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Post by merrial on Mar 20, 2016 9:56:35 GMT
Great I have navigated my way here...and have read some other people's accounts/diaries... So here I am at 48 thinking what is actually good about being diagnosed with ADHD?? Apart from explaining why I've always felt the way I do. But I'm also a Virgo and when I read through descriptions of my star sign this is also me to a tee!!! So i wonder how many people with ADHD also relate to their star signs
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Post by merrial on Mar 20, 2016 10:45:44 GMT
Hmmm?
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Post by vagueandrandom on Mar 20, 2016 11:23:06 GMT
What to think of the ADHD label? Well, I like it because it explains a lot (also dx at 48) and gives me the power to rethink aspects of my life and not feel so guilty. I also hate it because of the negative reactions I've had, particularly from my mum. . The misconceptions in society and my seeming inability to explain in a simple way how it has such profound effect on every aspect of my life, without coming across as a self centred hypochondriac. The time is long overdue for ADHD to get a new and more accurate 'name'. . . I'm glad you decided to start a diary, mine's been such a help to sort stuff out in my head and get input from people who understand.
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Post by merrial on Mar 20, 2016 11:34:21 GMT
Yes I think it was you who described it to me as a double edged sword...great analogy!!! Yes my brother always says to me "Look we've all got a brain we don't all give it a name!" If I even mention ADHD. And I don't want to come across all self obsessed either & don't really like telling people..apart from here. And yes I'm so glad to find somewhere/something to get my feelings out and read about other peoples experiences and know that there are people who are like me.
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Post by merrial on Mar 28, 2016 8:58:10 GMT
Chip chip chipping away, will there be anything left?
I had 3 panic attacks last week, which I have not had for years. What brought these on was the thought's. The feeling of drowning.
Coming up for air and then sinking. Having only 2 hrs sleep maybe every night. Mind racing out of control.
GP tomorrow can't go on like this anymore.
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Post by merrial on Mar 31, 2016 4:16:15 GMT
Been awake since 3.45 am so thought I'd get up...and now my mind is wandering and wondering... I was just thinking yesterday how strange it is that sometimes the simplest of things baffle me! And yet I can understand quite complex things that other people can't get their heads around.....sometimes it's the language or terminology people use.
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Post by merrial on Apr 6, 2016 20:13:09 GMT
Great a fresh perspective...and some time to re group my thoughts. Feeling much better today....today I have bought myself a car!!!
Yes freedom again....time to go a wandering. Today life is looking better....
Planetary alignment is very discombobulating at the moment making things tricky....but small steps and moving closer to something ahead
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Post by merrial on Apr 6, 2016 20:18:14 GMT
Just a thought or "wondering"...if not ADHD how about...people who's minds wander off because there is something more interesting going on outside, over there. Or can no longer fain interest in your boring conversation....Just for laughs please don't take this seriously people!!! It's just another "wondering"
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Post by marionk on Apr 6, 2016 21:28:04 GMT
Great a fresh perspective...and some time to re group my thoughts. Feeling much better today....today I have bought myself a car!!! Yes freedom again....time to go a wandering. Today life is looking better.... Planetary alignment is very discombobulating at the moment making things tricky....but small steps and moving closer to something ahead Gratz on the car! That reminds me I want to DL a night sky app. It's the second time today that something has reminded me. Maybe I'll actually remember long enough that I'll still remember when I find my phone! Actually, writing that has made a pretty strong association between finding my phone and DLing the app . . . and omg - there is my phone! But the battery is flat and - oh there's a suitable cable here , yay! . . . and there are so many to choose from I have no idea. . .
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Post by marionk on Apr 6, 2016 22:31:19 GMT
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Post by merrial on Apr 8, 2016 15:49:31 GMT
At last sleeping will once again be part of my life...I hope!!! Been to the doc's now have my script for Zops...although they didn't work for me
when I took them years ago. I can only hope. A friend suggested Phenergan?? Here's where I start...onwards to the land of sleep....please!!!!
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Post by merrial on Apr 10, 2016 9:25:25 GMT
After two very lovely nights of uninterrupted nights sleep I'm feeling a lot better by far. So far so good.
Off to this Recovery college next week hopefully will give me a new perspective on what the future may be.
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Post by marionk on Apr 10, 2016 12:27:03 GMT
Recovery college? Sounds very interesting.
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Post by merrial on Apr 15, 2016 8:18:05 GMT
Recovery college is run by my local NHS foundation trust. The Introduction was interesting and with a varied group of people with MH diagnosis.
Next week is Building on Strengths. I don't really know what to expect but at the moment I'm prepared to give it a try. I'm beginning to understand
that there is no quick fix. And that where in the past I have thought of myself as some type of Superwoman, just dusting myself down and starting
back to my old ways of fixing things and coping. This time there will be no going back. And there will be new boundaries and they will be there for a
reason.
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Post by marionk on Apr 15, 2016 9:16:41 GMT
Oh that still sounds very interesting! This time I've managed to see if there is one around here . . . there was . . . it closed last year btw I'm Sagittarius, no idea what that means, especially when it comes to ADHD, but I do know that most 'definitions' are carefully ambiguous so as to include everyone.
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Post by merrial on Apr 16, 2016 23:15:58 GMT
That's a real shame marionk because there's so much talk about self help etc but it can't all be done on your own. These sort of groups are designed to give people direction and a bit of confidence to get back out there and try again. Bloody gov cuts, well it cuts both ways. If people looked after each other more in this world it would be a better place. Instead of a bitter and resentful society grrr rant rant.
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Post by Mouse on Apr 17, 2016 14:09:22 GMT
Marian, Great a fresh perspective...and some time to re group my thoughts. Feeling much better today....today I have bought myself a car!!! Yes freedom again....time to go a wandering. Today life is lookingbetter.... Planetary alignment is very discombobulating at the moment making things tricky....but small steps and moving closer to something ahead Gratz on the car! That reminds me I want to DL a night sky app. It's the second time today that something has reminded me. Maybe I'll actually remember long enough that I'll still remember when I find my phone! Actually, writing that has made a pretty strong association between finding my phone and DLing the app . . . and omg - there is my phone! But the battery is flat and - oh there's a suitable cable here , yay! . . . and there are so many to choose from I have no idea. . . I have the Sundroid app on my phone and that shows the positions of the stars!☺
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Post by marionk on Apr 17, 2016 18:40:23 GMT
Thanks for the suggestion, unfortunately my phone objects to it. My son suggested Sky Map, so as my phone is ok with that, that's what I'm going with.
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Post by merrial on Apr 30, 2016 13:06:07 GMT
After a week of feeling absolutely crap I a uti...so say the nurse. Today feeling slightly better I am back on the track of thinking about what the hell
i'm going to do with my life? Have now been off work for a month. And while I'm trying my best to make some sort of recovery I'm also feeling
overwhelmed by the size of my problems. I know I can't go back to the job I was doing. But I just have got to do something. The ADHD nurse
said be kind to myself but my brain procrastinates and doesn't let me. Well diary that's enough for now.....
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Post by merrial on May 4, 2016 9:58:49 GMT
Really struggling to wake up and remain focused. So much to do and so little energy. That is all....
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