Post by IMayHaveADD on Jun 8, 2016 18:46:19 GMT
Hey there,
I've been curious since a very young person as to why I struggle so much with general tasks at work. This is work on just about everything I do. I feel like I've always been very misunderstood with my learning difficulties. I have been diagnosed with high functioning autism. I feel as if I might have a fairly rare case of learning difficulties. When I say rare I don't mean something really uncommon for ADD specialists to come across but I mean teachers.
Despite having autism, I feel like I am very socially aware. Although I am slow to pick up on this awareness, I am very sure my awareness is above average but my difficulties are often mistaken as lack of awareness and lack of social intelligence. I can however defiantly see why I have autism.
Most people from peers to teachers to family seem to not understand my struggles. Although my family are well aware I struggle a lot they just don't seem to fully realize how lacking in control I am or at least I precieve myself to be. I have been told it's a self-fulfilling prophecy by teachers and stuff but really what I am doing is trying my best and then observing why I am struggling.
When diagnosed with autism, the person said 'just by looking at you I can tell you do not have ADD'. Sounds like she doesn't know what she is talking about to me. The diagnosis did come back saying I may have dyspraxia.
NOW I WILL GET TO WHY I THINK I HAVE ADD. Since a very young child, I have always been by far the slowest to do things. Despite having what IMHO is an above average intelligence at least, I would say I am actually most likely slower than students who have autism but not the intellectual kind. I have had a lot of hassle with teachers before, trying to make me feel embarrassed saying things like 'is this really all your capable of?' and comparing my lack of work with other work that I have done. And the teacher would bring up the fact that I believe I have learning difficulties (this was before I was diagnosed with autism) and say that it's all excuses. At points I did feel like I was just being lazy but then I try really hard but it's as if my brain is blocking me from actually trying hard. It's hard to explain, it's like I am incapable of 'trying hard' sometimes. Like there is no way of measuring how much effort I put in because my brain is blocking the motivation.
I am very easily distracted and find it extremely difficult to work on tasks that I am not interested in sometimes. But other times, I will probably work significantly better and faster than anyone in the class. There doesn't seem to be much of anything different when I can concentrate except for if I am interested in the subject. I absolutely cannot stand being given a specific time to be at work or school for. As the day before, I get distracted from getting to bed. It seems like such a big choir does going to bed. And when I am in bed my mind is racing and it takes me really long to fall asleep. I am just about always unbearably tired when I go to school. I find it difficult to stick to deadlines, I always get very distracted when I plan to work on something boring. But when I plan to work on my passion it's a different story.
I have a passion which I will not specify to keep my anonymity but I am very dedicated to it. I can work on it for hours and hours and be perfectly happy doing it. I have been working on a unfinished project for 4 years and it is coming along great. I hope to finish soon and become a success of what I have built.
BTW one of my teachers have said I am 'the slowest student I have ever came across'. I know that one of the things that contributed towards people thinking I exaggerate my problems is because despite performed poorly in previous years, I am performing significantly worse this year but I would say that does not simply come down to less effort. People tell me to 'just do it' and with some things my mind is literally blocked especially if I am tired. Please do not take me as someone who feels sorry for themselves, as I consider myself a very positive happy person. I am just trying to get people's opinions on this.
Thanks
I've been curious since a very young person as to why I struggle so much with general tasks at work. This is work on just about everything I do. I feel like I've always been very misunderstood with my learning difficulties. I have been diagnosed with high functioning autism. I feel as if I might have a fairly rare case of learning difficulties. When I say rare I don't mean something really uncommon for ADD specialists to come across but I mean teachers.
Despite having autism, I feel like I am very socially aware. Although I am slow to pick up on this awareness, I am very sure my awareness is above average but my difficulties are often mistaken as lack of awareness and lack of social intelligence. I can however defiantly see why I have autism.
Most people from peers to teachers to family seem to not understand my struggles. Although my family are well aware I struggle a lot they just don't seem to fully realize how lacking in control I am or at least I precieve myself to be. I have been told it's a self-fulfilling prophecy by teachers and stuff but really what I am doing is trying my best and then observing why I am struggling.
When diagnosed with autism, the person said 'just by looking at you I can tell you do not have ADD'. Sounds like she doesn't know what she is talking about to me. The diagnosis did come back saying I may have dyspraxia.
NOW I WILL GET TO WHY I THINK I HAVE ADD. Since a very young child, I have always been by far the slowest to do things. Despite having what IMHO is an above average intelligence at least, I would say I am actually most likely slower than students who have autism but not the intellectual kind. I have had a lot of hassle with teachers before, trying to make me feel embarrassed saying things like 'is this really all your capable of?' and comparing my lack of work with other work that I have done. And the teacher would bring up the fact that I believe I have learning difficulties (this was before I was diagnosed with autism) and say that it's all excuses. At points I did feel like I was just being lazy but then I try really hard but it's as if my brain is blocking me from actually trying hard. It's hard to explain, it's like I am incapable of 'trying hard' sometimes. Like there is no way of measuring how much effort I put in because my brain is blocking the motivation.
I am very easily distracted and find it extremely difficult to work on tasks that I am not interested in sometimes. But other times, I will probably work significantly better and faster than anyone in the class. There doesn't seem to be much of anything different when I can concentrate except for if I am interested in the subject. I absolutely cannot stand being given a specific time to be at work or school for. As the day before, I get distracted from getting to bed. It seems like such a big choir does going to bed. And when I am in bed my mind is racing and it takes me really long to fall asleep. I am just about always unbearably tired when I go to school. I find it difficult to stick to deadlines, I always get very distracted when I plan to work on something boring. But when I plan to work on my passion it's a different story.
I have a passion which I will not specify to keep my anonymity but I am very dedicated to it. I can work on it for hours and hours and be perfectly happy doing it. I have been working on a unfinished project for 4 years and it is coming along great. I hope to finish soon and become a success of what I have built.
BTW one of my teachers have said I am 'the slowest student I have ever came across'. I know that one of the things that contributed towards people thinking I exaggerate my problems is because despite performed poorly in previous years, I am performing significantly worse this year but I would say that does not simply come down to less effort. People tell me to 'just do it' and with some things my mind is literally blocked especially if I am tired. Please do not take me as someone who feels sorry for themselves, as I consider myself a very positive happy person. I am just trying to get people's opinions on this.
Thanks