Post by vaatfk on May 29, 2017 18:33:25 GMT
Every single family event I end up upsetting someone in my god damn family. A difference in cognition in my case is a understatement. Every single thing my family says has little to no interest in it with no purpose but conversation fillers. Socially I don't mind it but when I'm forced to sit with my parents and siblings, it just never works. I'm good with words and never directly insult or make a direct subtext showing offense on my part, yet somehow I'm always 'digging myself a hole' by expressing my opinion. It's not that I'm even arrogant and need to say, but I get restless and very anxious if I don't say what's specifically on my mind, which leads to extreme verbal or occasionally physical assault. I've told my mum that I've got ADHD when I asked her to get me a GP meeting about it, but I really don't think she gets it. I struggle also because, I'm not sure if I have a high IQ or what it is, but everything my mum says or siblings say are simply stupid. Not being arrogant, I tell them I'll explain in detail why they're wrong and then at the end they just use excuses that I'm overcomplicating everything.
My family don't understand that I have impulsivity issues, that my mind works extremely fast and pretty efficient when I'm stimulated and the only issue is, I'm not sure if I'm in the wrong. Sometimes my dad, who's a guy I can debate with on decisions made and I can express my opinions within my own time with, tells me I'm wrong like what just happened. I'm 17 and sometimes I feel like I'm acting as if I'm 5 with the intelligence of a 17 year old.
They simply don't understand I either really do have issues, simply forget them or are ill educated on ADHD problems. You may think it would be easy to simply talk to them. But that's as easy as my teacher telling me to do something boring. I just can't do it, I don't know why.
Everyday is a severe struggle and I'm not sure how I went all these years without realising the underlying issues. I can't wait until my referral and diagnosis to try CBT or medication to ease these issues. Seems like it's months away though.
If anyone read this, and got this far. Wow, good job on you. That's a lot of text and you probably got distracted half way through by something on your desk.
Thanks, vaatfk
My family don't understand that I have impulsivity issues, that my mind works extremely fast and pretty efficient when I'm stimulated and the only issue is, I'm not sure if I'm in the wrong. Sometimes my dad, who's a guy I can debate with on decisions made and I can express my opinions within my own time with, tells me I'm wrong like what just happened. I'm 17 and sometimes I feel like I'm acting as if I'm 5 with the intelligence of a 17 year old.
They simply don't understand I either really do have issues, simply forget them or are ill educated on ADHD problems. You may think it would be easy to simply talk to them. But that's as easy as my teacher telling me to do something boring. I just can't do it, I don't know why.
Everyday is a severe struggle and I'm not sure how I went all these years without realising the underlying issues. I can't wait until my referral and diagnosis to try CBT or medication to ease these issues. Seems like it's months away though.
If anyone read this, and got this far. Wow, good job on you. That's a lot of text and you probably got distracted half way through by something on your desk.
Thanks, vaatfk