14:44 GMT
Cool cat I would but dont listen to me hard to say without knowing the details dont want to send you into the feild unprepared what about if you rang her up and said you needed sexuall healing LOL sorry ;D
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Post by magicnick1990 on Nov 8, 2009 1:30:13 GMT
Lmao, I'm okay now. Got over my initial overreaction and sent a txt apologizing for seeming moody lmao as I was sending her minimal replies due to angry emotions.
She probably didn't even notice so seemed like a mental case, anyway seeing her tomorrow so all is well. Thanks fellow ADHD'ers!
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Post by Deleted on Nov 8, 2009 12:28:07 GMT
I always get like this as well. Oversensitivity can be a real problem. Im not quite sure how I manage to kick myself, I think going to see friends is the way forward. Friends generally take my mind off things and help me forget (to an extent).
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Post by Deleted on Nov 8, 2009 18:38:26 GMT
From my perspective, you're over-reacting big time!!
Please try to stop feeling so down on yourself, nothing has happened yet!! You've been fine, just keep texting her if you can't talk yet, keep in touch til she agrees to meet up again..Don't spiral with this, you're reading too much into it..
Now, without sounding too motherly, cut down on the booze(!!) you're going to feel a million times worse if you keep on binging?!!! (i know i'm a fine one to talk but its not helping you atm) x
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