Im Not Sure were to turn

[leedsdale]

i was diagnosed at the age of 7 and was medicated till 18 wen i stopped and went off the rails
i now suffer from deppresion and this bout has lasted about 4 months and its getting worse
i am 27 with long term gf and a 6 month old child.... i just cant seem to get out of it 
today when i woke after a full nights sleep was the worst feeling i have ever felt
i felt like i was not me and wanted it all to stop i am really struggling to cope with general day to day stuff my head hurts constantly??
i am under a psyc and saw him nearly a month ago where he prescribed mertazipine 
they have not helped one bit.... im getting scared for my own safty now 

any one got any answers or suggestions 

[astraka]

Is there a helpline locally (or try Samaritans of the mind helpline 9-5 weekdays) Or can you get an urgent apt with your gp? If you regularly see a psychiatrist do you have a number to make an appointment between usual apts, or the crisis team number? You need to talk to someone who can help between appointments.

[contrarymary]

I'm so sorry you are feeling bad just now leedsdale. I'd agree with astraka's suggestions for not sticking it out on your own but call for professional help, whether from a crisis number or the samaritans. and don't hesitate to reach out to someone who knows you well to ask for support, even if it's just company to hang out with so you are not on your own.

once you have got through the weekend you could call your GP, it may be quicker to get an appt with GP than with psych.

it could be that how you are feeling now is a side effect of the medication, which can cause a paradoxical depression. whatever it is, it can get sorted out. hang on in there, this will pass.