Post by mattips on Sept 17, 2016 6:18:53 GMT
Hi all, I'm matthew 31 from ipswich
I have had adhd (according to my mother) for my whole life. Spent my teenage years trying to get diagnosed which eventually happened when I was 19! I was prescribed any meds or offered any help at that time.
I then carried on my life trying to make something of myself.
I flitted from job to job spending countless months unemployed as I just could let stand working for anyone.
I then foolishly sent up and engineering company. I say foolish as that is a lot of pressure and responsibility for someone with adhd. Nevertheless I was insistent that I was going to do it.
The first 2 years where great money was coming in, I was happy, would quite happily work 10 hour days never had a day of ill! Finally I had found my place in life and something I was good at! Little did I realise that the paperwork and bills where Pilling up! I started getting all sorts of demanding notices from hmrc, suppliers etc where I had simply forgot to pay them only I then couldn't afford to pay them! Anyway over the next year things spiralled out of control to the point that I was forced to dissolve the company owing 50k! I had also put directors guarantors down for a lot of things!
I then things went from bad to worse, I had no job, no money and bailiffs at my door every other day.
I was then forced to go personally bankrupt.
I hit an all time low to the point that I would spend days in bed hiding from the world.
My wife then dragged me to to doctors to see if I could get help ( I had been on anti depressants for a few years)
I was sat in front of the doctor in floods of tears as everyone was asking me "what is wrong" and I couldn't really tell them how I felt as I didn't really know!
Then it dawned on me........I have adhd and had lived with it for over 10 years with out any help!
I thought maybe I'm not depressed, maybe this whole time it has been my adhd and the anti depressants have masked the issue?
I explained this to me doctor which he said that sounds perfectly acceptable and referred me to my local mental health team who prescribed me "elvanse" I now take 70mg a day and I feel like my life has been turned around!
There are still lots of things about my life I need to sort out but I am heading it the right direction.
With regards to work, my dad had bought me all the too long and machinery for my engineering workshop, when I dissolved the company when we looked back at the records the machinery and tooling had never actually been signed over to my company so I was able to keep it ( or rather my dad was) I have since been discharged from bankruptcy and have set up in business once again! Things aren't perfect but I'm trying to make success this time around by learning from my mistakes, I.e letting someone else take care of the money side , not being afraid to ask for help and also not taking on too much!
Anyway sorry for the essay, just glad I stumbled across this site as I may be able to speak and share experiences with people who understand vaguely how my mind works!
Cheers
Matt
I have had adhd (according to my mother) for my whole life. Spent my teenage years trying to get diagnosed which eventually happened when I was 19! I was prescribed any meds or offered any help at that time.
I then carried on my life trying to make something of myself.
I flitted from job to job spending countless months unemployed as I just could let stand working for anyone.
I then foolishly sent up and engineering company. I say foolish as that is a lot of pressure and responsibility for someone with adhd. Nevertheless I was insistent that I was going to do it.
The first 2 years where great money was coming in, I was happy, would quite happily work 10 hour days never had a day of ill! Finally I had found my place in life and something I was good at! Little did I realise that the paperwork and bills where Pilling up! I started getting all sorts of demanding notices from hmrc, suppliers etc where I had simply forgot to pay them only I then couldn't afford to pay them! Anyway over the next year things spiralled out of control to the point that I was forced to dissolve the company owing 50k! I had also put directors guarantors down for a lot of things!
I then things went from bad to worse, I had no job, no money and bailiffs at my door every other day.
I was then forced to go personally bankrupt.
I hit an all time low to the point that I would spend days in bed hiding from the world.
My wife then dragged me to to doctors to see if I could get help ( I had been on anti depressants for a few years)
I was sat in front of the doctor in floods of tears as everyone was asking me "what is wrong" and I couldn't really tell them how I felt as I didn't really know!
Then it dawned on me........I have adhd and had lived with it for over 10 years with out any help!
I thought maybe I'm not depressed, maybe this whole time it has been my adhd and the anti depressants have masked the issue?
I explained this to me doctor which he said that sounds perfectly acceptable and referred me to my local mental health team who prescribed me "elvanse" I now take 70mg a day and I feel like my life has been turned around!
There are still lots of things about my life I need to sort out but I am heading it the right direction.
With regards to work, my dad had bought me all the too long and machinery for my engineering workshop, when I dissolved the company when we looked back at the records the machinery and tooling had never actually been signed over to my company so I was able to keep it ( or rather my dad was) I have since been discharged from bankruptcy and have set up in business once again! Things aren't perfect but I'm trying to make success this time around by learning from my mistakes, I.e letting someone else take care of the money side , not being afraid to ask for help and also not taking on too much!
Anyway sorry for the essay, just glad I stumbled across this site as I may be able to speak and share experiences with people who understand vaguely how my mind works!
Cheers
Matt