Post by capitainechaos on Jun 25, 2021 16:47:02 GMT
Hello All Neurodivergent Type People....my story, in a nutshell TBH I am desperate for a bit of chat with like-minded...
I had late life diagnosis, in my mid 40's ADHD, combined type...Before that, the course of my life moved like a mosquito with a chainsaw...School was years of torment... so stressful I would vomit every morning before catching the bus. Always a round peg, I evolved a sort of dual mode of existence...externally, auto-pilot, desperately trying to suppress the wild rollercoaster of emotion, being a people pleaser. Internally, a crushing sense of isolation never left me... I began construction of a mind palace, became an autodidact. At 17 my Mother died of cancer, the implosion of emotion crippled me...I just kept running...an endless succession of dead end jobs, poor relationships, moving (40+ times) I've been homeless, slept rough, attempted suicide. Alcohol and weed were the only way I could ever shut my crazy brain up to get some precious sleep! In many ways my life shows how it can impact negatively, without any understanding. I'm still picking up the pieces, but at least I have insight now. I don't have any friends left, but I know me better- and I truly love my brain, it's awesome! To anyone out there struggling with it...Just remember that the greatest renaissance intellect in human history, Da Vinci very likely had ADHD. At the end of his life, he saw himself as a failure-Today we label him with a 'disorder'!
I'll park it there for now, and look forward to hearing from the community.
PEACE. Out.
I had late life diagnosis, in my mid 40's ADHD, combined type...Before that, the course of my life moved like a mosquito with a chainsaw...School was years of torment... so stressful I would vomit every morning before catching the bus. Always a round peg, I evolved a sort of dual mode of existence...externally, auto-pilot, desperately trying to suppress the wild rollercoaster of emotion, being a people pleaser. Internally, a crushing sense of isolation never left me... I began construction of a mind palace, became an autodidact. At 17 my Mother died of cancer, the implosion of emotion crippled me...I just kept running...an endless succession of dead end jobs, poor relationships, moving (40+ times) I've been homeless, slept rough, attempted suicide. Alcohol and weed were the only way I could ever shut my crazy brain up to get some precious sleep! In many ways my life shows how it can impact negatively, without any understanding. I'm still picking up the pieces, but at least I have insight now. I don't have any friends left, but I know me better- and I truly love my brain, it's awesome! To anyone out there struggling with it...Just remember that the greatest renaissance intellect in human history, Da Vinci very likely had ADHD. At the end of his life, he saw himself as a failure-Today we label him with a 'disorder'!
I'll park it there for now, and look forward to hearing from the community.
PEACE. Out.