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Post by Deleted on Nov 8, 2009 20:34:14 GMT
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Post by andy12345 on Nov 8, 2009 22:39:26 GMT
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Post by haydreamer on Jan 14, 2010 0:13:05 GMT
Simone, i have a very difficult mother, moods, argumentative, bully and manipulation, hysterical, -she's ill but can't see it, she escapes in a bottle of wine most nights and the verbal abuse and crying starts, my home life is pretty unstable but like Andy, I am not at the point in my life where i can move out of home just yet, i have lived away, but like andy- its the fear of being in low paid job and weary that stuff could fall apart
Life for me is a delicate balancing act.
''One of the reasons I live alone is because I can better control stimuli in my environment. I feel safe and know that I can shut the world out if I need to. The down side to this is that I get lonely and sometimes, I shut the world out for too long. ''
I do this alot- glad 2 know u feel this way
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Post by andy12345 on Jan 14, 2010 0:36:51 GMT
Amazing, I leave the site for 3? 4? days. This thread is on auto notificate by email thingy. I leave the room for 10 mins. About 6 mins ago I thought "hmmmm, I think I will post on aadduk about MY total lack of any achievement during this perpetual darkness (I mean the one outside as in the sky!) " Ding, hay posts about the madness! Then I am reminded of my mother being a bit tricky because it's actually quite difficult to talk about subjects either in depth or delicate issues, so I am always reminded " don't bother anyway, it gets me or her nowhere" Obviously, as I have posted many times, my diplomatic skills are not too great anyway. It is very hard to leave your residence if it's just going to be more tricky stuff. Why bother with all that trauma? Bring on the meds or whatever works, I say. I am not sure what I will do if they work for me and I then have less excuse not to live a life? ?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! arghhh, can't win. Bottle of wine medication. 12% alcohol...... 750ml (I presume) thats about 8-9 units.....hmmmm
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Post by haydreamer on Jan 14, 2010 1:13:38 GMT
Andy-u know the saying, great minds think alike, you get the pic lol!! Is exaggeration an ADHD trait-cos she drinks about 2 glasses, so, when you write it like that, it looks wrong and is not a fact Well, at my ripe old age, ok 31, not suprised by anything!
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Post by Deleted on Jan 14, 2010 18:45:18 GMT
Im 33 and hadto go to a low paided job and battle on even though I dont feel confident or well, I have no parents or family to fall back on. If I didnt work I wouldnt be able to afford the morgage on house then id end up going bankrupt and homeless. I have no choice, i have a degree in nursing but can do the job infact i find concerttating in any job hard even the one im at, like im in my own little world.
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Post by haydreamer on Jan 15, 2010 0:02:54 GMT
I can understand where u mean meg, I am in a low paid job, I have been off work with depression, im petrified, got to find the strenght to get back there-work in healthcare- I wish i were more independent, but I just have to be thank ful I am not homeless.
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Post by Deleted on Jan 15, 2010 15:34:11 GMT
I wasnt having a go Im down at mo eveyday is hard, but if i give up with out trying ill be on incapacity benifit and nevercome off it, which scares me to death.
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Post by haydreamer on Jan 16, 2010 16:57:53 GMT
i didn't think that, i think you show a lot of courage meg, you should be proud,you struggle but get on with life, i think we have strength but often dont realise it
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Post by tigger on Jan 16, 2010 20:15:27 GMT
every day is a slog to work.its liek i work for the weekend and then it starts all over again. in the summer i dint know what was wrong but its like i lost all will and energy to work and i dint.hence i let ppl down and my business has sufered but m getting bk there. its like a go all lethargic and then when i start rushing my brain gets hot and i get confussed and try to do to many things. then my brain just stops i sit down and cant move. i think oh well fk it y whould i work.i have worked my rse of all my life. ppl ask me how my business is and i say yeh loads of work in a mundan way and they say wow u could be more enthusiastic buts its just life u know
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Post by andy12345 on Jan 16, 2010 23:40:53 GMT
I'm sick of the groundhog day existence.!
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