Post by mishery on Oct 2, 2015 10:05:46 GMT
What do you do when you have a big ADHD slip?
I work in higher education and I created a really fancy electronic diary system to make sure I don't forget stuff, miss meetings, classes that I teach etc. It had been working really well until yesterday. I had put in two teaching sesssions but some how missed putting that there was a third class.
I got a frantic phone call from a colleague as I was on the train home about this, by which point it was too late for me to make it back to work to give the class and anyway I had to pick up my child from after-school club. My colleague ended up taking the class and is clearly quite angry with me, which is completely fair, s/he is currently snowed under with work.
Having made a couple of other slips recently this feels like a great big kick when I am down. I am very feeling very low and impotent. I created my fancy electronic diary as I had missed classes, meetings etc. previously. I know what will follow now, folk will give me obvious advice about how not to miss stuff. They will be being nice and trying to help and I will want to punch them, in my head I will be screaming "Don't you think I haven't tried that? I am not a complete ****ing idiot!".
The words "nothing works" are on loop in my head and getting the way of doing any work today. I have wasted most of my day so far going through emails, timetables etc. to make sure I don't miss anything else. All the time filled with the knowledge that no matter how hard I try, whatever methods I use to try work round my ADHD, the same situation will happen again.
Working at home today and feel like getting drunk just to shut down the "nothing works" loop and reduce my anxiety. I won't really get drunk during the day, but I probably will tonight.
What do you do when you have a big ADHD slip?
I work in higher education and I created a really fancy electronic diary system to make sure I don't forget stuff, miss meetings, classes that I teach etc. It had been working really well until yesterday. I had put in two teaching sesssions but some how missed putting that there was a third class.
I got a frantic phone call from a colleague as I was on the train home about this, by which point it was too late for me to make it back to work to give the class and anyway I had to pick up my child from after-school club. My colleague ended up taking the class and is clearly quite angry with me, which is completely fair, s/he is currently snowed under with work.
Having made a couple of other slips recently this feels like a great big kick when I am down. I am very feeling very low and impotent. I created my fancy electronic diary as I had missed classes, meetings etc. previously. I know what will follow now, folk will give me obvious advice about how not to miss stuff. They will be being nice and trying to help and I will want to punch them, in my head I will be screaming "Don't you think I haven't tried that? I am not a complete ****ing idiot!".
The words "nothing works" are on loop in my head and getting the way of doing any work today. I have wasted most of my day so far going through emails, timetables etc. to make sure I don't miss anything else. All the time filled with the knowledge that no matter how hard I try, whatever methods I use to try work round my ADHD, the same situation will happen again.
Working at home today and feel like getting drunk just to shut down the "nothing works" loop and reduce my anxiety. I won't really get drunk during the day, but I probably will tonight.
What do you do when you have a big ADHD slip?