Post by Deleted on Dec 22, 2009 11:39:57 GMT
Hi im scared of 2110, i know its gonna be a big change, and i have to face it.
1.I go back into a job i did in early 20's feel like im going back in time walk, like living life again.
2..I take a massive £8.500 wage drop, which means unfortunatelty i have to consult a debt management charity who writes to my creditors.
3. I have to budget carfully somthing im no good at but have to do for first time in life.
4. I start my meds erarly January (parents used savings to pay private even though they are pensioners as nhs consultant refuses to medicate me and thinks i can cure it my self)
5. Got back in touch withan old school friend meeting with her next week.
6. Gonna start and finally lose weight and be happy with my body (if i dont get pregnant in mean time)
7. Im trying for a baby (if i dont know never will) scared ill be a rubbish mother I dont want to screw their life up as have my own.
Im gonna try so hard to find inner peace and be happy, all my life ive struggled for somthing i cant have a career and confidence.
I just want to like me and go along smoothly, and be proud of self, instead of always of creating a life of chaos.
I want my parents to be happy and not always stress about me.
I want my partner to have an easier time, cause of my behaviour affects him alot and my debts have caused him problems to.
This is my last chance im terrified im gonna screw up. I wake up in night panicking.
I dont know why im writting this, i really hope i can be a different next year
I also hope everyone on here has a wonderful christmas and new year, and puts their demons behind them
Thanx to everybody for their support and kindness.
I wish you all well.
Take care
Meggie aka Vicky
1.I go back into a job i did in early 20's feel like im going back in time walk, like living life again.
2..I take a massive £8.500 wage drop, which means unfortunatelty i have to consult a debt management charity who writes to my creditors.
3. I have to budget carfully somthing im no good at but have to do for first time in life.
4. I start my meds erarly January (parents used savings to pay private even though they are pensioners as nhs consultant refuses to medicate me and thinks i can cure it my self)
5. Got back in touch withan old school friend meeting with her next week.
6. Gonna start and finally lose weight and be happy with my body (if i dont get pregnant in mean time)
7. Im trying for a baby (if i dont know never will) scared ill be a rubbish mother I dont want to screw their life up as have my own.
Im gonna try so hard to find inner peace and be happy, all my life ive struggled for somthing i cant have a career and confidence.
I just want to like me and go along smoothly, and be proud of self, instead of always of creating a life of chaos.
I want my parents to be happy and not always stress about me.
I want my partner to have an easier time, cause of my behaviour affects him alot and my debts have caused him problems to.
This is my last chance im terrified im gonna screw up. I wake up in night panicking.
I dont know why im writting this, i really hope i can be a different next year
I also hope everyone on here has a wonderful christmas and new year, and puts their demons behind them
Thanx to everybody for their support and kindness.
I wish you all well.
Take care
Meggie aka Vicky