Post by quixotic on May 26, 2018 23:13:55 GMT
Ok, I'm hoping writing this diary makes me feel better as I'm desperately miserable right now.
I still have no formal diagnosis of ADHD. I had an awful experience with the psychiatrist at my formal assessment and she basically said that I couldn't have it because I could read at a young age. I have since realised I probably had hyperlexia and that probably was why I could read.
I'm considering making a formal NHS complaint but I don't know if I can explain why I consider my assessment as being so traumatising.
I can't work at the moment due to depression and anxiety but I think the root cause of them both is undiagnosed ADHD as I can't cope with work and study which is why I'm so depressed in the first place.
I can't seem to focus on getting better as I just procrastinate about everything.
I had to write a formal letter the other week and it took me half a day just to concentrate to write a few paragraphs. I felt so terrible and worthless.
My parents are such unreliable witnesses I am not sure if I can ever get a diagnosis.
I don't seem to have any executive function skills. I am always losing things and can't seem to tidy things properly ever.
Also, because I have depression no psychiatrist will take my possible ADHD seriously, even though if I could do things like cope with jobs and study, I wouldn't be depressed! It's so unfair.
I barely got my degree in Physics and Computer science after having to repeat so many years just because I couldn't do the coursework or revise for exams properly. I would love to work in either field but I have such a rubbish track record of coping with jobs I don't know that I will ever be able to.
I can wing things but only for so long. All my friendships and relationships suffer because of this. I can never meet people on time or be reliable.
And without a formal diagnosis I can't get the help I need. I feel like I am going crazy.
I still have no formal diagnosis of ADHD. I had an awful experience with the psychiatrist at my formal assessment and she basically said that I couldn't have it because I could read at a young age. I have since realised I probably had hyperlexia and that probably was why I could read.
I'm considering making a formal NHS complaint but I don't know if I can explain why I consider my assessment as being so traumatising.
I can't work at the moment due to depression and anxiety but I think the root cause of them both is undiagnosed ADHD as I can't cope with work and study which is why I'm so depressed in the first place.
I can't seem to focus on getting better as I just procrastinate about everything.
I had to write a formal letter the other week and it took me half a day just to concentrate to write a few paragraphs. I felt so terrible and worthless.
My parents are such unreliable witnesses I am not sure if I can ever get a diagnosis.
I don't seem to have any executive function skills. I am always losing things and can't seem to tidy things properly ever.
Also, because I have depression no psychiatrist will take my possible ADHD seriously, even though if I could do things like cope with jobs and study, I wouldn't be depressed! It's so unfair.
I barely got my degree in Physics and Computer science after having to repeat so many years just because I couldn't do the coursework or revise for exams properly. I would love to work in either field but I have such a rubbish track record of coping with jobs I don't know that I will ever be able to.
I can wing things but only for so long. All my friendships and relationships suffer because of this. I can never meet people on time or be reliable.
And without a formal diagnosis I can't get the help I need. I feel like I am going crazy.