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Post by bethmusician on Jan 6, 2016 9:38:54 GMT
Nearly achieved glove wholeness!! They haven't been a pair in over a year. One was in the car, one was lost. Then I found it but lost the car one. Ive had vague sightings of both over the last few months but not managed to reunite them. I am currently feeling awful and lost after the death of my 16 year old dog and best friend, Dylan, last week. He needed a lot of care over the last couple of years and my head couldnt cope with much more than his routine and incontinence management! So everything else stood still. So to distract myself from the horribly empty house, ive been furiously decluttering. I now know for sure that one glove is on the stairs and the other is definitely on the chest of drawers upstairs. Amid this sad horrible feeling, glove reunion seems like a major milestone.
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Post by bethmusician on Jan 7, 2016 9:25:28 GMT
I had to do a gig last night. im truly devastated about the death of my dog, i have also felt ill for the last couple of years anyway so the grief hit me at my most fragile. And a gig was the last thing I wanted to do.
I also had one of my numb, tingly episodes and didnt feel alert enough to drive there. had to set off late after it had eased off a bit. I hate motorways too, and It was an hours drive on the most scary one.
I would have had no chance wihout a sat nav. when I got there, it took me half an hour of wandering the streets feeling exhausted, ill and miserable to even find the venue! then I had to mingle. it was a political gig with loads of great community activists but I felt so bad I wanted to run out of there.my vision was blurred, felt sick and trying to stop thinking about my dog so i didnt burst into tears.
did a few songs and it went well
had a horrible journey home because sat nav was going on with itself a bit and I couldn't take the instructions in quickly enough. missed couple of turnings!
but I did it. I dont feel any sense of achievement, just numb at the loss of my best doggy friend.
time will make it better... but I wish it would hurry up.
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Post by bethmusician on Jan 14, 2016 9:28:01 GMT
Had a funny turn in the HSBC yesterday... I was on their computer doing online banking when the right half of the screen went blurred & surreal looking. the kind of blurred like when you have greasy ointment in your eye. then i got waves of sickness. it was quite scary. went outside feeling awful & got a big rush of what i assume to be panic but different sensation to anxiety Ive experienced. i put it down to migraine aura an anxiety but went to A&E to get checked out. They didnt even mention migraine, they went straight to mini-strokes Coincidentally i have a brain scan booked today so A&E doctor has made me an appointment for the stroke clinic on friday... and i am full of a cold, have a horrendous cough that makes it unlikely i will stay still for the scan... and I hope it doesnt snow. Yay.
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Post by contrarymary on Jan 14, 2016 20:10:32 GMT
((((( bethmusician))))) you poor thing hope friday goes well...
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