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Post by shiningbright on Jul 15, 2016 12:34:11 GMT
I'm not sure if what I type will make sense but I'll try really hard.
I've got a headache coming on, minegraind status and I can feel it coming. But it's not my problem, my problem is what caused the headache.
My brain is fuzzy. I feel kinda disconnected from it in a way, but also everything seems so much. The tiny draft under our door feels like a huge gust of wind. Even my boy whipsers sound really loud and I can be touched much at the moment because I'm just sooverwhelmed by my senses. (My poor 3 yr old keeps telling me he loves and and hugs me and goes back to playing)
It started yesterday and that bloody fetal hospital in Leeds. The room was huge and so noisy with the smells of dentistry and hospital, compinined with pale walls and seats and uniforms but brightly coloured kids, which sent my balance off, the sound of crying and auctions and drills and drs and nurses being overly cheerful of tone (you know that high pitch tone adults use to sooth scared kids) and just when I thought we'd get a break from that room to go to the xray waiting area- they had a tiny room where every sound echoed!?!? Even whipsers echoed of the walled, sighing my baby sounded almost as loud as his cries did (he hated it there also) it was such a relief to get back outside and both my kids relaxed and calmed down (you could see the difference in them, so I'd likely have been the same). But the whole way home I felt dizzy with relief, my brain fuzzy and vague and off. I hoped sleeping would help but I couldn't quite sleep, I woke often feeling kinda paralysed from being too tired to move but yet every slight noise woke me- my lad talking in his sleep, my baby snores, a car passing in the night, etc.
Then today I woke up and we had leftovers for breakfast and Ii thought I was starting to feel better but my brain is struggling even with speech lol - I just told my son that the cat was in the car and he laughed. I was trying to say the toy car was in the pushchair.
This happens to me maybe once every few months and it can last a day or less, or a few days. in the past I've called it mmsmy brain rebooting but I've never had this group to talk to before so just wondered if it's just ooray of this? Cos I've noticed its happened three times this year (I only count Iit if it lasts longer thenone sleep cycle, it's normal ffor me ifn it happens for a few hours every few days) each lasting about 2/4 days.
It's is just part of the adhd? Like a extreme version of my daily fogs? Please advice, I'm getting freaked out by my own brain.
Side note I'm not depressed or anything, emotional I'm fine and jolly (smiling at my lad being so fascinated by bubbles) but I'm a little scared of my unfocus... my mental health is good (side question- why does a person feel they must confirm their mental health when discussing their adhd symptoms, it's unfair on tbem)
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Post by vagueandrandom on Jul 15, 2016 21:46:17 GMT
Hi shiningbright sounds 'normal for me' . . Sensory Processing Disorder. . .can fluctuate in intensity, but I have it to some degree most of the time. . .all senses, or just some . .
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Post by shiningbright on Jul 16, 2016 0:02:47 GMT
Yeah, I'm kinda feeling better today. I'm still rather hyper brain - not sleptnin nearly 20 hours and so drained but can't switch off and my dad says I sound drunk but I'm not, just hyper- I've done some cross stitching this evening but didn't get the work I planned to do done :-(
Still keep feeling sick but not been sick today.
I feel so much more grounded then I did yesterday where I was just so overwhelmed by everything, I went out today and it was raining and the feel of the rain seemed to sooth me back tttt a functioning level but I'm still hyper.
Troublen is I've now got one day to do four days worth of work and I'm totally kicking myself but I just can't sleep and can't focus :-(
I'm happy mind, my boy's are amazing and life is grand. Just work sucks lol.
Maybe a shower will help me relax and sleep... worth a try.
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Post by shiningbright on Jul 16, 2016 0:18:12 GMT
Shower felt nice. But the smell of my shampoo made me sick so I used the hand wash my toddler made a few days ago (fairy liquid, water and peppermint oil lol) and now I smell like a polo but I like that lol.
Off to bed now... hopefully lol. My 3 yr old is in my bed tonight so if I can't sleep then his night time cuddles and talks willentertain me :-)
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Post by marionk on Jul 16, 2016 9:13:12 GMT
Hi shiningbright sounds 'normal for me' . . Sensory Processing Disorder. . .can fluctuate in intensity, but I have it to some degree most of the time. . .all senses, or just some . . Does that include a very keen sense of smell?
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Post by shiningbright on Jul 16, 2016 10:23:12 GMT
I've always had a strong sense of smell, it got way stronger when I got pregnant with my first child and has pretty much stayed super strong.
I can literately tell where my OH has been in a day just by given him a hug when he comes home, I can tell that my CW has 5 different perfums and, because I've been in her house, I know which ones I'm smelling on him (her body spray, her hallway scents, her cleaning spray from the kitchen, her shampoo and her hand soap - plus sometimes I can smell her sons body spray and her daughter perfumes lol). I can also smell what he's eaten, so he never sneaks a take away around me (he brings me one instead).
Funny story, we were driving around one time and he ask if I wanted a snack as he wanted some wings, I said 'okies, if you want' and he went and got some from the takeaway. As we were eating he's talking and just casually mentions that he had a take away on his way home from work a few nights ago which was why he wasn't hungry when he got home. I smiled and said 'oh, i know' (note, we were just chatting, no sublimnal stuff lol). He asks how I knew and i told him I could smell it on him when he came home. He was shocked and asked why I didn't say anything and that he was sorry if he hurt my feeling by not eating the food i'd cooked. I laughed and said he;d not hurt my feelings, it was a leftovers night anyway and it can just as easily be eaten for lunch as for dinner. He asked how strong my sense of smell was so I told him that I can tell where he's gone - for example, his ex has a house that always smells like busty purfume, and his kids always smell like sugared fruits and soap/shampoo. He asked if he should shower more but I said not to bother because A - what he gets upto when not home is his business, i trust him and don't sniff him to check where hes been and B i love his natural smell which returns after a change of clothes mostly. So he doens't worry anymore, bless him. It's just a quirk of mine. But, if he want's to snack on take aways instead of eat the food I make, he'll only do so on leftover evenings and he'll bring me something also lol. Bless him.
I can tell what my neighbours are cooking, I can smell when people are smoking outside (I'm a ground floor flat so people smoke by my living room or bathroom window :-(
As such, I never wear purfume anymore, I never used purfumed soap on my chidlren (water and natural oils like coconut for them, sometimes sidr leaves) and my OH only uses dove soap when he showers which doesnt give me headaches. If a shop has a purfum counter by the door, I generally won't go in lol. Not because it gives me headaches, but because it'll distract my brain so much from what I'm trying to do that I'll forget why I'm even there. Even with my cleaning stuff, i've gotten rid of a load of stuff because the smells would distract me whiel working and slow me down so I replaced them with homemade cleaning products that smell like I want them to smell and if I want the house to have a nice smell then I'll pop some bits in a pan of water and let it boil/simmer on the stove for a time and lovely, natural smells.
My OH and I joke that it's a good think I don't get jealous of my cw because he always smells like her when he comes home lol.
But I do love his natural body smell, it's so relaxing to me, like a warm hug. And when I've had 'smell overload' from perfumes in shops and such, then I will hug him and just smell is normalness and feel way better lol.
My sense are all rather strong, my sense of touch is such that I like to be touched but it has to be on my terms, if that makes sense. When I was a kid I hated being touched by anyone and wouldn't got near anyone with tons of lynix on. The slightest sound can totally distract me, and take over inside my brain which drive me nuts and i have to force myself to distractions by singing a different song. It's so weird.
One of the reasons a teacher when I was in primary school wanted me testing for autism was cos of my sensory thing. Being in a dark and quiet room on my own with natural smells is my best lol. I didn't think it could be part of ADHD, I just though I was weird lol.
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Post by shiningbright on Jul 16, 2016 11:33:46 GMT
<abbr>LMFAO :-) I meant dusty perfume lol - her house always smelt of so many different perfums but they never masked the smell of dust, so it smelt like duty perfume.
But busty perfume is also a good discrition of a few people I know. I know that one wee lady we know who has a perfum that doesn't match her naturally scent, busty purfume is a avid description for her.
I actually used to use my sense of smell to try and help me in college - everyone wore so many different perfumes that I couldn't handle it in class. So I would almost drown myself in my own cheap often fruity/sweet perfumes to try and drown out any other smells (so all I could smell was myself0 but I had to chnage it up every few days else i'd get desensitised to my own perfum and it'd be moot lol. Also used it to ocver teh smell of cats and *hit from my mums house at work lol.
Oh, I know what you mean. I'd love a relaxing massage but I just can't handle the touching side of things. My OH can do but it feels weird to me. Moslty I'll relax in a tub of hot hot water lol or I'll put the hsower spray on the lowest setting (jet like i think) and stand under that for a few minutes, wiggling my body around funny ways to get the spray in the places it's needed lol :-) </abbr>
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Post by vagueandrandom on Jul 16, 2016 17:11:41 GMT
Yes, smells and touch too. .
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Post by vagueandrandom on Jul 17, 2016 14:53:58 GMT
Sorry for the brevity of my last post. .I'm visiting friends and am trying to jam as many things as I can into a short time. . .anyway. . .smells, tastes and textures are really important to me. . It's taken me ages to find a clothes detergent that doesn't upset my sense of smell. . I tried using an unperfumed one, but could smell the chemicals. . .I've been so distracted by smells in the cinema that I couldn't follow the film . . I can tell when someone's eaten tuna often hours afterwards. .the smell of tuna makes me feel sick. .as does the smell that comes out of a Subway sandwich shop and La Senza shops. . I don't like being touched in general and like to be in control of how I am touched. . I have long hair, but hate people touching/stroking it and a massage is my idea of hell. . Found this: link the bit about sleep might be of interest to marionk
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Post by shiningbright on Jul 17, 2016 17:06:14 GMT
It's so crazy that so many things have the same or similar symptoms yet are different, connected yet individual. It's no wonder no one understands anything lol.
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Post by marionk on Jul 17, 2016 23:33:42 GMT
hmm, I don't think I have SPD, it's more just a better than average sense of smell, and hearing. A faint smell or sound that noone else seems to be able to smell/hear will bug me until I can identify the source. It does seem to come and go, especially the sense of smell although it's never as keen as shiningbright's.
I don't have any issues with touch, although I do remember that, for some reason, I used to love being 'tucked in' really tight as a child. My issues with sleep are more to do with wakefulness at inappropriate times, and excessive daytime sleepiness, combined with classic ADHD, thoughts never stopping, type insomnia.
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Post by shiningbright on Jul 18, 2016 7:04:36 GMT
I live in a block of flats, I'm the ground floor and two above me. Factory to one side more flats to the other side through a shared hallway. I'm super lucky and the flat above me are very quite. Except when they fight which has been a lot less lately. And they have a baby a little older then mine who crys a lot like mine does but I don't count that as noise really (it's life- but until recently every time their baby cried my mill would leak lol).
Now the flat at the top are also very quite, it's a very lovely block of flats, but they have a teen son and every now and then you'll hear him playing the drums orpplaying heavy metal music. I don't mind but I can literally feel the sounds of it.
Same with the factory. Not too much noise but when it does it does loud lol.
I've now got a tooth infection which makes it all the trickier doing the stuff I need to do cos I can't focus lol. Oh well.
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