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Post by ailsab on Jul 3, 2016 18:05:18 GMT
Sooo its basically been a year since I updated BUT its been one heck of a crazy year. long story short(ish);
I'm going to update on that separately and at another time as the side affects for me currently include a very fuzzy head (its taken an hour to type this post) but that's me up to date as of now
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Post by ailsab on Aug 3, 2015 13:40:42 GMT
*update*
So I have seen the private consultant 'twice!' As just one session wasn't long enough to fully explain my screwed up world apparently. It was exhausting talking about myself and especially focusing on my personal weaknesses/ issues. It wound me up more than I imagined. I'm just waiting for the results now but it keeps going through my mind that I didn't say the right things and he is just looking at me as a dyspraxic person with anxiety (which isn't strictly untrue)
Ah well back at uni now and fingers crossed for my grades!
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Post by ailsab on Jul 25, 2015 22:13:43 GMT
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Post by ailsab on Jul 25, 2015 19:20:29 GMT
so... anything? Just wondering
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Post by ailsab on Jul 23, 2015 18:20:15 GMT
Thanks guys I'm feeling more positive today, talked to the charity again today and they say I don't need a referral to see a private consultant so I'm keeping that appointment! Fingers crossed! That was one of the most annoying things jonbob, I did have my mum with me and her input was essentially brushed off
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Post by ailsab on Jul 22, 2015 9:59:43 GMT
Stressed and completely f!&£€d off atm. Saw the ADHD charity yesterday explained my situation and showed her my evidence (which incidentally, includes the original report identifying dyspraxia as an issue for me and reading it again it actually states in plain English "shows signs of ADD"!!) after this she agreed and said that this is as classic an example of ADHD as she had ever seen and then suggested doctors, books and support groups that would be beneficial to me. I thought great! Someone is physically in front of me who works with and understands ADHD and is seeing what I see, I'm not just making it up in my head! The rest should be plain sailing right?! WRONG. Went to see my GP this morning, repeated yesterday's explanation and showed her the same evidence and get fobbed off with the 'you are stressed/anxious/depressed take these pills and talk to this therapist and we can look at other options in a couple of months' tried to explain that the depression is a symptom and not route of my issues but got nowhere. Got frustrated and emotional and probably have crazy and delusional highlighted in my file now. Ended up leaving with a prescription for fluoxetine and more stress/anxiety than 20 minutes earlier
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Post by ailsab on Jul 21, 2015 15:46:34 GMT
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Post by ailsab on Jul 21, 2015 2:05:25 GMT
Arrrgh!!! Cannot sleep. At all. Possibly because I'm seeing the lady at the ADHD charity tomorrow. Possibly because I'm obsessing over how/when/if I can ever afford my own place to live (doubtful due to my lack of regular income and the current government not giving a rats a!se about anyone unless they are a banker or enjoy setting dogs on wildlife). Definitely because my brain WILL NOT SHUT UP!!! *sigh* and it's all like "wouldn't it be nice to do this" *brain~ it would fail~god you're stupid ~people would die~ fatty* thanks brain...
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Post by ailsab on Jul 20, 2015 23:51:13 GMT
Hi vagueandrandom, on a forum aiming to inform and assist people like this one I don't think it's possible to be 'over' involved so don't worry I personally like to read about everyone's individual experience, and cross reference them with my own. It's tough what you're going through with your mum and I can understand what you mean about not wanting to push it (I believe that I have a similar thing with my dad) but in the end her staying in denial and you needing to tip-toe around the subject helps neither of you in the long run. Is there anyone you can ask to act as a third party/buffer in discussing it with her? Or maybe take her with you to a councillor session so you have some backup on explaining what ADHD is and is not? Just throwing in some random ideas, sorry if I'm talking rubbish! x
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Post by ailsab on Jul 17, 2015 16:24:23 GMT
the past two days have been intense to say the least! 1) 3000 word assignment DONE. and while it was still as stressful as ever I think that extra self awareness of ADHD has helped with keeping me on track. Whether I pass or not 2) Told my 3 closest friends and my parents. My friends acted as expected. friend 1) me* I think I have inattentive ADHD* her- "are you sure you aren't just projecting?" *gives list of symptoms* "... ok yeah that's all you" friend 2) him "you think because your messy, forgetful and lose things all the time means you have ADHD? NO! your entire generation is messy, forgetful and looses things" me *well I do and I'm going to a doctor to prove it* he goes and does his own research, comes back "it does sound pretty similar to you..." friend 3) is my oldest friend and also studying medicine so I showed her the article that made me suspicious and said I think I have this, after reading it she just asked if I'd had a referral yet My Mum knew about the same time as I did (read the same post from my cousin) she has been so supportive getting info from her friend who works at an ADHD charity and researching privet ADHD assessors. I'm incredibly lucky to have her. My Dad was the last to know, not because I thought he would react negatively but because I knew it would worry him. It's complicated but he was lovely and I cried through the entire conversation. 3) From reading bits and bobs from other peoples diagnosis stories I have been warned that it's a loooooong process and not to hold my breath for miracles. HOWEVER next week I seem to have got a meeting with my mums friend at the ADHD charity, a GP appointment AND (if I can convince the GP to refer me) a meeting with a specialist (only because he's private). It goes against the grain to go pay and go private but I don't believe I can make the next few months in uni the way it has been so far So that's me! looking forward to a nice relaxing weekend now
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Post by ailsab on Jul 15, 2015 13:52:55 GMT
How do people break their obsessive habits? My long term habit is getting drawn into an 'idea' or world (ie a book or program) to the exclusion of everything else. Is this the same as others? How do you guys make yourself concentrate ? Right now I should be finishing an assignment due for Friday but i keep getting side tracked and sabotaged by my own wandering thoughts :/ suggestions welcome. llap.
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Post by ailsab on Jul 15, 2015 0:24:49 GMT
I have tried several times in the past to keep a journal of my daily thoughts and actions (prompted largely by teachers, family and friends when they witness how abysmal my short term memory is) the most recent time(s) this has been suggested I say with all the self depreciating Humer I can muster "if I didn't lose my pen I would forget the dam ... Er... What was I saying?" Sometimes I'd get a chuckle... Anyway I WILL keep this up! There's a light at the end of the tunnel that is finally understanding the why and what of my particular quirks and hopefully some help in getting around the more destructive of said quirks. My rose tinted glasses are so sparkly .So, recently I got pointed in the direction of a news article regarding women with ADHD and was slightly concerned that someone had obviously stalked my life and made a report on it and connected it with ADHD, after pinching myself and reading it again it sunk in that the article is several years old and the woman was American. After this came the Google search and the discussion with my mum and the booking of an appointment with a doctor. long story short I'm 99.9% sure that I have inattentive ADHD which has been hiding in plain sight behind a diagnosis of dyspraxia and dyslexia (I don't do things by halves...) there is more (you have been warned!) but now Zzz. Peace.
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