Lame44
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Post by Lame44 on Dec 1, 2009 23:45:47 GMT
At times it feels like I'm still a kid....I feel slow to others my age, I feel like I've taken a bit longer to get up to thier levels.
But...I still feel childish in my ways. It gets to me at times, but other times I just cant help it and I dont seem to care.
Examples are things like watching funny films, kids films, cartoons. I love Harry Potter films and watch them loads. I love the film 'Hook' and wish I could run away to Neverland at times.
I get all excited and hyper about certain things, and very impatient (like we all do) about things I want to happen NOW! I absolutely CANNOT wait until Christmas (again). I've had my tree and decs up two weeks now, lmao. If there is any mention of snow on the weather my ears prick up n I'm watching like a hawk to see if it'll snow where I am (I LOVE snow).
I'm so excited about getting my tattoo kit (my girlfriend let me see it recently) on Christmas day, but I feel like I'm a kid when I jump around, shouting, laughing, being generally stupid.
As I say sometimes it bothers me, some it doesn't. My girlfriend is very, very grown up for her age though, and it makes me feel bad when I'm like this around her. She's actually ten years younger than me, but still very much more mature than me in every way. And well.....it kinds makes me feel slow, or thick, or stupid and dumb.
Does anyone else get this or are like this or is it just me (oh no)?
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Post by andy12345 on Dec 2, 2009 2:26:52 GMT
You are talking to big kid no.1
I have always taken a casual approach to things until they blow up in my face. I never really learn.
It is strange because I've had unwanted, torturous thoughts for the last 17 years which definitely clamped on my joviality so if I did not have those thoughts I would perhaps have been even more silly....omgggggggg
Now I think about it, I've never really lived more than a day or perhaps a week ahead even though I have calculated some things for months ahead........this is because I don't really look forward to anything.
Anyway, "could be worse" I must remember that as I have options left to me..
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emily
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Post by emily on Dec 2, 2009 23:05:52 GMT
oh my god, im 30! ive gone back to college and all of my friends there are younger than me!! well, 17 to 25!! i dont feel my age half the time!! well, ok, sometimes i do!! i dont feel 30 though!! il probably still be doing the things im foing now when im 60!!
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Post by Deleted on Dec 3, 2009 13:32:45 GMT
When am I supposed to feel like an Adult as well? I thought that on approaching 30 and having been acting like an adult (mostly) I would feel like one. I can say that I am glad I still feel like a kid, long may it continue!!!!
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Post by laura on Dec 6, 2009 21:22:32 GMT
i wonder sometimes when im going to grow up and feel like an adult, im 24 now so maybe when im 25 thats quite scary considering in a single parent to a 5 (verly nearly 6) year old, when im out with my son, we skip down the street singing wizard of oz, run down all the hills, play chase, walk on walls, play on the trolley in the supermarket (i do that when im shopping on my own too ;D) and the wierd looks arnt that bad because im just entertaining my son, but it is fun ;D im very impatient, love disney films, and Up is a great film (squirrels) i dont know if id like to feel grown up tho it seems boring, i just want the organisational/budgeting/stick to it ness, i want to feel safe and capable of looking after myself rather than this uncertainty and overwhelm. that probably doesnt make sense, it does in my head
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Post by Mouse on Dec 7, 2009 18:44:40 GMT
"i want to feel safe and capable of looking after myself rather than this uncertainty and overwhelm."
I think those words sum up the point I have got to.
I distinctly remember thinking that I'd surely feel 'grown up when I turned 30' - here I am approaching 50 and not feeling an awful lot older than 15 somedays. BUT... that feeling occurs much less often.
Speaking for myself I think I have gone through a maturing process post-diagnosis. An explanation (adhd) has given me a reason for most of my shortcomings and I can put things in perspective. It has enabled me to 'move' on.
I think that because I was permanently stressed and uncomprehending of how things could go tits up so easily and not understanding why I couldn't just get on and do all the normal stuff in the normal way like other adults.. all that rubbish served to make me feel immature and inadequate, and to worry about how I could cope in the future.
I think the maturing has happened quicker now I am older because I have been observing and storing up a lot of info on how 'older' or 'more mature' people behave/operate, now I have the ability to put that into practice for myself and it feels natural and no longer fraudulent.
If I had had my diagnosis in my early twenties I suspect it would have taken me an awful lot longer to reach this point - purely and simply because although there are some people out there born 'old' most people have to live and learn and grow.
I am still emotional and sensitive - that I put down to being born that way. I still have an incredibly silly and playful sense of humour at times (but this alternates between 'juvenile' and 'dry').
I still retain the younger part of my brain and it helps me empathise with my nephews and other younger people. I also recognise similarly juvenile minds when I am dealing with customers!
All the preceding posts made sense!
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