Post by Minkey on Apr 6, 2015 0:35:15 GMT
I don't know. I've been feeling the need to say something, for the past month. Yes, it's been over a month since I last wrote something on this forum. And felt guilty for seemingly disappearing after voicing my concerns then getting some great and caring responses. But I didn't feel as though I had much of anything to report. I had been waiting on getting an appointment for diagnosis. And waiting.
And waiting.
And getting anxious and waiting. Until I couldn't stand it and wrote a couple of emails to the ADHD clinic in Bristol. And didn't that made me feel slightly stalkerish, especially after the third email went unanswered and I called. They never got those emails, or ohoho, so they say. Ugh. Nevermind. I went back to waiting. Then, the letter came. A date. Oh my God.
So, that might have been the time I said something, here 'cos I still have a thing about 'thinking' things ought to get done by a certain time, never mind should.
My assessment is for this Tuesday. And since a month ago, various things came up that felt an awful lot like crisis. I wanted to say crisises, but I am certain that's not a proper word, though crisis seems so... singular. Yeah, well... some of those things are still making me... struggle is the only word which comes to mind. And half freak out, and feel pissed, and my friend telling me it's normal to feel like I'm out of control. I've felt this way more since I've been aware of the possibility of me having ADHD. Although at this point, saying 'possibility' feels very much a useless token gesture. I'll still say it though, since a part of me is panicked at what ifs. Which I don't want to voice so I'll just stop here and try to go to bed. Soon.
And waiting.
And getting anxious and waiting. Until I couldn't stand it and wrote a couple of emails to the ADHD clinic in Bristol. And didn't that made me feel slightly stalkerish, especially after the third email went unanswered and I called. They never got those emails, or ohoho, so they say. Ugh. Nevermind. I went back to waiting. Then, the letter came. A date. Oh my God.
So, that might have been the time I said something, here 'cos I still have a thing about 'thinking' things ought to get done by a certain time, never mind should.
My assessment is for this Tuesday. And since a month ago, various things came up that felt an awful lot like crisis. I wanted to say crisises, but I am certain that's not a proper word, though crisis seems so... singular. Yeah, well... some of those things are still making me... struggle is the only word which comes to mind. And half freak out, and feel pissed, and my friend telling me it's normal to feel like I'm out of control. I've felt this way more since I've been aware of the possibility of me having ADHD. Although at this point, saying 'possibility' feels very much a useless token gesture. I'll still say it though, since a part of me is panicked at what ifs. Which I don't want to voice so I'll just stop here and try to go to bed. Soon.