Post by speedy1 on Jan 23, 2023 14:04:52 GMT
I’m getting bullied by my managers at work
I can get frustrated sometimes and when I do it can be quite vocal and sometimes I go into a no cycle (where I say nope I’m not doing that and it’s damn near impossible to get me out of that zone once I’m in it)
So I can find myself summoned to the office fairly frequently but I do recognise when I’ve been a dick and I always apologise and I’m usually embarrassed by my erm almost teenager style meltdowns (it is pretty pathetic)
But I’m an adult and I’ve learnt to recognise my triggers and I try to avoid those situations wherever possible sometimes I need a little help from my managers to be able to avoid those scenarios
This unfortunately means that my bosses know my triggers and how to push my buttons and of late they have been using them as a way of punishing me because they think I’ve been purposely trying to piss them off
I haven’t purposely tried to piss them off it’s just a natural effortless ability that I have🤷♀️
They’ve recently changed our way of working because our CEO is giant bell end, I mean like seriously he makes super villains look like Samaritans by comparison
He’s trying to push his absolutely unrealistic plans through by trying to manipulate figures and unbelievably our managers seem to be going along with it (I guess coz he already made 10000 of them redundant immediately after making a massive profit, I mean WTF!!!!)
But anyway these new ways of working are particularly bad news for me coz it means more indoor work which due to my concentration issues I massively struggle with
I can comfortably do 30mins prep, cracks begin to show after 45mins but anything after an hour it’s highly likely I’ll be getting hauled into the office to discuss my attitude
And the other issue is that even though they’ve massively increased our workload, and we now have to spend even more time in the office meaning we have even less time out on delivery, we are not allowed to work past our finish time and if we do we don’t get paid for it
So this means that we have to cut off to concentrate on delivering premium products and bring the rest back to the office
This is a particular problem for me because I (as many/most ADHDers) suffer with time blindness
I not only have to work out how long it will take me to do a loop but I have to work out how long it will take my partner (coz my partners are usually slower than me, it’s the one advantage of my ADHD hyperactivity)
It’s hard and sometimes I get it wrong because I don’t realise how much time has passed when I’ve been waiting for my partner. So the last time I looked at the clock we had enough time to do the next bit but I thought I’d only waited 5 mins when actually I’d been lost in my head and it’s actually been 20mins
Then I get back to the office and get yelled at and told I’m not trying hard enough, I’m taking the piss, oh and I got accused of lying and when I sent proof that I wasn’t I got absolutely no apology
I’ve absolutely tried my hardest but I had to tell the managers that the workload is unachievable
So as a reward for attempting to stick up for myself and the hundreds of others that are also unable to complete this ridiculous amount of work, they had nobody prepping my round the following day
Luckily my colleagues noticed and rallied round and shamed the managers into getting 2 people to throw in as much as they possibly could before I arrived
But I still had a tonne of prep left when I got there which I did my best with but once I’ve run outta brain petrol obviously I’m gonna kick off, I genuinely can’t help it
I’m so pissed off at the moment
I can’t understand why I’ve gone from being the favourite to suddenly being earmarked as one to get rid of
They threatened to suspend me not long back but I got my union rep in and they really didn’t have cause and they knew if I contested it it’d get overturned but they seem to be really trying to make my life difficult and I’m an easy target
They announced that there’d be redundancies and I guess managers have been given instructions to sack or bully people enough so that they’ll leave so they can keep that redundancy pay down and also they want to hire new starters on less pay and worse terms
It’s working coz 6 from my office have left already
They’re absolute fucking wankers
Sorry rant over for now, sometimes it just helps writing it down
I can get frustrated sometimes and when I do it can be quite vocal and sometimes I go into a no cycle (where I say nope I’m not doing that and it’s damn near impossible to get me out of that zone once I’m in it)
So I can find myself summoned to the office fairly frequently but I do recognise when I’ve been a dick and I always apologise and I’m usually embarrassed by my erm almost teenager style meltdowns (it is pretty pathetic)
But I’m an adult and I’ve learnt to recognise my triggers and I try to avoid those situations wherever possible sometimes I need a little help from my managers to be able to avoid those scenarios
This unfortunately means that my bosses know my triggers and how to push my buttons and of late they have been using them as a way of punishing me because they think I’ve been purposely trying to piss them off
I haven’t purposely tried to piss them off it’s just a natural effortless ability that I have🤷♀️
They’ve recently changed our way of working because our CEO is giant bell end, I mean like seriously he makes super villains look like Samaritans by comparison
He’s trying to push his absolutely unrealistic plans through by trying to manipulate figures and unbelievably our managers seem to be going along with it (I guess coz he already made 10000 of them redundant immediately after making a massive profit, I mean WTF!!!!)
But anyway these new ways of working are particularly bad news for me coz it means more indoor work which due to my concentration issues I massively struggle with
I can comfortably do 30mins prep, cracks begin to show after 45mins but anything after an hour it’s highly likely I’ll be getting hauled into the office to discuss my attitude
And the other issue is that even though they’ve massively increased our workload, and we now have to spend even more time in the office meaning we have even less time out on delivery, we are not allowed to work past our finish time and if we do we don’t get paid for it
So this means that we have to cut off to concentrate on delivering premium products and bring the rest back to the office
This is a particular problem for me because I (as many/most ADHDers) suffer with time blindness
I not only have to work out how long it will take me to do a loop but I have to work out how long it will take my partner (coz my partners are usually slower than me, it’s the one advantage of my ADHD hyperactivity)
It’s hard and sometimes I get it wrong because I don’t realise how much time has passed when I’ve been waiting for my partner. So the last time I looked at the clock we had enough time to do the next bit but I thought I’d only waited 5 mins when actually I’d been lost in my head and it’s actually been 20mins
Then I get back to the office and get yelled at and told I’m not trying hard enough, I’m taking the piss, oh and I got accused of lying and when I sent proof that I wasn’t I got absolutely no apology
I’ve absolutely tried my hardest but I had to tell the managers that the workload is unachievable
So as a reward for attempting to stick up for myself and the hundreds of others that are also unable to complete this ridiculous amount of work, they had nobody prepping my round the following day
Luckily my colleagues noticed and rallied round and shamed the managers into getting 2 people to throw in as much as they possibly could before I arrived
But I still had a tonne of prep left when I got there which I did my best with but once I’ve run outta brain petrol obviously I’m gonna kick off, I genuinely can’t help it
I’m so pissed off at the moment
I can’t understand why I’ve gone from being the favourite to suddenly being earmarked as one to get rid of
They threatened to suspend me not long back but I got my union rep in and they really didn’t have cause and they knew if I contested it it’d get overturned but they seem to be really trying to make my life difficult and I’m an easy target
They announced that there’d be redundancies and I guess managers have been given instructions to sack or bully people enough so that they’ll leave so they can keep that redundancy pay down and also they want to hire new starters on less pay and worse terms
It’s working coz 6 from my office have left already
They’re absolute fucking wankers
Sorry rant over for now, sometimes it just helps writing it down