Post by shiningbright on Jul 6, 2016 16:42:26 GMT
So I'm struggling with my work load as it is. By the end of next week I have to complete 100/200 completion forms, writing up and mark 100 exams, make sure everything has the correct dates and learners ref and details etc. Then also organise the lot into a set fashion as preferred b y 'the bosses' (my oh still can't write yet so it falls to me else he'll not get paid). Then as soon as these learners are completed then my OH will be going to stay at my cowifes house for 2-6 months while he works on a project nearer hers then mine. So before he goes I need to have 12-15am session plans and resources and materials ready for level 2. As he won't have me to print or organise anything for him he needs me to give him as much as I can as soon as I can.
All this is with our plan of opening our own school on the back burner. I still have to cook and clean and tend to two young and adventurous children. I'm being stretched too thin, I'm so stressed.
So, yesterday my OH asks me of I've made any progress on the school plan (cant get funding til I've done the curriculum). I laughed and said not since he broke his arm and I had to cover his work.
Then, probably trying to be supportive and encouraging (trying to motivate me by showing me how valued I am), my OH says to me "the future of the family rests on you." Errm, thanks?
So roll on the panic. And he wonders why I'm so stressed and tired lately. And whenever I try to tell him I choke on the words and it never comes out right. He does understand that I've got too much on my plate and he doesn't nag or get upset with me when I miss targets (crazy targets too, I'll explain below) but I'm painfully aware that the business/schoolstart up and success rests on a set of skills I have that my OH doesn't have. Once it's up and running he can easily take over and manage the lot. But the start up, plans, curriculums etc are things he needs from me. Without those the plans putty.
So, crazy targets, He has some weird time frames. And I know it's my fault. The average time to write a curriculum is anywhere from6 months to 2yrs). I've written some in less then two weeks- when I had one baby and a tiny house and no cooking skills.
Now I have a two bed flat (I used to have just one room and a shared kitchen), two kids and my OH work to do. I feel like I'm doing two full time jobs. To be able to do the curriculum I need to be able to focus, hyper focus I can go really fast but otherwise I'm really slow. I can't keep being interrupted by crying children, or having get up to clean or having to stop working to cook. So it takes me a lot longer now and a lot more of energy to focus on the task.
My OH time frame from business idea to the opening of said school was 3 months! Notn impossible to hyper focus me but impossible to stressed me. That was 5 months ago nearly.
Now I'm think next summer by my OH is still hopeful for this summer- i m not bloody superwoman.
Sorry vent Over
All this is with our plan of opening our own school on the back burner. I still have to cook and clean and tend to two young and adventurous children. I'm being stretched too thin, I'm so stressed.
So, yesterday my OH asks me of I've made any progress on the school plan (cant get funding til I've done the curriculum). I laughed and said not since he broke his arm and I had to cover his work.
Then, probably trying to be supportive and encouraging (trying to motivate me by showing me how valued I am), my OH says to me "the future of the family rests on you." Errm, thanks?
So roll on the panic. And he wonders why I'm so stressed and tired lately. And whenever I try to tell him I choke on the words and it never comes out right. He does understand that I've got too much on my plate and he doesn't nag or get upset with me when I miss targets (crazy targets too, I'll explain below) but I'm painfully aware that the business/schoolstart up and success rests on a set of skills I have that my OH doesn't have. Once it's up and running he can easily take over and manage the lot. But the start up, plans, curriculums etc are things he needs from me. Without those the plans putty.
So, crazy targets, He has some weird time frames. And I know it's my fault. The average time to write a curriculum is anywhere from6 months to 2yrs). I've written some in less then two weeks- when I had one baby and a tiny house and no cooking skills.
Now I have a two bed flat (I used to have just one room and a shared kitchen), two kids and my OH work to do. I feel like I'm doing two full time jobs. To be able to do the curriculum I need to be able to focus, hyper focus I can go really fast but otherwise I'm really slow. I can't keep being interrupted by crying children, or having get up to clean or having to stop working to cook. So it takes me a lot longer now and a lot more of energy to focus on the task.
My OH time frame from business idea to the opening of said school was 3 months! Notn impossible to hyper focus me but impossible to stressed me. That was 5 months ago nearly.
Now I'm think next summer by my OH is still hopeful for this summer- i m not bloody superwoman.
Sorry vent Over