Post by starfish on Feb 18, 2014 18:49:56 GMT
Hello!
Not sure if this is the right board but, ah well... this could be just me so I thought I'd put it out there.
I have real difficulty in communication! Not the general, everyday stuff, I can do that with anyone and I just LOVE to talk!
My issue is a more sensitive one, I have a real problem when it comes to discussing anything personal, or any issues with my partner. He has reached the end of his tether (he is most definitely non ADHD) and spends most of his time confused by my behaviour or just getting really angry with me as he doesn't get it and thinks I'm just being difficult or purposefully hurtful. I always seem to place anything 'meaningful' on the back burner and find an excuse to pop out, walk the dog, speak to my Mum on the phone for hours, say 'we'll talk later' and then not...just avoid situations I find really difficult.
Whenever I have to speak out about personal stuff or emotional issues I almost find myself tongue tied. I know what I want to say but it just doesn't come out, or I will sit there thinking what I should be voicing... like my mouth has been glued.
Whilst he is not perfect I know that I am the one responsible for the majority of issues we are currently facing. The more pressure I seem to be under the more difficult I find things.
So, is it just me? Is this indicative of ADDi?
I was only diagnosed last April so I am still learning... having said that I am a full on procrastinator and could be doing a lot more than I currently am to help myself (and my partner). It's all very overwhelming and I don't really know where to start (even though I have been told by my consultant)... I have 50 years behind me to account for and, apart from my kids, there doesn't seem to be that much!
Sorry, HELP!, thank you!
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