deanyates
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Post by deanyates on Oct 31, 2017 19:35:10 GMT
I always thought of myself as being better than other people for seeing things/people/the world as it is, and everyone else as either being ignorant of the truth because they don't want to upset their little lives, or just bad. i still to this day doubt i have ADHD even though i have been diagnosed, but is it really that? i hate myself for being me and knowing through experience how life treats people some people are just unlucky and i'm one of them. people say think positive and your life will change!! im 47!! do people think i havent tried that or hundreds of other thoughts, tried to even be a different person but im always me. yet i still see through people more than they know. what is that? ignorance? stupidity? devious? most are the latter. ahhhhh, last night of my own mind im thinking of. i hate the thought of anything changing the way i think because i cant doubt it. why? because im always right? hate it.. things are so much worse now. didn't realise i would have to live in pain for the rest of my days or i would have done the job a long time ago. waiting for my mum to go and then i am not going out alone i know that. i didnt get made to suffer all my life with this mind without a purpose at the end and now i see it. anyway i can go on and on and on but going, no one can say they they didnt know there was anything wrong because i will make sure its public. aarrr sorry hate my mind, hope the pills help. laters people, oh and hello
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Post by easilydistracted on Oct 31, 2017 20:55:47 GMT
Hi dude,
One of the "joys" of ADHD is we get to see life without the filters others enjoy, joys in quotes because it isn't always that, we either get it full blast or we are oblivious to it.
Another "joy" is our emotional cup is often close to overflowing.
Both make life difficult, both for ourselves and, we have to admit, those around us too.
From hair-trigger like tempers, bull in a china shop focus at one extreme and unshakeable disinterest at the other with not much in between our behaviour marks us out.
And... one way or another we find ourselves at this point.
The good news is that the medication can help a lot, with that inner-peace that's been missing all this time, with that chance to think before we react and being able to listen to a whole sentence without our own thoughts drowning out half the words or wandering off and missing half the words.
Peaceful, centred, balanced, moderate - previously alien concepts now become real.
The even better news is that now you know, now you know why. That rejection our behaviour caused suddenly becomes understandable, in a world of that likes order our manic pinball like chaos is a poor fit, it's not them, it is us.
Your new knowledge may take a while to settle in, let it, it's a biggie after all, we are different.
Not wrong, not right, just different. Society is not wrong, neither is it right, it's just, as a whole, less different than us.
They, like you and I, are just trying to make the best of it all.
Peace
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