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Post by uthinkimstupid on Jul 6, 2017 2:00:32 GMT
When you're talking, I'm admiring the color of your glasses, when I'm driving I'm worrying about everyday life. When you use a public bathroom, it's a boring easy task that doesn't interest your attention right? Walk in, find a stall, do your business, wash hands, dry, and leave. Well something this simple is an entirely different experience for me. I walk in and pick a star in the bathroom I hyperfocus on tiles dirt on the floor patterns of structure, mix with obsessive worry so I am in a complete days when I wash my hands I hyperfocus on what kind of soap I'm using how well I'm washing my hands the water on the surrounding counter, imaging cleaning it. When I dry my hands I intensely observe the way the air pushes my skin around and stare at my hands in a daze. When you look at the front of a store, do you process what store it is? I don't, I observe colors of advertisements and lines and symmetry of the structure. When you read, can you sit patiently and complete pages? I can't even finish a paragraph before I feel the urge to get up and do something else. This is a crumb description to a pie story. I'm trapped and no one understands.
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Post by marionk on Jul 10, 2017 7:32:57 GMT
Ohh hello again! and welcome to the forums! I forgot to say before Have you always been that bad or has it got worse over the years? (Actually, how old are you anyway?) You mention worry again, and there's an air of task avoidance that feels very familiar, it sounds like you're 'losing yourself in the moment'. The inability to read more than a few lines at most is familiar too, but scored me no points with ATOS. I used to be an avid reader as a teenager, but in later years I couldn't even get 'into' a story far enough to get stuck!
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