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Post by Deleted on Dec 8, 2009 13:26:34 GMT
Hi Im having another panic, Im scared im gonna be unemployable, spoke to place thats putting me through redeployment, and they said they have to give an honest reference. I know I made a few mistakes, but that was cause i was ill at time. That coupled with 6 months off sick and declaring adhd terrifies me, i hate being stuck at home. I hate what ive become, a usless waste of space, and a blip on the countries finances #I thought if you tried hard enough in life and applied self you would suceed, well i did and ive complety failed. #I wake up with a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach everyday. Id love a baby but terrified ill be an unfit mother as ive failed at everything else. Im trying to pull se,f together i really am, but its bleak for me at moment. Sorry I dont even know why writting this what can anyone say really.
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Post by .... on Dec 9, 2009 0:30:29 GMT
Everyone feels that way about baby's Meggie, I reckon most people worry they will not be good mothers - 'cept Men I guess ;D. Nature has a way of taking care of these things though. Pregnancy turns some of ya brain to mush, so it must improve something somewhere else along the line. I don't think you will fail at it when the time comes.
I feel a bit horrid today. I feel pretty scared about the future full stop. I think the way to get round it to keep your spirits up, and to focus on something you feel good about - even its as trivial as being good at making paper airplanes or painting your toenails.
I know telling your head about the stuff that you're good at doesn't help you feel it in your heart, but sooner or later you are going to come across something you really 'feel' like you shine at Meggie.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 9, 2009 8:26:27 GMT
Thanx craysalis your right, im just on downer its been tough year. Ive learnt a few tough lessons and discovered alot about self, capabilities etc. Now I need to accept who i am and move forward. Who knowsmin future once im medicated etc. But for now im gonna focus on trying to get a job I can do and trying for a baby. Somthing ive wanted for so long and kept putting off. Im sorry to hear you have had tough time lf it too. Have you o ly just spit from husband? If you need to chat you can personal message anytime by clicking on my name. You have really helped me, thanx
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Post by .... on Dec 9, 2009 10:36:13 GMT
My Ex-husband? Nah lol. Split in 2005. Has taken him till now to agree that we can divorce. Won't count my chickens before they hatch tho lol. Cross your fingers for me okay.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 9, 2009 15:53:42 GMT
I will, we will shine , 2110mgonna be a good year, you wil see. LOl
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Post by laura on Dec 9, 2009 21:28:59 GMT
I will, we will shine , 2110mgonna be a good year, you wil see. LOl thats what i keep saying, next year will be a good year the only problem is ive been saying it for the last 6 years at least but next year will be a good year, its got to be
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