Post by meepmeep on Dec 26, 2014 14:57:37 GMT
...wait? Who the hell is MeepMeep?
It doesn't matter.
So a little story of my last year. Last year on Xmas day, I was completely by myself for the majority of the day, ended up having an argument with a sibling, a terrible day. As I was still in muddy waters, I was experimenting with substances to the point where I hallucinated, whilst in this state, it felt like my heart was slowing day..."Is this it? Have I gone too far..." Beat...Beat....Beat.....Beat....
Luckily it wasn't. It wasn't an attempted suicide, it was as I said, an experiment. For too long have I been like that, experimenting with substances, silly but that use to be me...
Realization slowly set in...I must change, I can't give up...Yes life is hard, yes there's so many asses out there, but there has to be a reason for all this, who am I if I never chase a dream and battle the odds?
Fast forward for a diagnosis, woo, a few hicups here and there, but nothing on that major scale.
The following may be controversial, but it's my experience, and what I've found helpful, so I'm not inviting a discussion on it's merits, rather just sharing some words.
What worked for me:
- 0 Alcohol, for years I've drank heavily, I started to notice my downer lasts around 3 days, it's crap.
- Weed - I dont care what studies are saying, for me, I find the effect lingers the next day, it takes away my will to strive. P.s. I've smoked the stuff for 13 years of my life, was proper in to it, and know the field pretty damn well. In a matter of months, I went cold turkey. May be a relapse here or there, but in a social situation. Not whilst alone.
- Do not talk about mental health issues, people are irritating and ill informed.
- Do not involve myself with depressive/self pity type people, this sounds incredibly harsh, and let me explain myself. I am the type who will help anyone, don't care who it is. But for me to help someone, I satisfy myself that the person is willing to accept help/ready to change. Otherwise I feel it's a waste of time and that person will potentially just get me down.
- A few solid friends.
- Chasing a dream; I was always the tubby kid, I worked my ass off, lost 3 stones, put some muscle on, got a hair cut, changed my look. I felt so much better, was in much better health. This has a side effect, I attracted a very fine young lady, whom in the past I would of looked at and thought "Wow, it's not even worth talking to her, she's probably got all these other awesome guys........" and the rest of the crap. Nope, she's all mine, going strong all good in the hood.
So fast forward a year to this christmas:
- Only me and my little brother around on Xmas day despite having a big family...
- GF prepared a lovely turkey and gave it to me.
- A nice Xmas day was had. A million times better than the last.
- A year ago I was on the verge of being sacked, now I'm doing super well and a part of the management chain ;-)
- Two years ago, dating a 2/10 women, now 8/10. Sorry if this sounds a bit shallow, but we all like nice things right?
What is the point of all this crap MeepMeep?
Just sharing my experience, some may be able to relate, some may feel it's the work of the devil, each to their own.
Stay safe people, just remember no matter what, there's always tomorrow, no matter how bad things seem, there's always a way to fix it. Stay strong, find the will to strive, chase a dream, find happiness.
A belated Merry Christmas to you all.
It doesn't matter.
So a little story of my last year. Last year on Xmas day, I was completely by myself for the majority of the day, ended up having an argument with a sibling, a terrible day. As I was still in muddy waters, I was experimenting with substances to the point where I hallucinated, whilst in this state, it felt like my heart was slowing day..."Is this it? Have I gone too far..." Beat...Beat....Beat.....Beat....
Luckily it wasn't. It wasn't an attempted suicide, it was as I said, an experiment. For too long have I been like that, experimenting with substances, silly but that use to be me...
Realization slowly set in...I must change, I can't give up...Yes life is hard, yes there's so many asses out there, but there has to be a reason for all this, who am I if I never chase a dream and battle the odds?
Fast forward for a diagnosis, woo, a few hicups here and there, but nothing on that major scale.
The following may be controversial, but it's my experience, and what I've found helpful, so I'm not inviting a discussion on it's merits, rather just sharing some words.
What worked for me:
- 0 Alcohol, for years I've drank heavily, I started to notice my downer lasts around 3 days, it's crap.
- Weed - I dont care what studies are saying, for me, I find the effect lingers the next day, it takes away my will to strive. P.s. I've smoked the stuff for 13 years of my life, was proper in to it, and know the field pretty damn well. In a matter of months, I went cold turkey. May be a relapse here or there, but in a social situation. Not whilst alone.
- Do not talk about mental health issues, people are irritating and ill informed.
- Do not involve myself with depressive/self pity type people, this sounds incredibly harsh, and let me explain myself. I am the type who will help anyone, don't care who it is. But for me to help someone, I satisfy myself that the person is willing to accept help/ready to change. Otherwise I feel it's a waste of time and that person will potentially just get me down.
- A few solid friends.
- Chasing a dream; I was always the tubby kid, I worked my ass off, lost 3 stones, put some muscle on, got a hair cut, changed my look. I felt so much better, was in much better health. This has a side effect, I attracted a very fine young lady, whom in the past I would of looked at and thought "Wow, it's not even worth talking to her, she's probably got all these other awesome guys........" and the rest of the crap. Nope, she's all mine, going strong all good in the hood.
So fast forward a year to this christmas:
- Only me and my little brother around on Xmas day despite having a big family...
- GF prepared a lovely turkey and gave it to me.
- A nice Xmas day was had. A million times better than the last.
- A year ago I was on the verge of being sacked, now I'm doing super well and a part of the management chain ;-)
- Two years ago, dating a 2/10 women, now 8/10. Sorry if this sounds a bit shallow, but we all like nice things right?
What is the point of all this crap MeepMeep?
Just sharing my experience, some may be able to relate, some may feel it's the work of the devil, each to their own.
Stay safe people, just remember no matter what, there's always tomorrow, no matter how bad things seem, there's always a way to fix it. Stay strong, find the will to strive, chase a dream, find happiness.
A belated Merry Christmas to you all.