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Post by Deleted on Feb 18, 2015 14:09:14 GMT
I managed to remember to take my best clothes off when working on the house this morning. We had a leak in a convoluted pipe that leads from the washing machine through the bathroom and out to the exterior waste system. Usually, I'll start the job in exploratory terms with a view to changing into some work clothes when I start proper. Invariably I'll then zone into the job and completely forget that I might have my Sunday best on. This morning I didn't and nothing was snagged and/or ruined whilst nothing has had to go back in the wash. I rule
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Post by rhiannon on Feb 18, 2015 14:38:21 GMT
I have been sticking to my written plan very well so far this week which is a major achievement for me! I've even remembered to eat adequately which is unusual for me when I'm away from home Also I have a date on Sunday with a guy that ticks all the boxes (vegan, 6ft2, athletic, intelligent ) so super psyched about that and have a bit of a school girl crush going on right now These are my current positive things and successes both big and small.
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Post by contrarymary on Feb 18, 2015 15:35:38 GMT
managed to get up & dressed despite feeling really viral, switch my mindset when wanted to beat myself up about having wasted the day, do some gentle yoga stretches in the fresh air, make some food, and find a quick & easy way to get the admin job done which has been a complete roadblock in my mind. have i done what i planned to so far this week? not at all. part of me feels chaotic and useless. and in danger of being swamped by what is left to do within deadlines. but i'm consciously turning away from that judgemental voice in my head, and from the idea that other people will think less of me. instead i'm actively deciding to be kind to myself and do what's possible rather than beating myself up and giving in to overwhelm. a quiet victory phew
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Post by Foxtrot on Feb 18, 2015 17:28:49 GMT
I caught up with my emails at work. You have no idea what mountainous challenge that was!!!!! I'm exhausted!
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Post by contrarymary on Feb 18, 2015 20:33:08 GMT
washed my hair with only one lot of shampoo
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Post by petra on Feb 19, 2015 2:52:39 GMT
I answered the telephone today. I haven't done that for at least 7 months, maybe longer.
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Post by Bee on Feb 19, 2015 7:54:28 GMT
Little steps are steps in the right direction petra x x
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Post by rhiannon on Feb 19, 2015 8:32:55 GMT
You see for me that sounds like a really big step so massive kudos petra, you should feel very proud I have difficulty answering the phone as well especially if it isn't someone my phone recognises! *update* Also made a huge step forward just now, I rang the number given for the private psychiatrist and then got told they don't do the appointments and I would have to contact him directly so I got the number. Then I'm like argh stressful, why couldn't the first number have worked now I have to make another phone call (see above issue ). I contemplated leaving it until tomorrow but I persuaded myself to take the next step straight away yay! I'm very glad I did because I feel much happier about the whole thing now, the longest I will have to wait for help is 2-3 weeks *phew*
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Post by Bee on Feb 19, 2015 12:03:54 GMT
Oh I didn't mean it in a belittling way! I meant because it's such a simple action; to pick up the phone. But it can be so difficult. Maybe I didn't think carefully enough before posting. Apologies petra, I intended only to be supportive! Xx Bee xX
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Post by Deleted on Feb 19, 2015 12:59:36 GMT
I answered the telephone today. I haven't done that for at least 7 months, maybe longer. I go through phases of not answering my emails to those that I find facetious
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Post by rhiannon on Feb 19, 2015 14:09:39 GMT
Getting through today one step at a time but definitely beginning to feel a tad overwhelmed as the number of appointments I have and have to keep track of seems to keep growing exponentially! But instead of getting in a fuss about it I have just made note of the things I need to do in several places so I can't possibly forget Also forgot to note down to email someone but managed to remember soon enough, yay *phew*
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Post by petra on Feb 19, 2015 18:45:24 GMT
@ Bee - didn't think you were belittling AT all - I know you're nothing like that xxx
It was the landline I answered. I usually have my mobile turned off and then will return a call when I'm ready. I have spent far too much of my life being controlled by phone calls - people think they can ring when they want and take an hour or more of your time and energy...and I find it draining. Then, the last 5 years of my life have been so difficult and stressful, I've had no choice but to shut down from nearly anything and everything social bar very select people. So for me, the fact I willingly answered the land line - without knowing who it was or the reason for call shows an improvement in connecting to the world around me again. Thinking about it - I guess it's a root fear of people - I'm not much good with human beings!! Not sure to what extent I shall reconnect - but at least I have awareness and medication now, so it's my choice and in my own time.
Actually, I'd quite happily only ever talk to people on here. I feel at home and happy here. I wish we didn't all live so far apart.
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Post by random on Mar 3, 2015 17:01:36 GMT
Done first day of horticulture course.
Been asked to join a choir
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Post by astraka on Mar 14, 2015 22:30:20 GMT
I have ordered the book recommended by the adhd consultant. I have good intentions!
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Post by astraka on Mar 14, 2015 22:32:05 GMT
washed my hair with only one lot of shampoo Remembered to wash the conditioner out of my hair before exiting the shower and getting dressed!
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Post by Deleted on Mar 15, 2015 9:43:28 GMT
Shower time yesterday - Forgot the towel again. Luckily no-one at home ad all curtains/shutters closed. Wife suggested that in future she will fetch towel for me when dirty one goes in the wash. Poor woman
<In cowboy stylee> "Thanks pardnerrr"
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Post by manson88 on Mar 15, 2015 20:04:28 GMT
I done this today tiptoeing about the place to you get a towel lol
The orther thing that I hate is getting on to the toilet then suddenly realised that there's no toilet paper grrr!
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Post by Deleted on Mar 16, 2015 8:44:17 GMT
I done this today tiptoeing about the place to you get a towel lol The orther thing that I hate is getting on to the toilet then suddenly realised that there's no toilet paper grrr! The trouble is, in a sanitised environment there are no dock leaves to take us back to our hunter-gatherer period when modernity fails us. There's nothing like being cack-handed!
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Post by oldwolf on Mar 25, 2015 15:46:57 GMT
I actually just managed to stop myself playing a game when i became angry at it.
I play them alot, i dont have much else to do, and when i start getting things wrong or things happen that arent supposed to i get angry but keep playing and get even more angrier then throw my keyboard or mouse and break it when it gets too much.
Not this time. I forced myself to take a break from it to calm down. Go Me.
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Post by contrarymary on Mar 25, 2015 17:02:13 GMT
having a v down day... managed to get dressed into Going Out clothes, albeit by 3.30 pm, get outside the house and do yoga and meditation in the front garden in the sunshine. now trying to practice self-compassion
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Post by manson88 on Mar 25, 2015 19:15:49 GMT
^^^ contrarymary hope you get back on track nice and quick.. The simplest things are the hardest to do sometimes. Manson88
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Post by random on Mar 26, 2015 3:02:11 GMT
Don't want to go into details but I have had a constructive discussion with my mum's solicitor.
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Post by manson88 on Apr 5, 2015 21:27:01 GMT
So things do move on!
Never thought I'd sharing this.. Was at the psychiatrist on Thursday a positive meeting was had.
You guys may be aware that I'm on 40mg strattera and having great gains on it.
I'm more organised and focused on it. So organised that when I'm at work I forget to eat. It has even lifted my vibe my way of getting on & doing anything.
Anything that I have read about it has been negative. Ok at the very beginning was a bit rickety a few issues but it is like a lot of things you have to give it a chance. Let it run tweak as we go along.
Psychiatrist suggested that we stay at 40 mg as there's still ground to run on it. Gonna be at least 12weeks before the Strattera is at its best but warned me that it could stop working. (we are @ week 6 & the door was open to come back if it where to happen ) Plus it will give us some leverage for later.
He also mentioned that cause I had a DX before of boarder line Adhd inattention the meds may or may not work but is satisfied that they are working.
He confirmed that treating me has been a success so far that he's thinking of writing me a positive DX. To be honest I don't care about a DX really it's the fact that they have tried the medication for a set of conditions of which I'm experiencing & is working. Which equal to Adhd inattention.
Do you know, it was nice to go the hospital and there be with no anxiety! It was in a mental health hospital very modern, clinical, squeaky clean, professional and cold. Normally I would be intimated and anxiety levels off the scale. I'd be throwing up in the bin on the way in.
It was nice to rock on up to the doors being in cool calm collected state. Without the anxiety or the fear of dread hanging over me. Going there for a check up but not without the intention of trying to sell myself or persuade someone that I have a neurological condition that deserves treating.
I just wanted to say that 3 years it took to get to this stage. Hard work it was & is common as there's plenty of us people who come on here saying the same thing.
For you guys that are fighting it does & will get better! You just have to keep at it which is the hardest bit.
Keep at your gp to go forward and convince them that your symptoms have an impact on your day to day life and wellbeing.
It is tuff I know I have had 2 DX frame 2 different doctor's.
There was days I came on here and expressed my concerns and the senior folks on here told me to hold on don't give up!! (they know who they are),
manson88
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Post by contrarymary on Apr 6, 2015 21:56:40 GMT
I made a hat Over the weekend I knitted a hat for an amazing old lady who is always feeling the cold. Today I sewed it up and put it in the washing machine on 30C. Only the machine seems to have boiled it on about 50C and the hat came out shrunken and the wool had felted So I spent time stretching it and shaping it into a 1920s cloche-style hat I think it's Genius but it might not work for her
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Post by Babble on Apr 8, 2015 9:43:25 GMT
I passed my driving test 2nd time round, with only 4 minors! Super amazed, and proud of myself (didn't think I'd pass at all lol!)
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Post by Bee on Apr 17, 2015 14:39:54 GMT
Over the past few days, with the help of my partner, I've managed to NEARLY clear a mondo TO DO list that's been growing for months and I've been ignoring. Some important bits, some not - all of it getting me down. Almost done On top of that I've also done all my usual jobs (that I often don't do)! I washed our uniforms for work, I packed my lunch a night early, prepared the veg for our roast tonight - the meat is even in the slow cooker! AND I did the washing up! ALL of it! It's been weeks since either of us did the washing up we just wash up what we need at the time lol. And then to celebrate I did us a cooked breakfast this morning. Dirtying 2 frying pans, a saucepan, 2 plates and some cutlery. They can wait till next month!
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Post by astraka on May 8, 2015 20:51:26 GMT
Starting a new project on Monday. For which I'm being paid!
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Post by random on May 19, 2015 17:08:15 GMT
After an hour of procrastination made a salad which I enjoyed doing.
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Post by oldwolf on May 22, 2015 8:54:56 GMT
I finally have a cooker. I know that may not seem like much but i have been living here for around three years now. It was a case of 'a microwave works so why bother with a cooker when its just more expense'.
Another reason i haven't being i don't trust myself with them, i tend to get lose large amounts of time without realising and if its cooking something and i do that then... Well suffice it to say i avoid Gas cookers at all costs and just use electric, its safer that way haha!
Still, now that i finally do, my food bill will be significantly cheaper.
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Post by random on May 22, 2015 9:22:56 GMT
OH agrees to leave for work 15 mins late as it was clear I had something I needed to talk about. Intending to get next train but gets to station and finds normal train is running late and gets it.
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