frameofmind
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ADHD used to be my prison, now it is my best tool.
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Post by frameofmind on Mar 24, 2016 19:22:19 GMT
Hello. Im not to sure how to write this or if anyone will read this and find it helpful. In fact it has taken me a while to write this, mostly, because something else comes up and I loose track... I guess it is very common in me to get distracted by something else.
Im looking for a place to share with others how my condition is affecting my life and compare it to other´s accounts on their own experience up to now, no psichologist has helped me, really helped me feel OK with my diagnosis, I understand it and know what treatments i can follow but is it just me o do others with ADHD go throught the same issues???
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Post by clubby on Mar 24, 2016 23:02:39 GMT
This is definitely the place to share ADHD experiences.
It is such a strange condition. I don't think it can be truly understood unless you have it.
The great thing about this forum is that despite all our differences we really seem to be able to understand each other.
For someone who has been an alien all her life, I find that utterly amazing.
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Post by vagueandrandom on Mar 26, 2016 17:21:01 GMT
Hi frameofmind This forum has helped me so much, before and after diagnosis. It's good to be able to talk to people who get you and not have to explain. . . The professionals focus on the more obvious traits that can be treated, but it's the more subtle things to do with emotions and social interaction and the reaction towards adhd from NT society that can be more distressing. . it's the thing that bothers me most. Keeping a diary here has helped to keep me sane. Sometimes it helps to brain dump here than to try to explain to people who don't understand. Keep writing
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frameofmind
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Post by frameofmind on Mar 26, 2016 19:22:22 GMT
Dear diary: this assonatic start seems repetitive after having written it over and over since I was a child. Both my mother and therapists recommended in order not to blabber and say out loud all I though, I should write it in a diary and pretend I had told the worl. Figures, they do not have ADHD so they don't understand that a kid can't just shut up so it wasn't working. I stopped. But now these two words I wish to pick up again for hey have more meaning. With them, I'm no longer addressing a muted unempathing piece of paper but a sharing and understanding online group. They won't judge me negatively but know how it feels and what words to write back so I'm not alone in this lifelong battle with myself. So now I know I will progress further with unknown friends and long distance cosoldiers... since I have logged on and posted I have felt the warmth of others and it is helping...already...after just three short days.
Lets get better togather
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Post by frameofmind on Mar 27, 2016 12:43:12 GMT
RELATIONSHIPS. Whats wrong with me, I cant stand people and i get dreaded by company. I love doing what i want but i hate being alone. In this world you cant have both. I have very few friends both because i cant stand their monotonic lifes and they cant stand my constant change of mind and spontaneous yabbering. All i know is i dont deal well with relationships. Even wth my mom. She litterally means the world to me. like a kid with ADHD i have grown so overdependant on her that the though of independance sends shivers down my spine. Today she went on holliday with my father who i have spent less phisical time with so it is easy to be away. The last time i was without my mom i nearly got admitted into hospital for clinical depression, ¨my eyes teared and voice broke when talking about my mother." and we had only been separated for six months and she was forced to return so i could finish my masters degree. So again, she has gone on hollyday and i couldnt be better. I feel she is my Concerta but I was overdosing and now Im doing all i need in a orderly manner and correctly. this will soon fade just in time for her return but even being with her tires me to the point were we argue and pull each other down.
So. I love my mom but Im glad shes on break, and me too. If i cant stand being a few moths togather with my own family how am i ever going to stand being in a relationship. Am I ever going to be able to have a relationship. Or quit when I get tired. Am i going to be alone forever.
OH GOD this is confusing.
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Post by vagueandrandom on Mar 27, 2016 13:44:37 GMT
Hi frameofmind . . I don't know how many of my posts you've read, but this is my main issue with ADHD. I've trained myself to be good at timekeeping and I have endless systems to keep organised I accepted my differences years ago and know that I'm an oddball. I love being around people and bouncing ideas around, but also need time on my own. My mum drives me up the wall. I don't have any close friends and have only had one serious relationship which finished over 20 years ago. I don't know how to do it. People seem to like me, but I don't know how to make the conversion to friend or partner. I've built such a big wall around me to stop anyone getting close and I don't know what I can do to change. I hate it! Just one friend would do.
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Post by clubby on Mar 27, 2016 21:52:45 GMT
OO-AH RELATIONSHIPS , my favourite subject.
Total mystery to me.
Trying very hard to understand normal relationships.
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frameofmind
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Post by frameofmind on Mar 28, 2016 2:41:56 GMT
It's just sooo hard. I had this friend once who would tell me was childish and seeking excuses when I acted out of place . One couldn't have a normal discussion of adhd without her undermining the condition. And many times I feel people judge me similarly.
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Post by clubby on Mar 28, 2016 8:26:53 GMT
Finding the love of your life or best friend can be a long journey or happen ina flash.
The important thing is to be yourself, yet chip away a few of the extreme edges.
When the right person arrives, both of you will be totally out of control.
If you are not yourself, your match will not find you.
It is ok to be you.
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frameofmind
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Post by frameofmind on Apr 15, 2016 22:18:01 GMT
Hello there. Im back, Been out almost a month due to personal reasons but was alredy missing this part of my day. It is good to get to write somewhere where at least i naivelly believe people could help me as they understand me better. Maybe Im wrong and no one can help me or understand me. Honestly, often I do very weird stuff.
This week was specially bad and today was so horrible I ached so much to write that here i am almost midnight and doing the imposible to stay up and write... impulsivelly.
I have completelly Lost control right now and I dont know what to do.
Ill let you know more tomorrow when i can sit down and spend some time pretending to focus and describe this difficult situation.
Thanks for being there
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