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Post by notsureletmethink on Dec 3, 2013 22:19:31 GMT
Got my referral date ! Came through 4th February Much sooner than expected really. I find myself lately thinking of escape routes. Just like everything else thinking what's the point @ 53 And am I not making a big deal Then I was going through some stuff & found My disclosure & was reminded of my violent past which seems like a film of someone else's life. I'm a grandfather these days I don't drink I'm self employed can earn a good living I've so much to live for. Yet everyday feels like its Survival. I've exhausted all the fixes And now I'm almost housebound by fear Debts are mounting daily I've carrier bags of unopened letters bills & demands & it all feels meaningless Something tells me I should bring the carrier bags & disclosure to my referral lol x
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Post by fuzzywuzzy on Dec 3, 2013 22:51:11 GMT
Bloody Brilliant! well done you not too long to wait could you take someone with you who can vouch for the piles of unopened post, as well as whatever the opposite of 'sing your praises' is......corroborating evidence..... At one (very dark) point, four years ago, my dad had to help me sort through 15 bin liners full that I'd hidden, hoping the paperwork fairies would sort it... Amazingly, I was still blissfully unaware that I wasn't quite normal
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Post by fuzzywuzzy on Dec 3, 2013 22:51:53 GMT
P.s. you look great for 53
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Post by contrarymary on Dec 3, 2013 23:18:23 GMT
brilliant. well done. that will come round pretty fast. scary but good. hold fast. you are not the oldest - not even the oldest on this forum. the age range seems to be something like 18-73. it is a big deal, so worth making it one. understanding, accepting, letting go, treating, living - seems worth it to me. and you are worth it too. and it would be great to leave fixes and fear behind. is it worth it to get a diagnosis Lesley? ah yes, the piles of unopened letters..... i have learned to open them and then leave the contents piled while recycling the envelopes. i usually sort the letters into action piles but procrastinate the actions. unless or until i have someone around who can help me think out loud and actually do things. external accountability seems to work wonders when someone is sitting in my house and waiting for me to do it. or even simply providing a counterpoint to the distraction or the fear of doing it wrong. can you ask someone to come and hang out with you while you open some and sort them into piles? maybe even swap a few hours of your help with something for their company? a little help goes a long way, and it's amazing the sense of relief that comes from making some progress.
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Post by Lesley on Dec 4, 2013 0:06:38 GMT
It's definitely worth getting a diagnosis - I was 62 when I got mine (64 now), and it was such a relief!
Re the carrier bags of unopened letters - one of the things I did before my appointment was to take a few photos of the untidiest parts of my house and of the 8 pieces of unfinished knitting I had discovered in a wardrobe (that's a story for another time) and take them with me. I didn't actually show them to the psychiatrist, but I knew they were there if a question was asked to which they could provide the answer. Perhaps you could do that with your carrier bags?
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Post by meepmeep on Dec 4, 2013 8:50:58 GMT
53...ya got plenty of life in ya old bean.
Hope it works out for ya.
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Post by manson88 on Dec 4, 2013 10:02:48 GMT
Well I certainly hope for you, you can get what you are looking. I hope that you get easier than some of us.
Keep fighting.
Sent from my GT-I9300 using proboards
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