Post by magicnick1990 on Feb 13, 2010 11:56:59 GMT
In my recent quest to try and decide for myself whether I have ADHD or bi-polar. Or both... I thought of one behavioural trait / problem that I know it very specific to ADHD so this is what makes me lean more partially to ADHD...
It's the inability to put anything above the 'now'. I've always had problems with it, especially the last few years. Say I have money in the bank, say £60, that I KNOW I have to pay to my dad or leave in there for the bank for tomorrow...
I get on one of my little 'manic' random spending sprees - Whatever the produce may be (often not actual produce but... We'll leave that) - I find it near-impossible, in fact I don't think I've ever succeeded once in putting the future... Depression, problem and regret ahead of my current need.
So, using the £60 example - Even though I know that I have to pay my dad the very next day and if I blow it now, there is no single way I can get it back or hide it from my dad - Knowing it'll lead to an argument and depression and that's not nice... the excitement of the short-span but immediate fulfillment is too overbearing and ALWAYS wins.
I just can't really fully accept the future responsibility. I'm aware of it and cautious of it... I can picture how horrible it'll be quite vividly but the... Short-lived, immediate joy always outweighs it in my mind. In my head the 'future' even if it's... the very next day, seems way way ahead. In my head it's almost like a week because in terms of hours, it's a very long time to me.
I remember hearing Russell Barkley describe this very well and I immediately related. Do you think my behaviour as described is very specific to ADHD, I can't imagine this is a common problem for all?
It's the inability to put anything above the 'now'. I've always had problems with it, especially the last few years. Say I have money in the bank, say £60, that I KNOW I have to pay to my dad or leave in there for the bank for tomorrow...
I get on one of my little 'manic' random spending sprees - Whatever the produce may be (often not actual produce but... We'll leave that) - I find it near-impossible, in fact I don't think I've ever succeeded once in putting the future... Depression, problem and regret ahead of my current need.
So, using the £60 example - Even though I know that I have to pay my dad the very next day and if I blow it now, there is no single way I can get it back or hide it from my dad - Knowing it'll lead to an argument and depression and that's not nice... the excitement of the short-span but immediate fulfillment is too overbearing and ALWAYS wins.
I just can't really fully accept the future responsibility. I'm aware of it and cautious of it... I can picture how horrible it'll be quite vividly but the... Short-lived, immediate joy always outweighs it in my mind. In my head the 'future' even if it's... the very next day, seems way way ahead. In my head it's almost like a week because in terms of hours, it's a very long time to me.
I remember hearing Russell Barkley describe this very well and I immediately related. Do you think my behaviour as described is very specific to ADHD, I can't imagine this is a common problem for all?