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Post by random on Feb 12, 2015 9:27:08 GMT
This has inspired me. I don't post very much, not sure that what I do is of interest, and I find it hard to get questions I have down in writing. This week has been strange. Went away last week, came back Sat. Mon and tues I was feeling really lethargic. Number of attempts to get up. Had some breakfast then collapsed back onto the bed. I have a number of regular activities and a couple things I need to force myself to do. But the regular appts are all in the afternoon. There is a this assumption that people with mental health issues can't do things in the morning because it take time to get going (eg take meds) and this becomes a self fulfilling prophecy. Anyway, yesterday (Wed) was a bit different. Had email on tues asking if someone can be available from 800-1300 to wait for a contractor to appear at a community project I am involved with. Err no, didn't want to commit to that. Take 2 is an email at 830 (read on my phone lying in bed) whether someone could cover for an hour whilst someone else got on with day job. Agreed to go at 10, immediately cracked to getting some washing up done, packing lunch .. deciding whether to go by bike or bus (needed to go somewhere late morning that was a little awkward by bike) and arrived around 9:45. I had hoped that I could write a few emails at the project while waiting. Turns out there was no power, hence no light or internet. But I did something useful using my laptop offline. Today, after a couple of iterations being about to get dressed and then lying on bed and surfing the web (eg aaduk forums ) on my phone I decided to take my clothes to the bathroom and get dressed there. Maybe tonight I will put the clothes I want to wear on chair in spare room (where I have a desk that I never use because it is too untidy - story for another day).
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Post by Mouse on Feb 12, 2015 11:21:29 GMT
:)Decisions decisions about gettng dressed. I struggle to keep to a getting dressed routine on non work days (and tbh on some work days too).
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Post by contrarymary on Feb 12, 2015 16:40:29 GMT
my morning routine is getting better, it's my evening routine that tends to slip. my day will be shaped by what i do first thing, so that is the thing to grab and be disciplined about.
i'm learning that if i go online and read forum/FB/emails etc i'll end up getting carried away and the time will disappear and i will start the day playing catch up. but if i have an early morning framework for myself it will hold me up and get me going, and somehow sustain me for the rest of the day.
so i'm trying to start with meditation and yoga, with getting dressed and tidying round and Only Then going on line. It's like saying hello to my mind then body, preparing my body then my house ... i'm giving myself the armour i need, equipping my inner and outer spaces to be outsideworld-proof
I can only make clothes work if they are part of the routine of the evening before, so that's in my wind down routine - along with prepping supper, making hot water bottle, getting ready for shower etc. If i'm staying home or doing something casual the next day i put clothes in a neatly folded pile in the bathroom, and change in there.
But if going out and need to wear particular clothes (eg meeting, funeral) I hang them in the bedroom overnight - there is something reassuring about knowing that i Know what i'm going to wear, and seeing it there waiting for me... somehow it gives me a similar sort of external accountability as having someone else around - who knew?
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Post by random on Feb 14, 2015 10:46:47 GMT
Thanks ContraryMary. I have two probs with clothes.
One is if I change my trousers, I am worried about going out without my keys.
Other is gardening proof trousers. I do a couple of gardening related activities. Have trousees that are allotment safe but not safer for much else too hol(e)y. At the otehr extreme are ones I dont want to get dirty. Someitimes I go allootment/ garden and go somewere else afterwards. Sometimes I want to go to allotment but I cant be bothered to change so Idont go.
I need to get into habit of thinking night before.
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Post by twix on Feb 16, 2015 10:19:09 GMT
I put my clothes on the sofa the night before on work days. It helps me and it means I can get dressed in the living room because I get up earlier than my OH.
Non work days I take it easy.
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Post by twix on Feb 16, 2015 10:20:17 GMT
I have trousers that go over my other trousers for muddy stuff.
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Post by random on Feb 16, 2015 18:27:05 GMT
Was sick in night and been in bed all day. So don't feel up to much of an update
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Post by contrarymary on Feb 16, 2015 21:18:57 GMT
hope you feel better soon random
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Post by random on Feb 17, 2015 8:39:54 GMT
Managed to keep scrambled egg down. Feeling rather week, not sure what to do today. Not sure if I am up to the bike ride to garden project.
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Post by random on Feb 18, 2015 8:09:45 GMT
Feeling a bit better but still tired.
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Post by random on Feb 18, 2015 18:24:04 GMT
Feeling a lot better today. Went to cycle to park. Only about 1/2 mile but glad I didnt try going further. Still feeling a bit weak though.
But I have nothing planned tomorrow so I might drift through the day doing little. Have to get ready for my trip to York.
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Post by random on Feb 19, 2015 21:02:48 GMT
Good news. I am almost better. Bad news OH has got it so I am acting as nurse.
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Post by random on Feb 23, 2015 9:52:58 GMT
Have had quite a good weekend away in York. But feeling apprehensive about the train journey back. Sometimes I find it too noisey.
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Post by random on Feb 26, 2015 10:37:09 GMT
Still not well - can't shake off the cold symptoms. But had good evening yesterday. Impulsively made some soup and washed up . managed not to lie down on bed (my defence mechanism when stressed)
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Post by petra on Feb 26, 2015 13:07:39 GMT
managed not to lie down on bed (my defence mechanism when stressed) This is my defence mechanism when I'm stressed or depressed - it shuts the world out - I know I'm doing well when it doesn't happen as much.
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Post by contrarymary on Feb 26, 2015 17:42:58 GMT
ha. i go and sit On my bed and close the bedroom door... feel shut away from the world and Safe, with a green view and spare duvet - still not In Bed so it doesn't count!
or sometimes delaying getting up in the morning, occasionally until the afternoon, because even if i don't go out that counts as Facing The World...
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Post by random on Mar 21, 2015 13:00:52 GMT
Sorry. Not been active here. Some days have been busy , other days rather depressed.
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Post by manson88 on Mar 21, 2015 20:03:19 GMT
Do you know what I would love right now, Week in a local 5 star hotel with a spa & massage every day. A WiFi connection & just be able to lie on in bed and not have to answer to anyone.
Just to be on my own & away from all the fuss and drama.
Oh the numbers tonight would be great!
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Post by chaoticwitch on May 30, 2015 10:50:42 GMT
I do like the idea of random jottings.
I have many journals that I have written over the years. I don't know what to do with them now. Don't want to throw them away but I never read them and they just take up space.
When the internet came along I started doing blogs but could never remember my password so ended up with lots of blogs with only a couple of entries
But a section for random jottings makes sense to me.
I am at present sat here, still in bed, nearly the afternoon, I know I have things to do, but I love my nest (my bed). It is my safe haven and I can certainly get lost in the comfort and security it offers me.
But sometimes it sucks me in, I know I have to leave it, but really don't want to.
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Post by contrarymary on May 30, 2015 11:30:13 GMT
hello chaoticwitch this is this random's jottings - the diary thread of random mine's contrarycorner you could have a lot of fun with naming your own - just start a new thread in the diary section et voila!
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Post by chaoticwitch on May 30, 2015 11:31:59 GMT
Thanks contrarymary, I have found that now. Sorry for jumping on someone else's
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Post by contrarymary on May 30, 2015 11:34:35 GMT
no worries it's a very adhd thing to not take in the bit at the top that says what it is. i'm still learning that i almost always skim-read stuff and don't see the really important bits - like enclose a deposit, or send it by x deadline
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Post by random on Jun 25, 2015 9:35:05 GMT
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