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Post by Lame44 on Dec 11, 2009 19:47:10 GMT
Anyone else do this? I cant help it, and I do it over and over at times, the same things too. I kept making farting noises recently, in the waiting room to see my psch yesterday being one of em, and in Asda today. At times it takes me all my energy to keep it in, but I need to do it loads then, either it comes out loud, or it comes out many times but it feels good afterwards, lmao. I used to walk round saying 'bollocks' (forgive the language) but saying it while breathing inwards. I do it alot, and copy the way people talk, or how they say thhings. At times I know there are things I shouldn't say, like calling certain things out to people who are a different colour to me for example, but it just has to come out, and I cant always keep it in without it stressing me out alot. It hasn't got me into much trouble yet, well, not really bad, but I have upset a few people in my time. I just wondered how many of you do it, n what kinds of things do you do? Other things I have done, or do are make chicken sounds, say 'I'm a whale' while trying to sound like whale song, lol. I laugh about it now of course because it's stupid, but it's not funny really!
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Post by twix on Dec 11, 2009 19:49:56 GMT
Do you think you might have tourettes? My friend does and he often does things like that.
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Post by twix on Dec 11, 2009 19:54:42 GMT
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Post by Lame44 on Dec 11, 2009 20:30:42 GMT
Erm...funny you should say that, because Mam told me recently, after my ADHD diagnosis, that my stepDad has always said I have that. I told my psych about the things I do or say, well I wrote him two letters n sent coz I was too embaressed to say it to his face, n he said it was impulses becuase of the ADHD.
I would have thought all of us ADHD people would do it, maybe they dont, I dunno, s'why I asked, lol.
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Post by Lame44 on Dec 13, 2009 20:39:22 GMT
Twix, do I take it that you dont do this hon? Lol
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Post by Mouse on Dec 14, 2009 0:52:54 GMT
I think blurting out is a common trait but not necessarily Tourette's. I think it is a case of words out before brain fully engaged. At work I make a real effort to avoid this as usually the blurts are either confusing or not terribly diplomatic - neither of which is useful in a customer service role! Stressful situations like using self check out tills at Sainsbury usually bring forth several 'you bastards', and if announcements are made over the tannoy I'll probably be walking around parrotting them as I shop, especially if there is something odd or amusing about the way they've been said.
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Post by twix on Dec 14, 2009 18:51:32 GMT
I don't think I do? at least not in the same way. I am known for being tactless and direct but that's sort of me. I do swear quite a bit as well, but I don't think its impulsive. I suppose I thought of tourettes because my friend does similar like the noises and stuff, and because I used to know a boy with it who said what you are saying about storing it up for later taking all his energy. (he was trying to hide it at school) My impulsive side tends to be physical rather than verbal I suppose, wanting to be climbing on/over things and wanting to jump and wanting to touch things (like if its fluffy or shiny or textured) and walk barefoot on the wet grass or on sand or stones and be in water, I suppose its sensory. Anyway, who knows which is what?
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Post by Deleted on Dec 14, 2009 19:38:59 GMT
My worst time is at work meetings, i feel compelled to sit at the front & butt into every topic, luckily its quite amusing for our small number of staff, they're quite used to me..
I do accidentally say the F word at inappropriate times, i think its quite an un-called-for word for ladies hehe, is stored in my subconscious under my naughty list, hense why it blurts out i suppose??
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Post by Lame44 on Dec 14, 2009 21:22:44 GMT
Thanks all. I may write to my psych and ask him about it in more detail coz he said it was impulses before, and I'm not seeing him now until next year when the anger management starts. I know its starts in Jan, but I have an operation due on the 13th Jan, so I may have to wait til a few months later until the next anger management starts and I dont want to really wait that long....hey who of us does like waiting? lol!
I whistle too at times, stupid whistles. I've had a talk with my gf the weekend, and told her how I feel like Im trapped in a small box if I dont do or say some of the things I do, or say, or repeat over and over again. She told me to let it out. Thing is I know it annoys her at times, and I can get quite loud doing it. I get looks too if I'm on the bus etc etc...I have noticed I let it out more when I'm out too, because then I feel Zena (my gf) can always pretend not to be near me, or go off if she gets too annoyed with me or what I'm doing/saying.
As I said, she says to let it out now I've told her how it makes me when I have to keep it in. She does tend to ignore it at times which is a blessing, and sometimes we can laugh about it.
Other times it can make me uncomfy and I can get into trouble. I do swear, at times, not always. I screeched out really, really loud once while talking to myself at one of my old jobs, and it was embarressing, but after I got over the shock of everyone looking at me, I kinda luaghed it off to myself on my own, but I know I cant always go off and let it out, and I cant always laugh about it coz its just not funny at times.
I sound like a parrot, as someone said here they 'parrot' stuff. One of my exes and me were going to the US once too, and she warned me before that I better not tell them at the airport that I was carrying a bomb, coz she said they take it really seriously and would have carted me off with guns pointing. Luckily (I think) I told her I didnt want to go, so I didn't, but you can see why shje would have warned me, and she wouldn't have said it if she wasn't worried about me blurting stuff out.
Maybe I should mention this to my psych? I dunno, its kinda embarressing.
The othert hing is that I look at my Mam and see me. Everyone says ADHD is more common in boys, but my Mam...I swaer to go God she has it too. She has defo got OCD one of her doctors told her, and you can tell. BUt I think she has ADHD and or tourettes too, but she wont talk to her pysch properly.
She makes noises, goes around saying naughty things, she clucks like a chicken, she clears her thraota nd sniffs like no one I have ever seen or heard, my God I dont know how in the hells name she doesn't hurt her nose to be honmest. The noises that come out of it when she sniffs that hard, it makes my eyes water.
When she clears her throat too, she nearly deafens me, and I'm already completely deaf in one ear btw. I do notice that I clear my throat alot, but its not like there is anything to clear. I know I do it when I'm stressed and trying to keep things in, so maybe thats what Mam does.
Her rages are terrible too, and she will trash things, and she even threw a dyson vacuum out her front door once and down the front steps. My stepDad just tells her to stop swearing or saying the things she does, and she tries too. Its like we set each other off though when we are near each other or when I go round to see her sometimes.
Shes not like it always, if shes trying to watch something she likes or doing something on her pc, but other times she is a mad woman. She forgets alot of stuff too, and she has to touch things like I do, a certain ammount of times. If she offers you a sweet, she has to give you two, or four as she doesn't like the odd numbers, nor do I.
Lmfao, I cant help but laugh as I type some of the things me or she does, but it's not funny really is it?! Its embarressinga t times, n trying to calm her down from a temper is not good, nor is it if Im raging either!
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Post by Deleted on Dec 14, 2009 21:41:16 GMT
Hi Ryan we all have our little quirks that makes us unique, i get embarassed when i say or do inapprpriate things, i wear heart on sleeve and im very open, which gets me into trouble i can also be quite hyper which can be overbearing to some, but hehoh. Let me know what anger managment like, when i get angry it makes me act terribly impulsive, i hate it.
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Post by Lame44 on Dec 14, 2009 22:28:35 GMT
I will Meggie. Thats when I know when I'm going coz of the operation I'm having in Jan, but I might try and move the operation back a bit anyway. I dont fancy having my hcest ripped open again and trying to walk around on icy roads and paths What kind of things do you do in rages. I smash things, punch things, even hit myself (ouch, lol). I even ask my gf things, then sometimes she doesnt get the chance to answer, I just answer for her and carry on having ago at her. It's not funny at all, I ask her summat, and if she dont answer me right away thats it, I answer for her, and it upsets her alot. I swear at her, and scream at her, and call her nasty thing recently When I've stopped I feel so ill and so sick for the things I've said, I want to die there and then It's not very nice is it?
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Post by Deleted on Dec 15, 2009 9:19:30 GMT
Ive smashed glasses and mugs cut my arm once, i use a punch bag now, these days my anger seem to come out in sadness and i just get depressed. Then im all sorry for the next few days and feel terribly guilty, ive said horrible things to people. I think this site helps as when i feel angry depressed etc, i write my blog on here, my moods are up and down, you may have noticed.
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Post by Skybird on Dec 15, 2009 11:12:28 GMT
I say things without thinking about it quite a lot and then I end up getting in trouble or I look like an idiot. Before I knew anything about ADHD I used to think I was just stupid and I'd wonder why other people didn't have problems. I have a pretty foul temper at times and when I'm angry I will shout, scream and cry about it. In the past I have dealt with my anger by self harming but I haven't done that in almost two years. I have a punchbag which I bought to practice martial arts techniques which helps to a degree and I also have an LJ which I rant on. Afterwards I feel terrible that I've got so angry in the first place.
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Post by Lame44 on Dec 15, 2009 11:59:35 GMT
Aww sorry to hear you two used to self harm too. I've got some scars on my arms from doing it years ago too. They look terrible and I try to hide my arms now when I think about them. I think we've rambled off topic though, lol, typical us eh? Sky and Meggie, do you both repeath things to yourself over and over, or have to let things out. If I dont let things out I feel like I cant breathe sometimes, its like everything gets big inside me, and I need to explode. I think thats when I do things really loud, or repeat them really quick, much to the annoyance of Zena. I know she does try to ignore it, but sometimes, and more recnelty I've taken to making a noise using my tongue, it sounds like drums beating really fast, like a drum roll. I think she hates it and when she tries to stop me, I cant.....I mean I do stop, but I can feel it welling up and I end up doing it really fast and loud and quickly. I'm sat here cringing because you must all think I'm a nutcase since no one has really said they do the same.
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Post by Lame44 on Dec 15, 2009 12:06:02 GMT
Stressful situations like using self check out tills at Sainsbury usually bring forth several 'you bastards', and if announcements are made over the tannoy I'll probably be walking around parrotting them as I shop, especially if there is something odd or amusing about the way they've been said. Ah, theres the parroting bit, lol. The thing is I dont necessarily have to find it odd or amusing to just come out n say it. If I hear anyone with a different accent, out it pops, whats theyve said, in the way they talk, lol. But other times, nothing really sticks out but I just say it, or say half of it and sometimes will keep saying it over n over til it's out my system, until it flares up again shortly afterwards. Or things will just pop up into my head and I'll be thinking about summat and I'll end up saying it out loud over and over, sometimes with mre severity than other times. It;s like if it doesn't feel right I do it again n again til its out. Then it may start up over again, I think it depends on what I'm doing though and whats in my mind, or not as the case seems to be, lmao.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 16, 2009 21:15:16 GMT
Are you on meds? (sorry just scanned through the messages). I am sure I have just read somewhere that medication for ADHD causes (well doesn't cause but 'brings out') tourettes or similar??? Interesting. I find I am constantly swearing under my breath (its just about permanently lol) Hope the kids cannot hear me!
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Post by Lame44 on Dec 16, 2009 21:27:38 GMT
Are you on meds? (sorry just scanned through the messages). I am sure I have just read somewhere that medication for ADHD causes (well doesn't cause but 'brings out') tourettes or similar??? Interesting. I find I am constantly swearing under my breath (its just about permanently lol) Hope the kids cannot hear me! Hiya Bonkers, No I'm not on any meds, not yet. I've not lonmg been diagnosed with Adult ADHD. Now I have to wait to see a local psychiatrist to get the meds. I guess if he does give me them, going by what you say about them making it come out, I'll soon know, lol. Just out of interest, anyone know is there anything that can be done about Tourettes?
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Post by Deleted on Dec 18, 2009 16:26:20 GMT
There can be an overlap between the features of Tourrettes and ADHD as with other conditions. My biggest problem that way is blurting out something inappropriate. My apologies again (if he posts on this board) to the chap at La Galleria last night for blurting out the punchline to your story before you got there I wanted to bite my tongue off
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Post by Deleted on Dec 18, 2009 17:29:40 GMT
I do thAT loads but in also cant handle people going on long tangents when I already understand what they mean, I find that, that dislike makes myself very consice at times but other times ramble myself as good as rest just think sometimes when there is an issue of time people can be oblivious and just go on and on and on other times its just as I know I will lose the thread of the talk and will just have no reply and have awkward silence as forget my points real easy and often very interesting and once I loose its aarrrgg so anoying its a conversation killler so you cant win its either interupt people and be seen as rude or have nothink to say and be seen as bland.
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Post by Lame44 on Dec 23, 2009 22:09:47 GMT
I guess I should rename this thread coz although I do blurt stuff out while trying to wait for people to finish what they are saying, I seem to 'blurt' stuff out randomly. Last night was a good example......I was in Merry Hell (Merry Hill) with my gf and her cousins and I came out with 'Gollem' (Lord of the Rings) suddenly, loudly and in the type of voice Gollem does it in, in the film. It came out so suddenly, I didnt even think about it, the people in front of me jumped so bad that they moved out of the way. The people with me laughed, and I just grinned, but I didnt even think about it, it just came out, wasn't in my head at all. Usually I have htings in my head that want to come out when they shouldn't, and I can feel it building up, and I get tired holding it in, but this was one of the worse ones, there was no warning, no reason that I can see, it just happened! Do I take it that since no one else has mentioned anything, that htis doesn't happen to anyone else. My gf thinks I do it on purpose, and I feel hurt that she thinks I'd do such stupid htings to be honest ad it's getting to me, at least tonight it is. I've had bad news today, I'm depressed, downa nd tired, and well, just had enough. My gf saying she thinks I'd do it on purpose now just topped it all off How that came about was that I mentioned about what people had said here about Tourettes, and the medication for my ADHD and said well, I guess we'd soon know....she replied...'oh well how do I know you wont do it on purpose when you take them to make me think you were doing it coz of something else'. I mean...yea, thanks
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Post by Lame44 on Dec 29, 2009 18:45:16 GMT
Blah...I must be the only one then
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Post by Deleted on Dec 29, 2009 20:34:40 GMT
No your not i always say things without thinking its like my mouth isnt engaged to my brain sometimes and my impulsiveness gets best of me. Its defo adhd.
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Post by Lame44 on Dec 31, 2009 11:00:09 GMT
Sorry about that last post, I was just getting abit stressed and down about it all. I thought everyone with ADHD did the same as me and got as tired as me when trying to make things stay inside. I've popped a letter into the place where my psych works yesterday as me n my GF were up near there shopping for some bargains in the shopping centre just round the corner.
He had called me earlier in the day too, to sort out was my GP was doing with the local psychiatrist, but I couldn't tell him over the fone about all this, I wanted to, but I didn't have the words. I remembered what I'd written down about it all and what goes on, n stuffed it in an envelope n said that my family thought I had touretes thing coz they way I do stuff n used to swear doing it too at times, n asked if there was a test he could do on me to find out.
God knows what he must think, n the next time I'm seeing him now is at the anger management group, so I guess I just have to wait n see. I do find I get really embarressed talking about the things I do or say when I talk to him, I cover my face n laugh alot about it and can feel myself burning up, so I guess I'll have that to come again....gggrrrroan
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Post by Deleted on Dec 31, 2009 17:20:51 GMT
I speak 100 miles an hour and fidget alot when i see pschi i think its cause i know they have power to change our lives. Dont beat self up over it.
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Post by Lame44 on Jan 12, 2010 19:29:53 GMT
I had a call from my psychologist because I had sent him a letter about all this a short while ago. He said that I would need to wait n see how things go with the meds for the ADHD when I've seen the psychiatrist. I told him of my concerns over the pysch not giving me the meds, but he said he will be seeing him tomo and will have a chat to him, n that I should get some meds for my ADHD. He also said that I need to start accepting the 'impulses' or whatever they are. I just get so down about the 'impulses' though, some days I can take it, n some I cant. It makes me feel stupid, thick, dumb, brain damaged even, and more so...'damaged goods' a 'nutcase' I annoy my gf or get shouted at by people or family for doing what I do. I also get funny looks in the street, on the buses etc etc. I wonder if I'm worse when I'm out because it worries me more, as I do seem worse, yet sometimes I'm not so bad?! I can sit inside n like now and do things though, my friend is here at the mo, he's staying for a while as his gf fell out with him, n he doesn't really bat an eyelid at what I do. Thats one good thing, but as I say out side it different, I worry more about it, but yet it happens more sometimes if I'm stressed or worried. I guess we will see what the meds bring but I'm not due to see the pych til Feb. I am however seeing a lady tomo to do an assessment and meet me before I start the anger management next week which is another good thing to look forward to. Scared but still looking forwards
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Post by twix on Jan 12, 2010 21:05:24 GMT
Good luck tomorrow and its good that your friend is like that. Its a shame your gf can't see that you aren't doing this deliberately.
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Post by twix on Jan 12, 2010 21:14:05 GMT
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Post by Lame44 on Jan 12, 2010 22:44:30 GMT
Hi Twix, I've spoke with my gf, she didn't mean it nastily, it's just that I've tried to keep it hidden from her for so long that now it's coming out more n more, the longer I've been with her and am more relaxed, I dont think she understood. She's heard people talking about me in the past recently, like my sister the other day and realises now how hard it's been. I still am convinced I annoy her, though she says it doesn't Yea I saw that guy...I'm not quite like that, I dont go round calling everyone a wanker every five mins, I sometimes say worse, sometimes not, and althoughI have 'phases' where I say the same things, they dont usually last as long as his did, ie months and months. Some of the things I do, I hide away, like I can hide it with covering my face or something when I feel it coming on, but obviously I cant when I say things. I do try and at times I bite myself to stop myself from doing it, I know it sounds odd, but I just have to bite if I really dont want it to come out, but it doesn't always work Infact I'm pretty sure that my Mam has Tourettes and ADHD...she gets labled as personality disorder, but she doesnt talk to anyone about the htings she does. She goes around clucking at times, screaming, she clears her throat loads and loads, so loud it makes me jump sometimes. I know she haas OCD and that can come with ADHD cant it? Maybe I'm like htis coz she passed it on to me??!!
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Post by twix on Jan 12, 2010 23:10:05 GMT
Adhd definitely runs in families. Don't know about the others but probably cause they are all related. The thing I was trying to say and forgot, well one of them, lol is that I watched that series of BB and at the beginning Pete's symptoms were noticeable, but by a week or so in I never noticed, once you know someone you stop seeing stuff like that it sort of becomes background. I think I have lost track of what I am rambling about now..... but I hope you get some of what I am on about.....not really whether you are like him but more general. (I'm distractable today...) Pleased you have talked to your gf and try not to stress about it. Gonna shut up now
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Post by Lame44 on Jan 13, 2010 15:59:00 GMT
Hey Twix, I get what you mean, yes, lol. The apt today was cancelled, had a call as I was getting ready Wasn't very pleased tbh, but still, she said just turn up to the anger management next Wednesday anyway. I thought it was Thursday, but nope, Wed, lol.
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