Post by Gail on Aug 14, 2021 12:49:25 GMT
Hi I am just wondering if you good people could advise me just a little?
Some time ago I stumbled across something about adult ADHD and I scan read it and very big bells went off in my head.
In the many years I have worked in the Civil Service I pretty much always got told off for being easily distracted, chatting too much, struggling to concentrate particularly on routine admin task which I would do and then, getting towards the end of the day, I would have to work like I was on speed in order to get it done. I lose my phone, keys, glasses, most things habitually to the extent that almost everyone I know keeps my tickets for me if we are going somewhere and ask if I have certain items before I go out, my Dad has always said I have two time zones AM and PM and that is all, my punctuality is very ropey.
I have notebooks that I write everything in and attempt to write lists to keep myself organised but it never really works, I have a lot of small obsessions, I am deeply emotional and when I was younger I was very irritable. I have always suffered from anxiety ever since and I have a long history of depressive problems.
I am pretty good with planning and details but when I was at work I was always being told I make stupid mistakes. I have always lived in my own little world and talk to myself and not realise I'm doing it. I have been like that for decades. Things I do know about however I am intensely knowledgeable on. In my working environment I was constantly being told that I needed to stay at my desk but if people wanted to know something about certain things I was the go to person who could quote and endless stream of facts and details.
I was deeply shy and nervous but have learned to be the life and soul of thing and most people think Im that sort of person and are shocked to discover that I am not a party goer and I like to be away from people because I find them rather exhausting. I am not a thrill seeker in the traditional sense but in years gone by I was desperate to travel and took numerous holidays to different places, was noted to be very excitable at all times and always looking for excitement or interest in something. People would say to me how I needed constant stimulation as I was easily bored. Life and the World seemed mundane and boring to me.
Does any of this sound like ADHD?
Problem is I was born into a family with a mother and brother who were both committed to a mental institution for prolonged periods in my teenage and early adult years. My Mum eventually develop problems with balance, had massive involuntary limb movements, total loss of limb control, loss of speech and swallowing mechanism etc. 14 years later they were diagnosed with Huntingtons Disease, which is a devastating very genetic disease passed from parent to child etc, it is neither treatable or curable and always fatal. The mental illness is part of that for a percentage of people. Like most people, I was too terrifed to be tested and so dont know whether I have it or not, or if this affects the mental situation. I am 56 and still here.
Sorry for rattling on but Id really appreciate some guidance. If I do have ADHD Id like to know.
Thanks to anyone who reads this. Thank you so much.
Some time ago I stumbled across something about adult ADHD and I scan read it and very big bells went off in my head.
In the many years I have worked in the Civil Service I pretty much always got told off for being easily distracted, chatting too much, struggling to concentrate particularly on routine admin task which I would do and then, getting towards the end of the day, I would have to work like I was on speed in order to get it done. I lose my phone, keys, glasses, most things habitually to the extent that almost everyone I know keeps my tickets for me if we are going somewhere and ask if I have certain items before I go out, my Dad has always said I have two time zones AM and PM and that is all, my punctuality is very ropey.
I have notebooks that I write everything in and attempt to write lists to keep myself organised but it never really works, I have a lot of small obsessions, I am deeply emotional and when I was younger I was very irritable. I have always suffered from anxiety ever since and I have a long history of depressive problems.
I am pretty good with planning and details but when I was at work I was always being told I make stupid mistakes. I have always lived in my own little world and talk to myself and not realise I'm doing it. I have been like that for decades. Things I do know about however I am intensely knowledgeable on. In my working environment I was constantly being told that I needed to stay at my desk but if people wanted to know something about certain things I was the go to person who could quote and endless stream of facts and details.
I was deeply shy and nervous but have learned to be the life and soul of thing and most people think Im that sort of person and are shocked to discover that I am not a party goer and I like to be away from people because I find them rather exhausting. I am not a thrill seeker in the traditional sense but in years gone by I was desperate to travel and took numerous holidays to different places, was noted to be very excitable at all times and always looking for excitement or interest in something. People would say to me how I needed constant stimulation as I was easily bored. Life and the World seemed mundane and boring to me.
Does any of this sound like ADHD?
Problem is I was born into a family with a mother and brother who were both committed to a mental institution for prolonged periods in my teenage and early adult years. My Mum eventually develop problems with balance, had massive involuntary limb movements, total loss of limb control, loss of speech and swallowing mechanism etc. 14 years later they were diagnosed with Huntingtons Disease, which is a devastating very genetic disease passed from parent to child etc, it is neither treatable or curable and always fatal. The mental illness is part of that for a percentage of people. Like most people, I was too terrifed to be tested and so dont know whether I have it or not, or if this affects the mental situation. I am 56 and still here.
Sorry for rattling on but Id really appreciate some guidance. If I do have ADHD Id like to know.
Thanks to anyone who reads this. Thank you so much.