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Post by brainfog on Jun 23, 2013 17:10:55 GMT
aww, yes I agree reading on here how everyone functions has defo made me have deeper understanding,
Im going to do the complementary route before I decide to take meds, so there will be more clutter to come in my house with a library of books, tips and strategies and anything else I find along the way x oh and probably a host of vitamins, omega 3 and what ever anyone has had any good result with.
xxx sorry for going off the thread, so I will just add another very short metaphor that my brain is just like scrabbled egg, yuck that's not a nice image xx perhaps just scrambled x
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Post by Kathymel on Jun 23, 2013 18:56:14 GMT
... so interesting here what life is really like inside the mind of adhders x Isn't it, though! mine at the moment is like a big box of cereals and somewhere inside it, I know there is a prize (something I need), but inside the box is dark and there is a lot of movement going on and shuffling around trying to find what it is I need, I feel im close but I just cant get to it. I can relate to many on here, especially the quieter, foggier ones. Your cereal box is a good one. Sometimes it feels like trying to remember a dream when you wake up - the harder you try to hold on to the thought you've just had, the faster it slips away. If only everything wasn't quite so muddy. Mike, you'll be proud of me, today. I de-cluttered my back room. ALL the paper piles have been filed/thrown. I even found a table. AND ... the table is now on my FB page along with the chairs looking for a new owner.
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Post by jan on Jun 23, 2013 19:04:44 GMT
hooray - well done you xx - and its progress cos you didn't even need a challenge from LB to do it
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Post by brainfog on Jun 23, 2013 19:18:37 GMT
Well done, that's great, bet you feel better for it x
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Post by dizzydee on Jun 24, 2013 14:37:03 GMT
Well done Kathy, I like the dream metaphor a lot I have thought od a way to describe mine now with the help of everyone else's answers Mine is quite like a Ferris wheel if I miss my thought on its way round, I have to wait until it comes back round again. Ta Da this feels like an achievement for me I have used words to describe an emotion!!
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Post by Kathymel on Jun 24, 2013 18:41:41 GMT
Mine is quite like a Ferris wheel if I miss my thought on its way round, I have to wait until it comes back round again. Ta Da this feels like an achievement for me I have used words to describe an emotion!! Yes, I like that, as well. And if you're looking the wrong way when it goes past, you have to wait another turn.
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Post by Kathymel on Nov 11, 2013 23:41:40 GMT
I still come back to this thought quite often cos I don't really think I ever pinned down how it feels for me. I still worry that I don't really have ADHD becaue the inside of my head doesn't feel like a television set with all the channels going at once, despite all the evidence that suggests this is only true for a very few people and (forgive me if you're one of them) seems a bit inaccurate.
Anyway, I was at a support group the other week and got given a load of pamphlets. They've been in my bag ever since and, because I'm having to have a horrible meeting with Genghis's school again on Wednesday, I happened to pick them up to see if they said anything that might help.
Lo and behold, I found my metaphor!
It does involve a TV. It goes like this:
"It's as if the channel keeps changing. Imagine you are watching the news on BBC1. Suddenly, someone picks up the remote control and flicks over to ITV. A second later the programme changes to Channel 4 and then back to BBC1. Then it switches to BBC2. If you were asked about the news on BBC1, you might find it hard to remember."
So simple. I nearly cried.
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Post by JJ on Nov 11, 2013 23:48:02 GMT
Yep - I like that, and can identify with it Btw, if you think you don't have adhd, you have bigger mental health problems than we thought
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Post by Kathymel on Nov 11, 2013 23:59:09 GMT
Thank you, JJ. That made me laugh like a drain. It would be so much easier if we could see what others see. Maybe. Maybe that's not such a good idea ...
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Post by Deleted on Nov 12, 2013 2:26:20 GMT
I still come back to this thought quite often cos I don't really think I ever pinned down how it feels for me. I think I know what you mean. Sometimes, I think my head is completely empty but then I ask myself how can this be true? I think the sad truth is I started 'ignoring' myself long ago so it doesn't actually matter what thoughts may or may not be whizzing round, I ignore all of it, possibly. I have tried to, mindfully, document the process and it is such a mammoth task. I don't even know why. I can think of examples where my mind does it's 'tangents' thing but I can't capture in-the-moment what I am thinking. It's there and it's gone, then it's there and replaced - I think. Service car - now overdue by 3 months because... fuck knows. Here are some of the general thoughts I have when I try and think about it. 1. Change oil and filter Which oil? VW505.1? Check price. Current price is ridiculous. Find alternative. Which alternative? API SL/CF appears to match VW505.00 specification. Wait, can I use 505.00 or does it have to be 505.01? FFS. Where is my oil extractor? Where is my oil reservoir? Does the extractor even get all the oil out? Shall I just drop the sump plug? Will I get oil everywhere? Is the extractor in the attic? When did I use it last? Which car did I service last? When am I going to get a dry day to do this work?Will I have the motivation to do it when this mythical dry day appears??? 2. Fuel filter Have I got the tool to remove the current filter? No idea. How can I check? Ask Dad/check forums/look under bonnet for current fixings. Do none of these things. Unable to buy fuel filter. 3. Air filter Easiest of all. I think. No point buying it without the other stuff though. After running through this a few times, I eventually arrive at... JUST TAKE IT TO A FUCKING GARAGE AND STOP CONSIDERING THESE OPTIONS!!! ...but then I'm wasting money. Value for money, y0! It's all about the value. I then go back to looking at various oils with a sideline idea of selling my car and getting something else. wtf. The only reason I know this process is because I have done it so often. I have no idea what I generally think about day to day but if I had to hazard a guess, it follows a similar pattern.
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Post by Clockwatcher on Nov 12, 2013 8:37:37 GMT
I think I know what you mean. Sometimes, I think my head is completely empty but then I ask myself how can this be true? I think the sad truth is I started 'ignoring' myself long ago so it doesn't actually matter what thoughts may or may not be whizzing round, I ignore all of it, possibly. I have tried to, mindfully, document the process and it is such a mammoth task. I don't even know why. I can think of examples where my mind does it's 'tangents' thing but I can't capture in-the-moment what I am thinking. It's there and it's gone, then it's there and replaced - I think. Service car - now overdue by 3 months because... fuck knows. Here are some of the general thoughts I have when I try and think about it. 1. Change oil and filter Which oil? VW505.1? Check price. Current price is ridiculous. Find alternative. Which alternative? API SL/CF appears to match VW505.00 specification. Wait, can I use 505.00 or does it have to be 505.01? FFS. Where is my oil extractor? Where is my oil reservoir? Does the extractor even get all the oil out? Shall I just drop the sump plug? Will I get oil everywhere? Is the extractor in the attic? When did I use it last? Which car did I service last? When am I going to get a dry day to do this work?Will I have the motivation to do it when this mythical dry day appears??? 2. Fuel filter Have I got the tool to remove the current filter? No idea. How can I check? Ask Dad/check forums/look under bonnet for current fixings. Do none of these things. Unable to buy fuel filter. 3. Air filter Easiest of all. I think. No point buying it without the other stuff though. After running through this a few times, I eventually arrive at... JUST TAKE IT TO A FUCKING GARAGE AND STOP CONSIDERING THESE OPTIONS!!! ...but then I'm wasting money. Value for money, y0! It's all about the value. I then go back to looking at various oils with a sideline idea of selling my car and getting something else. wtf. The only reason I know this process is because I have done it so often. I have no idea what I generally think about day to day but if I had to hazard a guess, it follows a similar pattern. FFS, this is a snapshot of my brain every single day, every single decision.
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Post by Kathymel on Nov 12, 2013 9:24:38 GMT
Yes! And then when you're bored with thinking about all the problems, your mind handily drops the subject for you and moves on to something else. I have been up to my boat three times to prepare it for winter and each time I have got so bogged down with the details that I've done nothing. Going to HAVE to do something before the bloody thing freezes. But what DO you do with gallons of spent antifreeze mixture from out of the radiators? How do you get it out? How do you get it to the tip? Where do you put the new stuff in? How much will 40 liters of antifreeze cost? Can't I just leave them empty? What about the water heater? And the pipes? Arrrrrgggghhhh!!!!! Ooh, there's a new post of Facebook ...
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Post by JJ on Nov 12, 2013 12:36:19 GMT
Oh goodness, Michael's described it perfectly.... All the bloody indecision and head going round Was a big surprise to me when saw meds affecting my decision making - deliberation time dropped a lot - I had no idea before this wasn't how everyone else was.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 12, 2013 17:14:48 GMT
I still come back to this thought quite often cos I don't really think I ever pinned down how it feels for me. I think I know what you mean. Sometimes, I think my head is completely empty but then I ask myself how can this be true? I think the sad truth is I started 'ignoring' myself long ago so it doesn't actually matter what thoughts may or may not be whizzing round, I ignore all of it, possibly. I have tried to, mindfully, document the process and it is such a mammoth task. I don't even know why. I can think of examples where my mind does it's 'tangents' thing but I can't capture in-the-moment what I am thinking. It's there and it's gone, then it's there and replaced - I think. Do you have the meaning of life type thoughts whizzing round? PhD or Nobel prize winning stuff? I'm not taking the piss (honest!) - I just consider myself to be educated, reasonably intelligent, and have also done some mindfulness stuff - but 99.9% of the crap that rattles round my head is best ignored. It's just observations, recalling a dream, then irrelevant tangental thoughts (I'm hungry, what shall I eat, ooh that cheese I had yesterday was nice, but gave me weird dreams, why did I dream about drowning, I haven't been swimming for a while.....and so on). Perhaps my brain does this so it can whizz through the irrelevant, boring thoughts and focus on the remaining 0.01% that matters. (The thought process you described about your car - which I also experience - is different to the random thoughts that come and go for me)
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Post by mighty on Nov 13, 2013 21:32:44 GMT
I had some good ones, and then I lost them, and then I read that thing about a pack of cards, so I liked that Gonna reel off some things that come to mind now.. some made up, some I've read Like a racecar (with dodgy brakes). Like everyone has a torchbeam, and most people have a consistent, relatively focused beam that scans the world steadily, takes in what it needs to, and leaves out what it doesn't. But mine is a really wide beam most of the time, taking in too many things to do much with for long, and the beam moves erratically, I can't really control it. The beam width fluctuates a lot more than other peoples'. Sometimes it is really shining thinly on one thing really carefully, at the expense of leaving the rest of the world in darkness. Like staying on top of things is precarious, like I'm running on a barrel, on water. If I stop running for the briefest moment, I'll tip over the barrel and plunge into the water, and have a hard time getting back onto it! Most people prefer to travel by raft. But for everyone, life is a river that can have rocks and rapids! My mind is like a yo-yo, my moods go up and down, Sometimes I jump for joy, Others times I frown. But also, also.. If thoughts are like bubbles, practicing meditation and mindfulness, just general waking awareness and not getting sucked away by thoughts... has allowed me to see the bubbles when they're forming in the depths, way before they surface. I can just leave them alone and not get carried away into the sky in a giant bubble. Like most other people are shown the world, and are really hung up on trying to break down all its qualities, analyse them and make into smaller parts. I want to put things together, and make them bigger.
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