Post by sasquatch on Apr 9, 2017 15:11:50 GMT
I'm so happy to have found this place. Lurked for a few days before taking the plunge and saying hi.
I've suffered with ADHD all my life which means I'll waffle a load and nobody will be able to read this (ADHD right?) And it probably won't end up where I think it will and I'll finish by thanking the maker of the peanut m&m.
Here goes over 30 years
From a young age the world seemed so confusing and it seemed the rules kept changing. Everybody said how frustrating now as because I'm so smart (?) But more on that later.
Personally I blame my blame my parents for my ADHD continuing into adulthood. Mother was an abusive alcoholic and father an emotional coward. I vaguely remember being told by school therapists that I had a condition called ADHD and that this meant my brain worked differently and somethings would be harder for me.
Typically I don't remember specific details but I do remember that my mother was furious with the dr for being conned by me and giving me an excuse for being a bad child; therefore refusing me any form of treatment (I remember being told when I was older that it would only have "encouraged" me).
Growing up I became the stereotypical abuser of drugs and alcohol, anything to slow my mind down. I'd flit from relationship to relationship getting bored after a few months at best (mostly on the receiving end of abusive relationships as I was probably too hard to be with) jobs wouldn't last and I'd never understand why. In my early to mid teens I earned a good amount playing football but I was always skint. In my late teens and early 20's the suicide attempts came.
Loads of friends and work colleagues would constantly tell me how smart I was and for a dare took a formal IQ test....turns out my IQ is in the 98th percentile. I'm still not sure if that helps me cope on a daily
Basis or makes it harder
By my early to mid 20's I was married (how I'll never know. I was kinda swept along with it without any choice it feels some days) that lasted awhile and gave me my daughter. Oddly it was the arrival of my little girl that made me realise that i couldn't live in another abusive relationship.
Fast forward 18 months (ish) and I've now found someone who for now at least, seems able to cope with my ADHD...maybe she has a different opinion haha.
I realise this is a bit of a rant and I've probably missed a load of stuff out but hey I suppose that's kinda acceptable around here lol. I'll happily answer questions or respond to specific points if people are so inclined to ask.
I really do love those peanut based snacks
I've suffered with ADHD all my life which means I'll waffle a load and nobody will be able to read this (ADHD right?) And it probably won't end up where I think it will and I'll finish by thanking the maker of the peanut m&m.
Here goes over 30 years
From a young age the world seemed so confusing and it seemed the rules kept changing. Everybody said how frustrating now as because I'm so smart (?) But more on that later.
Personally I blame my blame my parents for my ADHD continuing into adulthood. Mother was an abusive alcoholic and father an emotional coward. I vaguely remember being told by school therapists that I had a condition called ADHD and that this meant my brain worked differently and somethings would be harder for me.
Typically I don't remember specific details but I do remember that my mother was furious with the dr for being conned by me and giving me an excuse for being a bad child; therefore refusing me any form of treatment (I remember being told when I was older that it would only have "encouraged" me).
Growing up I became the stereotypical abuser of drugs and alcohol, anything to slow my mind down. I'd flit from relationship to relationship getting bored after a few months at best (mostly on the receiving end of abusive relationships as I was probably too hard to be with) jobs wouldn't last and I'd never understand why. In my early to mid teens I earned a good amount playing football but I was always skint. In my late teens and early 20's the suicide attempts came.
Loads of friends and work colleagues would constantly tell me how smart I was and for a dare took a formal IQ test....turns out my IQ is in the 98th percentile. I'm still not sure if that helps me cope on a daily
Basis or makes it harder
By my early to mid 20's I was married (how I'll never know. I was kinda swept along with it without any choice it feels some days) that lasted awhile and gave me my daughter. Oddly it was the arrival of my little girl that made me realise that i couldn't live in another abusive relationship.
Fast forward 18 months (ish) and I've now found someone who for now at least, seems able to cope with my ADHD...maybe she has a different opinion haha.
I realise this is a bit of a rant and I've probably missed a load of stuff out but hey I suppose that's kinda acceptable around here lol. I'll happily answer questions or respond to specific points if people are so inclined to ask.
I really do love those peanut based snacks